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�No, you won�t,� I agreed.  Josh looked at me like I�d just told him he was the kind of person to kick a wounded puppy and I quickly qualified my response.  �Leo had demons, maybe more than we�ll ever know about, and he was still the amazing man who got you to leave the prohibitive nominee for the presidency to work for a man with numbers in the low double digits, both because of and in spite of his demons.  And in a lot of ways you�re like Leo, so much so that it�s a little scary.  But you�ll never be Leo McGarry because your demons are of a completely different breed and you are the man that you are because of and in spite of your demons.�  I unbuttoned his shirt and tugged it off of his body before continuing.  �You have a big, beautiful heart, Joshua Lyman, and you throw yourself body and soul into everything that you have ever taken on.  It will be tough, doing this without Leo there to guide you, but remember who taught you everything you know.  Remember who told you things that Harvard and Yale would never think to teach you.  Remember that Leo was the man who jumped in the hole after you because he knew the way out.  Remember who taught you that your ideas are never too crazy or idealistic to put out there but that sometimes the world is just not ready for them yet.�  I framed his face with my hands, waiting until I was sure he was listening to me before I spoke again.  �And, if all else fails, remember that I�m going to be walking this road beside you and that I have eight years of experience in picking up the pieces you leave behind.�

Josh chuckled at that, pulling me into a crushing embrace.  �Can� I don�t know� can I just� hold you?� he asked, unsure if his request was way out of line.

�You never have to ask, Joshua,� I replied, pressing my lips to the curve of his neck.  �I�m going to get changed.  Why don�t you get ready out here?  I�ll be quick, I promise,� In continued, the last part added when I saw a shadow of fear come over his face.  Josh nodded and I grabbed a light tank top and a pair of boxers before sliding into the bathroom to change and take care of my usual bedtime rituals.

When I returned Josh was sitting on the edge of the bed in his boxers.  Tears were streaming down his cheeks as he stared at his watch, rubbing his thumb over the face tenderly.  �Josh?� I ventured.

�He gave this to me� after his first heart attack.  He made a joke about you not always being around to keep me on time, especially since you were going to be off work for a few months,� Josh explained, wiping away his tears with the back of his hand.  �He said that you were right, that my watched sucked, and that with him gone and you out and all the work that was going to fall on my shoulders until the President got a chance to replace him I would need a watch that worked.

That sounded like Leo.  Too bad no watch could keep Joshua Lyman on time.  �It�s a nice watch,� I said.

�Didn�t help keep me on time,� Josh said.

I smiled.  Our connection had slowly but surely been coming back to us as we worked together again.  It was nice to have that psychic connection thing back.  �Even I couldn�t do that half the time,� I reminded him.  �It looks old,� I commented, turning my attention back to the watch.

�It was his brother�s.  Patrick.  He was older than Leo� three years older, I think.  They both flew plans in the war� Patrick was shot down two days before his tour was over.�

�The flag Leo had in his office?� I asked.  I had often wondered about that flag.
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