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| ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ The Voice Of Dead Silence ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ THOUGHTS ~ Victim�s POV ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ Just when you think you know your friends, it backfires on you. To them, they don�t care how you feel when they do something wrong. And the finger gets pointed elsewhere... anywhere but themselves for blame. Believe me, I�ve been there. I tried to be the peacemaker as I always had been but it was too late. I was already the victim... they blamed me. ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ So this is it. It�s over. And they act like I don�t exist. Like each other never existed. It was one less to a unanimous vote. I tried... I really tried to keep us together. But I gave up. They wouldn�t listen. What was the use, you know? That one decision I made is one I�ll always regret, though. I said, �Yes.� ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ �Why do you have to be so selfish? Do you even care about the fans?� OK... so I haven�t always been great but shouldn�t they have been a bit more understanding? I mean, I had just lost a sister for Christ�s sake! What did they expect from me? Forget it ever happened and continue my life like it had no effect on me what so ever? That�s bull shit. ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ �Why should I bother listening to you... you don�t even care about us...� Of course I cared about them! They are my brothers... why wouldn�t I? I put up with them for almost ten years now so like I said... why wouldn�t I care about them? They have no right to say how they think I feel or how they think I am but don�t bother to hear me out. If they had listened... they would�ve known the truth. They would�ve know why I had to stay back home a day too long. But no... ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ �The break-up... it�s all your fault.� Yes... it�s all my fault. I was the one that allowed it. I shouldn�t have said that. But I had my reasons. I wouldn�t have been able to handle it all in the near future. ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ * ~ No, I shouldn�t be putting myself down like this. I did the right thing... I know I did. God, I�m still in shock as I write this... I have AIDS. FOUR TWO |
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