MY GUESTBOOK
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I had a nanny, Stacy, who was twenty-three when I was six and who, when I turned fourteen and started getting confused by boys, sat with me in my room while I talked about Raymond Jenkins, the boy in my English class who I was sure I was destined to be with for the rest of my life with, and, then two months later, she held me, my whole body shaking with my grief and embarrassment-filled sobs, when Raymond Jenkins took pleasure in pointing out to the entire grade that my new white jeans were stained with blood, my first step toward womanhood having snuck up on me like all other life-altering events in the history of my life. Stacey lived with us in what is now Izzie�s bedroom until I turned sixteen and my mother decided I was too old for her to pay someone to look after me.
I had tutors in every subject, insurance Ellis Grey facing the embarrassment of her only daughter coming home with a less than perfect report card.
I had the nurses at Seattle Grace where I would spend hours waiting for my mother to come out of surgery after promising that she would keep her name off the board so that we would spend the afternoon together doing the mother-daughter bonding thing. By the time I was ten I had every room in the hospital memorized, and so when I came back to do my internship here I ignored the tour because I assumed that nothing had changed when the truth was that everything had, as I found out when I was trying to find CT that first day with Katie Bryce.
And, of course, I had Richard Webber, my favourite non-uncle-uncle, who always brought had a smile and a story to tell and who was the real inspiration for my going into medicine, though I never told him that.
Richard Webber, the man I have trusted and respected for as long as I can remember.
The man who fell in love with my mother.
The man who got her to fall in love with him, too.
The man who got my mother so twisted up that she kicked my father out of our lives.
The man who took the safe way, who did what was right, and who stayed with his wife despite being in love with my mother as well.