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Previous : So much has happened Next : IRRITATION ****************************** stupid me left the entry I made at home.. which means I have to wait for another week before I can go back and get it uploaded... gee... ************************** just got back from Engin block from studying.. not bad! managed to finish 2 chapters on Psychology readings.. which means I'm back on track with the lectures!! as for the others... well.. I just gotta work harder la.. haha.. ************************* brother's still quite pissed and still ignoring me.. so I guess it'll have to wait till next week before he gets over whatever he's so pissed about... *********************** spent the whole Sunday morning and early afternoon alone at home waiting for brother to come back... was nearly dying from having gastric pains.. hrm.. but heck... went out after deciding that its no point waiting... so met up with Kenneth! =) ah... that very nice guy... always there for me when I need it... kinda exploited him today.. coz I wasn't really in a good mood.. so walked around orchard for a while.. then traveled to Bugis.. had lunch... which he very kindly paid for! gee... nice guy nice guy... talked a bit bout relationships.. did me help! gee.. he's right... our relationship started out as suaning each other... crapping.. eventually it became something more... good friends... purely platonic... we know we won't get into a relationship.. happy to stay as friends... which is great! made him shop around with me... once again I did some crazy shopping... did this Tatto like thing on my arm.. haha.. destructive nature when I'm sad... bought a bag... some tops... someday I might just need to buy some bottoms... haha... then I took a cab back to hall.. haha... he's so darn nice really... I'm so glad we're such good friends.. =) thanx Kenneth! ************************* came back to hall.. gee.. it was super boring!!! was like a lifeless spirit drifting from room to room after taking a short nap... haha.. it was super boring!! for once I didn't have costumes... but I felt sooo bored!! ************************ fermented in Eujin and Yewkam's room for close to 3 hours!!! before I finally decide to bug off... haha... gee... I think I'm stoning queen man... ************************ came back and I kept thinking.. are my feelings one sided? am I wasting my time here? ********************** a few weeks into hall.. after going through so many changes... I've realised that he's just not willing to try... yes he's right.. he'd hurt me... but in a way... he's taking the easy way out I guess? I don't know... basically I still like him.. and sometimes I feel pretty irritated by the fact that I still do have feelings for him! which means that in a way I'm gaining control of myself again! I keep telling myself.. someday I might just stop liking him.. but I don't foresee it coming... someday I might just stop having feelings for him.. but that'll only be because I'd feel too tired from trying... same thing went for JP... but it took my close to 4 yrs to get over him... gee... at the end of the day.. I still think he's a nice guy... a little screwed up here and there.. but hey... who's perfect? ************************** my life is so screwed up now... needa balance out some stuff... argh... *grinds teeth* ***************************** resolution?? study harder la! speaking of balancing.. I missed my dental appointment!!! fish cake... ******************************** brains need rest.. so am bugging off now... ******************************* �@ |