by may '02, my high school graduating class had lost three people over the years--two in car accidents, one suicide. last week, we lost another.
its weird to think of someone's life being over. someone i used to share pieces of my life with... and now, they are gone. i'm sitting here typing it out, trying to make it real. but i can't imagine it, not in the literal sense.
my head has spent the last few days spinning around every little memory of him for so long that suddenly, i couldn't recall what he looked like. then, it was something small--the creases of his smile when he laughed--that popped his face into focus again.
at times like funerals, my mind latches onto little details. i keep remembering things that were said. i think i'd like to write them down so i never forget...
the last time i saw him we talked about sneaking into r-rated movies together, sharing muffins in geometry,forgotten birthdays we celebrated months late.
i guess the memories i shared with him are now mine alone.
i miss my friend. |
