f**k la! I don't know why I'm feeling this crap... am suppose to be quite happy over the fact that its my free day tomorrow.. but I'm just so freaking sick and tired of costumes... really... sewing.. unpicking... thread getting stuck... ah F*uK them all la... I know I shun be feeling like this... should have been prepared for it... yes yes yes.. I know all freaking that... but can I please be entitled to feel like crap???

argh.... *grinds teeth*

am quite sick of this particular friend trying to ask me out... F*ck la.. I don't know whats wrong with me.. he's just trying to be friendly... but I've sorta realised that he's so much like Paul that it kinda scares me.. I've had enough quarrels with Paul... the thing is I can't exactly play around with him.. yes he does have a sense of humor but no... not my kind of humor... gee... what the f*ck am I talking about?

everything's just weird.. I feel like he's trying to come after me.. yet he claims that he's not... ah.. I'm just pretty freaked out by him... basically he's a nice guy... good to talk to... but hrm.. sometimes we just don't agree on certain things.. he's too prim and proper.. I'm too bo-chap in a lot of things... heh... I mean my principle is to make yourself comfortable... with friends... why the f*ck do you want to care bout your image so much? argh... be normal... just be yourself!

anyway he has a weird way of asking me out.. thinking that if he decides I would go... gee.. don't really like it.. I mean what kind of polite way to ask "Make yourself free, we'll meet up for dinner" ok maybe coz he knows that I won't be able to make up my mind on when to meet up.. but hey.. at least ask me nicely k? I mean I think I deserve that... ok anyone would deserve that for the matter... =l

so then I decided to reject him after him asking me time and again if I received his messages.. really not very keen on going out with him.. not his fault.. I just think that its strange... we have different frequency...

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rant rant rant.. ok I think I feel better now...

good thing Shawn calls me once in a while to talk crap...

so was outta stress for a while during costumes... I mean I just keep losing it in costumes.. I just simply go crazy... and I feel like screaming... yes I know it irritates.. but heck.. I did...

yes... I do feel much better now...

am bugging off before I destroy anymore keys on my keyboard

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I just have to add on....

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woo ho!!! I think I'm mad!! really... have found out that the best way to relieve stress is crying... not that I don't know that already...

so while watching the 10 minute lovely show... I cried... yup... no... not exactly coz of the show.. but just coz I felt like crying and that show gave me an excuse to... =) but seriously I thought that show was quite lame... sweet... heh... that violent gal... remind me of me... wahaha...

some things that they said touched a part of my heart.. which explains why I cried... yup... but after that I felt sooooo much better...

was hanging out at Jason and Shawn's room... (yes diff Shawn) ah... it was pretty fun... hanging out with them... =) talking in different dialects... really was truly happy... *yeah*

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felt quite bad for not talking to Shingfeng but I really wanted to spend a moment with him... even if it was a short walk.. heh.. so then called Shingfeng over to talk... ah... I was pretty rational I must say.. =) but just coz I think the things apply to him... so yup! its truly ironic when you should be talking to the person who causes the problem.. the emotional roller coaster rides... but you end up talking to someone else.. yup! it always happens...

lastly.. I'm really happy...

yup!

Contented to start with la!

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