Do U know what it's like
To wake up every day....
With the thoughts in your head
From the night before....
"He loves me still"
Even after it all...
Even after all the silly things that happened.
Do U know what it's like
To be in love
The most of all?....
I weighed myself at the YWCA today and guess what? Not only have I lost five pounds, but I definitely have put on a lot of muscle tone in my arms and thighs. So I probably lost more than five pounds of fat! This has been a truly incredible week. Tonight we are going to rent "Legend" and order chinese food from China King. I am so satisfied that I am smiling (and I don't smile that often.) Sweet dreams, everyone, and may your sweetest dreams come true!!!!
Love,
Ke-Ri
Dec. 10, 2002
Oh my god, Legend is an INCREDIBLE movie. As if it was not enough that it's all about unicorns, which I LOVE, it also has Tom Cruise, who although he is old I love as well! Also, the chinese takeout in this neighborhood is about a billion times better than the stuff near my dad's house. I don't know if you're ever going to the China King, but if you do the Mu Shu pork is the best I have ever had.
I took my time getting up today. I really enjoy being on the couch because I feel like it doesn't put any pressure on me (romantically) from Luke, let alone Trevor. Luke put his arm around me during Legend last night, but other than that he's been a total gentleman. I am going to go tomorrow morning to visit their computer office. I will update my webpage from there!!! GOODBYE FANS!!!
Love,
Ke-Ri
a thought for the day-- why does it take us so long to go after what we want, when we knew what it was the whole time? Just thought I'd give you all that to think about!!!
Dec. 11, 2002
HELLO EVERYONE GUESS WHO IS WRITING YOU FROM AN INTERNET COMPANY RIGHT NOW!!!! I am sitting at a desk (but a company one) and writing away on Luke's computer. Wow this place is crazy! It's in a little office mall by the freeway that I never noticed before. (I will not disclosed the exact location, DAD!!) Who would think you could put 70,000,000 computers and printers in one little room!!! BTW, I am drinking coffee from a Dr. Phil mug as we speak.
YEAH DR. PHIL!!!
Luke told everyone in the company about his WIFE 2 BE back in the day so everyone's being super nice to me, especially Carol in accounting (HELLO CAROL). I am enjoying my time here so much!! Tonight Luke will take me out to a nice dinner. He says the food is either French or Spanish. I DON'T CARE!!!
I'll write tomorrow about the dinner. HOORAY FANS!! KEEP ON A ROCKING.
Love,
Ke-Ri!!!!
Dec. 12, 2002
NOTE-- LUKE if you read this I am not trying to hurt your feelings, but I need to be honest because that's the foundation my webpage was built on. End of note to LUKE. This also applies to you, TREVOR.
Things are a teensy bit awkward today after the dinner last night, but that's what having a husband is all about, right? Basically we went to a nice place called El Capitol that was Spanish food. It was very delicious, especially the Payaya. Luke bought a bottle of wine, which was an incredible thing to do. He is a very nice person.
But I have to say that afterward I felt like he thought I owed him something. When we went back there was a little too much cuddling and then after we watched part of Akira and I got tired he told me "just go lay down in my bed." and I was like, no Luke, I sleep on the couch. Why don't you go lay down on your bed, and let me sleep here? And he was saying "But I want to watch the rest of Akira." And I said you already know what happens in Akira. so leave me ALONE! Then he looked kind of sad and went in to talk to Trevor.
Today the apartment feels awkward. Neither of them made breakfast or coffee for me, they just left. I hope I didn't hurt feelings. I just want to stay here and be friends. SORRY GUYS!!!
Love,
Ke-Ri
Dec. 13, 2002
things are better!!! Luke came in and talked to me after work and said that he was sorry he didn't make me breakfast but that his feelings were hurt when i didn't want to sleep on the bed. I told him that it was ok! That's a fair reason for his feelings to be hurt, but that I am more comfortable on the couch and that I am nowhere near thinking about him in a romantic way, even though I might be one day. Then we played Mario!
What a weird and good week this has been. I have not lived away from my dad except for the two weeks I lived with my Mom in eighth grade, and that was hell in a handbasket. Now, I am finally learning what it is to love and be loved.
TALLIES FOR THE WEEK--
Phone messages from my Dad -- 11
SCREAMING phone messages from my Dad -- 5
Times he called and didn't leave message -- 24
Phone Messages from Miranda -- 1
Number of times Luke said he loves me -- 9
Number of stars I have in Mario -- 13
What is the point of fighting? The point of life is to love each other, for Christ's Sake. Just calm down, everyone.
Love,
Ke-Ri