Epilogue

 

She wasn’t use to this yet.  The people, the parties, the SoCal accents telling her how fabulous she was, the inability to truly believe what they said, the questions, the interest, hell, the clothes: it was all overwhelming.  He had tried to prep her, told her that the rush of media, public, and industry attention would be mind boggling, but his words, kind and helpful as they were, didn’t prepare her for this. 

 

“Oh my God, is that Hugh Grant?” 

 

She turned her eyes from where she had been searching the crowd over to her agent, who had been acting like a five year old at the zoo, pointing out famous faces and gasping at anything slightly interesting.  But she didn’t care if Hugh Grant was there, or if the president walked in, or anything outrageous and exciting happened at the after party.  She was searching for a familiar pair of blue eyes, and she hoped they were searching for hers as well. 

 

The premiere had gone well, really well.  After spending a day being pampered and having her hair pulled in every direction and makeup piled onto her face, so much so that she called up Olivia and asked her if she would make an emergency stop at her condo, she had gone to the premiere, stepped out of her limo onto the short red carpet and answered lots and lots and lots of questions, the same ones she had been asked the week before in the press junket.  Thankfully some of those interviews during the junket were done with Justin and he had kept her entertained and interested.  They tried to keep their flirting down to a minimum and while she had a harder time keeping her hands to herself and refraining from her little habits, like touching his arm or holding it, or poking him in the butt like he hated, he on the other hand was a complete professional and treated her like a co-worker or a friend.  The only thing that gave away anything about them was the few looks he passed her way in between interviews.

 

They had kept their relationship to themselves.  Neither of them wanted tabloid headlines or questions about romance to overshadow the work they had put into the movie, but now that it was over, now that the release had been done and only a week of press was left, they were ready to let the world know.  They weren’t going to announce it, but they weren’t going to hide it like they had been trying to do.

 

Early on they decided to keep things quiet on set.  Most people knew and speculated, but Justin and Susan kept to themselves and didn’t publicly show affection.  Once the movie wrapped he swept her away and she was willing to follow.  They spent three weeks in some remote island of Thailand, getting to know each other even better, falling more and more in love each day and reaching an intensity and a power in their relationship that led to where they were now.  Six months later they considered themselves completely comfortable with each other, an old married couple at times, yet still holding on to all that passion.  After Thailand she went back home to Tennessee, spending much needed time with her parents and her sister.  She went to New York and tied up her loose ends and planned to officially and permanently move to Los Angeles, a city she wasn’t use to and a city that didn’t have charm like New York, yet she knew she would have to live there and she knew she would be successful and happy there. 

 

She had made friends through work and through Justin.  Her life was looking up, way up. 

That wasn’t to say that her and Justin were perfect or didn’t have problems.  She found out quickly after their first day together that he could annoy the shit out of her.  She found out that he could be smothering and then snap, turn around and need to be alone.  But he never pushed her away and she had found an art in telling him to back off without hurting his feelings.  They fit.  They fit together really, really well.

 

She had met his family on a trip to Memphis and she realized then, out in the country, drinking sweet tea with his mother and grandmother and his mother’s best friend, that she was going to be with him for the rest of her life.  It was unspoken between them, but she knew he felt the same. 

 

So far the great thing and the worst thing about the press for this movie was that most of it had been with him.  And while it was great to be with him a lot of the time and work with him, it was hard to keep the fact that they were together under wraps.  All the photo shoots, the questions, even that night, taking pictures with him on the carpet, sitting beside him in the theatre, it was all hard to keep herself from holding on to his hand, to sneaking a kiss. 

 

Thailand and Tennessee had been a time of freedom for them.  In Thailand no one cared, it was just the two of them and a lazy, quiet little bungalow.  Privacy, they had so much of it that she still blushed from some of the things he convinced her to do.  She giggled and bit her lip, still searching over the people in the club, drinking, talking, dancing and having a good time.  She couldn’t help but think back to that day when he convinced her to have sex…on a beach.  It was a great idea in the moment, but after getting sand in too many inappropriate places, sunburn on her ass and nice bite from a sand mite on her hip, she vowed never to do that again. 

 

At least not without a towel.

 

“There he is.”

 

She turned to Brenda and followed with her eyes where she was looking and pointing.  And she was right.  There he was.  He was in the center of a group of people, laughing and talking.  He had a beer in his hand, shirt sleeves rolled up.  His parents were nearby, each with a glass of wine in their hands.  Trace was there, talking and laughing with Justin.  She sighed, said a silent “yes” and grabbed Brenda’s arm.  “Come on.”

 

“No no, you go ahead.  I’m going to see if I can mingle with Mr. Grant.”

 

Susan laughed and started to make her way down to the lower portion of the floor from her perch up on the upper balcony of the club.  The trip took much longer than she hoped. People kept stopping her, telling her how amazing she was, how awesome the movie was.  It was all very flattering, and she agreed, the movie was phenomenal and she was proud to be a part of it.  But she had had enough ego-feeding and was ready to find her man.

 

“Susan!”  She whipped around at the familiar yell of her name in a particularly English tone.  “There you are darling, I just saw Justin, he told me to tell you he was looking for you.”

 

She smiled.  “Thanks Richard, I spotted him.”

 

“Alright, see you later.  Fun, right?”  He half hugged her and kissed her cheek.  Richard remained a hard ass with her for much of the shoot, but she soon realized he was trying to toughen her up and by the close of the filming she realized he respected her, trusted her, and believed in her more than most of the other people on the set.  He just had a strange way of showing it. 

 

She continued to push her way pass people, now deciding to pretend she didn’t hear the “Hey Susan!”, “Suze, great job!”  “Come here girl!” and other phrases yelled her way.  She made a bee line to Justin and soon found herself standing behind him, no one looking and him not noticing her.  So she smiled to herself, moved her hand down and poked him with her finger.  He hated that more than anything.  He hated being poked and she liked his cute little ass so much she always poked him in one of the cheeks to annoy him.

 

He jumped a little but didn’t turn. 

 

“No pokers aloud.”

 

“Guess I’ll just go find Hugh Grant with Brenda…”

 

She turned with a smile just in time to see him look over his shoulder.  She felt a hand grip her upper arm and pull her back, whispering against her ear “Hell no, sexy.”

 

She loved that.  She loved how after all this time he could still do some small thing or say a few little words to get her going.  She joined their circle and talked with them, nudging Justin only once to receive a smile.  His hand made his way to her lower back, touching her skin where her back was exposed by the design of the dress.  She was quiet during the conversation, unable to get a word in and concentrating on the small circles his fingers rubbed against her skin.  It had been a long day, a long week, and she was ready to go home with him, fall asleep and do nothing all day until her Leno appearance and then officially call it quits for a few days.

 

Her eyes widened a bit, having stood there for several minutes rather quiet, when his fingers started to do their thing.  It was his little signal that he wanted her bad.  She could feel his fingers walking down and down over her back, over the material of her dress and down to her ass.  She quickly pulled away a bit and looked up at him. “Wanna go sit?”

 

He just grinned.

 

They easily found a corner table.  It was getting late and people were starting to leave or either were so drunk they were dancing.  She slid into the booth and was thankful for the dark lighting. 

 

He put his arm around her and slouched down into his seat.  “I’m ready to blow this place, girl.”

 

She laughed and looked over at him.  “We’re supposed to mingle and smile and promote.”

 

He bit his lip and stared at her. “We’re supposed to be getting naked and taking a relaxing swim in my pool.”

 

“That requires effort.”

 

He kissed her cheek and then her said in her ear.  “So does sex.”

 

She sat up and pushed him away with a laugh.  “Is that all you think about?”

 

“No…”  He took a swig of the beer in his hand and looked at the label.  “This is good beer, too.”

 

She scoffed and pushed him again. “You’re an ass.”

 

“Hey!”  He pulled her back against him and smiled at her.  “You’re the one that was poking me.”

 

“Welcome to my world, usually you’re the one poking through.”

 

“Ha ha…” His smile dropped and he pulled her tight against him with both his arms around her. “Shut up…” She knew they were being risky with this type of affection in public but he had had a little too much to drink and the champagne she had been nursing was starting to get to her head as well.  It felt good to be against him and to be semi secluded.  She wouldn’t mind going home with him and going for a swim, but she knew that that they had an obligation to be at this party.  Even though much of the crowd was starting to leave, it was well after midnight at this point, she felt she needed to stay, needed to talk and promote.  It was her first movie and she really didn’t know what was expected of her.

 

But as he started to kiss her neck she thought less and less about what she should do and gave into her wants.  “Justin…”

 

He sighed and pulled away a little.  “I’m a little drunk so I’m just gonna ask you.”

 

A certain fear ran over her, and excitement.  She stared at him.  His eyes gave nothing away.  “Ask me what?”

 

“Wanna move in together?”

 

“What…”  She thought he was joking.  She wasn’t expecting that.  She didn’t know what she had been expecting.  Maybe something bigger, or smaller, but whatever it was, now that it was out in the open, moving in together seemed right, and she didn’t know why they hadn’t done it sooner.  Hell, she stayed with him almost every night or vice versa.  It was only rational to take that next step.

 

But it was a big step, moving in together was taking a leap not just a step.  It was going forward, sprinting forward to a type of life that screamed commitment.  And she knew that type of commitment could lead to a certain ceremony and a shiny ring.  The more she thought about it, she realized that wasn’t such a bad thing.

 

“I’ve been thinking about it for the past few weeks but I’ve been chickening out ‘cause I figured you’d turn me down cause I know you love your little condo.  But, well…I’ve had 4 beers and some champagne and Trace made me drink a whiskey sour with him and…yeah.”

 

“I…”

 

He cut her off and rubbed his face with a hand. “I’m an idiot aren’t I?  I even asked Brenda what she thought you would say.”

 

She laughed, “And what did she say?”

 

He smiled at her in return and leaned down close to her face. “That you’d say yes.”

 

She was quiet and stared at him for a moment before looking at the table.  She thought for only a few seconds and then it came to her what her answer should be.  “Ok.”

 

“Ok what?”

 

She smiled and leaned up to kiss him on the lips, not caring if anyone saw. “Yes, I’d like that.”

 

“That’s it… “He stared at her hard.  “Yes, you want to?”

 

She giggled. “You don’t believe me?”

 

“No, I just, didn’t think it’d be that easy.”

 

She put her arms around him and hugged him.  “I really want to.”  He hugged her back and told her he loved her and she felt at ease.  It was a simple answer.  She wanted to live with him, she wanted to go that path and find out if they could make it.  And she felt deep in her heart that they could.  They weren’t perfect and their relationship had its bumps and its problems.  They had work to do but she knew they’d be ok.  Their love wasn’t complicated and it wasn’t difficult.  She had to work at their relationship, like most people, but she didn’t have to work to love him.  That was easy, that was natural.

 

“Great…” He pulled away, kissed her quick and grabbed her hand. “Lets get out of here and go home. Ok?”

 

She nodded, smiled and knew then that whether it was her condo, or his mansion, his mother’s house in Memphis or the bungalow in Thailand, the movie set, his trailer, wherever he was that was her home and she was happy, so happy to be with him. 

 

She had found him, loved him and knew she’d never give up her dreams, never be lonely, and that she’d never, ever be homesick again.

 

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