I heard our heart collapse
The only light I could see
Vanished with my word
I need to cry
From then to now a moon has shone its brightness
Nothing has healed
Nothing has fixed itself
Nothing has given me reason to move on
Nothing has changed
The broken heart still is unnoticeable from either body
It�s like she wants me admit I have it
That I secretly did accept it
And I know where it�s hidden
But that�s not true
I wish it were
But I can�t admit that
It would be a lie
And only the real true truth is acceptable here
Between us
. . . us
My soul tried to dive and catch it before it hit the floor
As my self stayed frozen by words
I couldn�t catch it quick enough
It left
It vanished
It evaporated
It evaporated before I even had a chance
A chance to catch it
To receive it
To appreciate it
I love you
I need to cry
Why can�t I
Why won�t my self let my tears fall
Fall and create another heart
A heart worth her
The past was brilliance
I could never compare
But at least I could try and put back some
My tears
They won�t come
If I had them
They would be because of you
And surely those tears would be worthy of you
I have none and you say it�s worthy enough
My tears would be of only you
I have no other pain in my life that could possibly overcome my crush
My crush
I was crushed
Your heart
So big
So true
So untouched
Never given out before
Never let seen before
Never even heard before
So pure
It crushed me
I gave the wrong answer
And I died
I died with our heart
No tears can bring us back
Not mine for you
Not yours for me
Love is not even enough
Not anymore
My tears wish it were
But my emptiness says otherwise
My emptiness
The void within me
It�s dry
No tears dare enter to saturate the waterlessness
To soak the dryness
To wet my pain
Tears are powerful
But tears are fearful as well
They seem not to show when even one drop could be satisfying
I don�t deserve the satisfaction of a tear
I have feelings
I have emotions
I should be able to cry
But if tears would fall
They�d almost be in vain
Because no tears can bring us back
Christopher J Vantress
February 11, 2004