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| The first time you felt kindness. Kyo: I don't remember exactly but I think it was my parents. Whenever I wanted to go to the amusement park in Kansai, my parents always took me there. Wherever I said I wanted to go, they would take me. Come to think about it, they were very kind to me. There have been other times when I have felt people's kindness but I can't remember them right now. The first time you felt like committing suicide Kyo: I have thought of committing suicide. I really have?. It's too sad a story to tell. ++++ Die: It has never crossed my mind. ++++ Toshiya: It must have been quite a long time ago that I felt like I wanted to die. When asked why I wanted to die, I can't remember. I didn't have an ambition when I was young. When reading a primary school notebook, I had written that my ambition was to be a business man like my father whilst everyone else was writing things like a shinkansen driver or a pilot. Part of me was pessimistic and I often thought to myself 'Why don't I have an ambition?', 'What's my purpose in life'? However it wasn't serious enough to drive me to suicide. ++++ Shinya: I have never once thought of committing suicide. The first time you experienced bereavement. Kyo: My grandfather. I used to fight a lot with my grandfather and I thought I wouldn't be sad when he died but I cried a lot at his funeral. It was when I was in third year of primary school. ++++ Die: My little brother. I am the eldest son. When I was in primary school, my younger brother was born but his heart was weak and he died. I didn't really understand so I wasn't sad. I didn't really realize. ++++ Toshiya: When I was 2/3 years old my grandfather died. I can't remember it but when my mother's side grandfather died, When I saw his face in the coffin, I had a strange feeling. Besides feeling sad I also thought that death was very quick. Although death is very quick, your life isn't very quick so I thought that maybe life was more painful than death itself. The first time you fought with someone Kyo: My grandfather mentioned previously or my father. My grandfather was the father of my father and he was very stubborn. I am very stubborn too and so we fought a lot. I hated studying and I never did any work so when I showed my father the bad report, he hit me a lot. Then I said 'I would leave this house' and he replied 'Then take off those clothes and go because I bought them for you'. So I stood outside naked. It was at the time when snow was about to come and was very very cold. But after I stood there for 3 ~4 hours, my parents eventually came out and apologized to me. I don't fight much with my friends. Although I get annoyed, I don't do anything. ++++ Kaoru: I think it was when I was in primary school. I was playing cops and robbers and if the police person tapped a robber person 3 times on the back, then you were out. I liked playing the policeman and once, I was the policeman. However the robber person fell asleep on the floor on his back so I couldn't touch him. It doesn't become a game anymore if he does that, does it? I got annoyed and so started kicking him which turned into a fight. Even though my other friends tried to stop the fight, they couldn't. Without determining which one was the loser or the winner, that boy just ran away. He even left his hat. To get my revenge, I pissed on his hat (L). [You like doing that, don't you? (L)] Kaoru: Well, it's because I was a child (L). The next day, I told him what I did and then there was another fight (L). ++++ Die: I used to fight frequently with my brothers but it was only when I was in primary school, that I first fought with my friend. But after the fight, it was always me who went to talk first. ++++ Shinya: I fought a lot in primary school. At that time, I got angry very easily. When you fight you hit back when you are hit, don't you? Fights end with someone punching someone else but I didn't want to stop fighting till I got the last punch. [If the person punched you back, the longer it would continue?] Shinya: Yes. When it looks like it is going to continue for a long time, I hit the other person lightly around 6 times so that he doesn't realize and then it finishes (L). But when I was in 6th year, there was another person who thought the same way as me. So when I hit him lightly to end the fight, he would hit me back strongly. Only those times, I gave up because my body would gradually start to hurt (L). |
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