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Previous : 05/09/03 Next : Dilemma I will never forget..... my confession on impulse... your reaction... the bus ride back to hall... you asking me "are you serious?" you holding my hand... you asking me "what do you want this to mean?" you searching me high and low... you holding me... us almost ended in 3 hours... compromising... having lunch... ticking you... you bringing medicine to me... you telling me that you managed to control yourself... and me thinking bout you... you giving me space... giving us time... taking things slow... ******************************** I'm very happy!!! =) uncertain... unsure.. confused.. lost... but happy! =) ****************************** ah... shack... studied till late this morning.. hrm.. ya.. sounds right? stayed up till 5 to finish my readings.. and also to catch up on my Jap... and guess what? outta 10 questions.. I didn't know how to answer 4! hrm.. write at least... darn... apparently my brain wasn't functioning... Chinese readings did me good.. at least I understood what the teacher was talking bout... heh.. like her... coz she took over the class today.. she speaks like a Taiwanese coz she stayed there for a long time... haa... so I totally enjoyed her lessons... hrm.. just listening to her... feels homely la... ******************************** back to hall to slack when I'm suppose to be in lecture.. but heck.. I need to eat something... haven't eaten anything every since like Sunday afternoon.. and I only took fries... which means I've practically shat everything out... alcohol is bad for health! =( ********************************** haa... had a great time walking around NUS in the wee hours.... haha... walked from 2 plus till almost 4... heh.. walked almost 2 rounds.. around our hall.. could have walked to feng seng...heh... it was nice.. strolling along and talking crap... good thing is I don't have to do the talking.. I just listen.. =) and I like it! ********************************** its scary how much I've fallen for you... only at the starting perhaps? can't get you outta my head... keep thinking bout your smile... the way we hold hands.. the way you hold me... hrm... strange how when you hold me I feel more secure... you left a trace of your smell on my hand... left a mark on my cheek... ********************************** thinking bout you kept me awake... made me smile... ************************************* its scary coz I know I'm going to get hurt... coz I don't sound like myself.. coz I feel vulnerable... ************************************ still can't quite believe that all these happened... such a wonderful feeling to be accepted.. its nice to know that we can walk together... and yet feel comfortable not holding hands... its nicer when we do... its nice when you don't rush into things... its nice to know... that our feelings are mutual... ************************************ yup... I miss you... ********************** and yes I gotta get back to work... sheeze... ****************************** �@ �@ �@ |