Why don�t I ever cry
Why can�t I cry
I have feelings
I have emotions
I still have thoughts of the saddest moments of my life
Why won�t I cry
I wish I would
It almost seems like I can�t
I wish I could
In younger years I�ve cried over what seemed to be so important
Events that have seemed to be worth crying for
I want to now
Life
Life is just fucking with me
I know it
Life is what people cry about
And my life aint so nice right now
It�s just the opposite . . . I should be able to cry
But I can�t
Why not
It feels like if I could just do that
I could be
Almost
Free of burdens
Free of what holds me down
Each and every morning
Each and every night
Free of the pain that kills me each and every moment in between the two
Seems like crying is an easy way to relieve it all
All the stress
All the thoughts
All the pain
So why won�t I let me excuse myself of my hurts
My troubles
My anguish
She gave her heart to me . . . literally
I died that moment
The moment I responded her true love
With no
No I can�t take your heart
I don�t deserve it
It evaporated
Her heart
It left her body
As a gift for me
But I didn�t try
I didn�t even try
I couldn�t say anything
But I did everything
By whispering no
Without even a glance to her eyes
We stood in the dark
She waited
Hand held out
For me
And I verbally killed it
A heart is of tears
Tears are what make your soul unique
And that soul
Makes your heart genuine
Hers was genuine
It was honest
She was sincere
She gave her heart
To me
As a sincere gift
A gift
She suggested nothing about what I should do with it
Except
To take it
To love it
I saw it
It was waiting
Bright and iridescent in the near pitch blackness
I watched in wonder
In confusion
In memory
In pain
In faithful authentic passion
In love
Then I looked away
Into the shadows
Where only the darkness could hide my pain
My true feelings
The ones I could never show
Except to this one person
But I didn�t show
I looked away
Into the dark shadowy abyss
Whispering no
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