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Now now, I know I seem like a emotionally challenged suicidal teen, but I have a reason for my bitch-ness. My ex is probably my worst enemy at the moment, but I'm not surprised. How many people actually befriend their exs? Very few, ne?
I dunno what triggered this series of bitchness, but it was my ex in some way. No matter how hard I try to get back with him, he acts like its nothing. I know we live a hundreds of miles away, but maybe that could change...right? I was even willing to show him my cam, which he has been a total leech about it lately, I didn't mention it 'cause I wanted it to be a surprise. I ended up NOT showing him, whats the use? Its not going to bring me and him together or anything. Even if friend's know how they look, I don't consider him a friend. No matter what, in my heart I know he's not my friend, he's much more. Unfortunately for him, he'll fail to realize that.
Where was I? I was talking about what triggered bitch-moi, correct? It was probably when he said that he wanted a nice japanese girl, for some reason, it hurt me. Its like... I wasted a whole year, for what? NOTHING. Whats more, he continues to strike me with sexual innuendas, and I simply can not stand for it. I don't care if I would like (correction: love) to do such things with him, in the end, I'll end up with nothing, and he'll end up with some girl.
I feel so pathetic, I just talked to him earlier, and he said he wasn't going to see me for a long time. WTF is that going to fix? Even if he's not near me, I feel terrible. Maybe it is better if I don't see him though, I can find a nice guy for me, and then be able to shove that in his hot European face. -_-;
I know that I appear like a complete psychopath, but I'm not like this with no reason. Honestly. If your ex continues to refuse your proposal to be with him/her, and if he/she says he/she wants a hot asian lover, wouldn't you be the bitch-from-hell as well? Thought so.
Well I'm not going to continue rambling on about how sucky my life is, 'cause theres lots of good things in it. I'm not suffering from cancer or anything (although, it could happen in the future), I don't come from a disfunctional family, and I don't take drugs (or know anyone that takes drugs. Although some of my friends are suspicious! JK). 'Kay, thats all I gots for you today.
'Ta!
EDIT // Took a quiz too! It seems to match me very well!
November 17, 2004
time: 8:44 PM
mood: meh...been better
song: Shoujo Kakumei Utena - "Baiser [Kiss]"
eating: cake
plugs: none
No one seems to be visiting this blog... Ish okie though. I'm mainlyh just keeping this to feel better about myself, whether or not anyone visits.
I'm surprised I'm almost pretty much over my ex, in fact, I've had a crush on this other guy in my Chemistry class (as well as Lit. and we have the same P.E period) like a week after my bf broke up with me. I'm pretty happy I'm moving on at such a rapid rate. I'm also a little more friendly for some reason, well around my male friends that is. When I was with my ex, I felt like I was doing something wrong everytime I talked to a guy, but now, its no prob! I don't flirt at all, and never did, but I kinda felt like I shouldn't be talking to other guys. I felt guilty even talking to my friends! It's all changed now though, I talk to guys and girls, with no prob.
November 15, 2004
time: 10:07 PM
mood: chipper!
song: Bjork - "Mouth's Cradle"
eating: nothing
plugs: none
Its been a while since my last blog, so I though I'd blog again! ^___^
Things are going much better than a few weeks ago. I'm getting over my ex little by little, so thats good. Not much has happened, I just uploaded 2 new layouts on my graphics site, so go check them out!
That was an uber short blog.... Oh well, not much to blog about anyways! OH YEA! I got bit by a dog! It hurt! *sniffles* It's slowly healing though, so thats gewd!
November 11, 2004
time: 5:59 PM
mood: decent
song: Dido - "White Flag"
eating: trick or treat candy
plugs: none
Yay! I have a blog once again! ^__^ This site was in desperate need of a new layout, and content as well! XD As some of you already know, I had this site located on geocities, but then moved because I got hosted. But problems occurred with some of the visitors, they wasted my bandwidth and stuff because they were homophobic.
Anyways, for info on my life. My boyfriend and I broke up recently, so I have been sad for some time... Yea... I really did love him, but... he lives in the Netherlands, and I live in New Jersey. Two different continents. We wouldn't have a future... maybe it would be best if we broke up. I don't know what to do anymore, I've been in a lousy mood lately. It has shown in my schoolwork and in my behavior. I hope this passes. I want to let go of him, but I also don't want to let go of him.
I'll try to blog more often so you guys keep track of my life (that is, if anyone actually visits my blog! XD). So far, I don't have much up, but I'll get more up as time goes by. Please comment, if you leave a comment, I'll plug ya. Oh yea! Visit my graphics site! I just opened it recently, and it was hosted too! ^_^
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