| Mz. NaRdOsIa BeRnIs |
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| As many of you know, the end of my college years is almost up. Now that I am in my Junior year of college, it all just seems un-real. I find myself wondering where all the time flew, and if I am really going to be able to become a good teacher. Next year I will begin my student teaching, somewhere in Jersey City. I don't see myself being a New Jersey Resident and I fear that I will be one of those college graduates who never become what they want. I never changed majors or even questioned myself when I declared myself an education major, I just did it and never turned back and asked myself whether or not this was for me. I love kids and teaching, but will it suit me. Becoming a teacher is getting harder and harder everyday, and the curriculum standards are high even with a kindergarden class. My senior year here at SPC, I hope it will be better than all the rest, especially since 2005 has been a special year for me, it was/ is my year of many changes. This is the year in which I turn 21, and become a legally responsible woman. I look back and I remember when I was 14 I couldn't wait til I was 16. 16 came and went and now I am 20 years old Double majoring in college and I made it to my junior year. It's a small population that go to college, but it's the ones who stay are the real ones who have truly achieved it. I am trying to become an R.A next year, a resident assistant for all of you who don't know. I truly hope it will be a task that I can and will be able to do. It is easy to say that you can do something, but what really counts is when you are actually faced to do it. I have also applied to become an orientation leader. I have made it to round 2 of both the selection process, and hopefully I succeed and make it because I really want to do it. I have realized that I am ready for the real world and what it has to offer me. Over the years from High School to College I have felt the growth inside me and I watched myself bloom into the beautiful woman I am today. So much has occured in my life, and I am still on my quest to find peace with God. I want to embrace him, but I have to be ready to embrace him as a whole and not a sinner. So while I am still commiting my sins and trying to let go, I hope he is also watching me through my transitions and not loosing hope that one day I will return and when I do it won't be 1/2 of me but I will love him as a Whole. To all those who need guidence don't run to god then leave him astray when your life is perfect, then scream to him why when your oh so perfect world doesn't seem so perfect. My life hasn't been perfect and I lived my life at such a young age, but I thank those people who were there for me and those people who made my life worse because without you all I wouldn't have grown. The most beneficial person in my life was Calvin. No one knows what we have been through but now that it is over, it was a rough path that me and him crossed and after being in what we had been in we resorted to each other. Till the day I die he will always be the man I shared the whole of my heart to. The emotion of love is serious and I find so many men toying with the idea just to bust a nut. I have been on the end of that stick and I have even done it, and it wan't fair either way. I guarentee even this no one will read because of its length, but I still write it because it was written mostly for me and I placed it out there for others who were interested in what Nardosia has to say. The most critical aspect of my change I must say is becoming a Happier me. So many times I'd walk around with a frown on my face hiding a beautiful smile no one knew I had. Getting a nice comment even on my bummier of days smiling and feeling happy. Everyone looking at me asking who I screwed and I say nobody why can't I just be happy. I am really happy to be going to the Bahamas, and I look forward to taking many pictures. Not many people get to travel in their life and I am happy I was able to, I also want to thank Calvin for that, because he helped me in 2002 to be able to do things like travel, and our past relationship because with his travels I traveled and over came my fear of flying by myself. This may be the last time in my youth that I will be able to travel, unless next summer I really plan to go to Haiti. Speaking of Haiti I want to go to Gonave when I go to the Bahamas, the island isn't too far from it and I wouldn't mind some Haitian Food straight from Haiti. I haven't been to Haiti since I was 7, and I must say I loved my country. Well I am going to wrap this up, and also everyone out there don't forget to wrap it up, and If you want to talk to the Girl my AOL/AIM screen name is BERNIS01, so hit me up and don't be a stranger. |
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