I wonder to myself if you will ever tell me why
Or will you hold out until you die
And then break my heart.
Will you try and take your secrets to your grave
And try to save me from the agony
Or someday will you tell me.
Will you one day realize that its really not a surprise
And I knew what was going on all along
Or will you keep on playing the game
Where everyone else is always to blame
And suck up all the pity you can get.
I want to quit
This is not the ride you advertised to be
At least not to me
Not before, hell I just don�t want anymore
But I keep letting you back in
Despite the facts
Yet I�ve got your back
And the others, they don�t really know you
But I do.
I want this through
Yet I keep holding on
Cause sometimes I feel strong
But now I�m so weak I can barely stand
And I will never forget
Cause of all the time we together spent
And I thinking we were in love
And now seeing that it was only me
Silly Zee
This isn�t the way it was supposed to be
2 July 02
And hold you until you made me let go
Love makes you do those things
And when you were needy for attention
I dropped everything to try to brighten you day
Cause love, makes you do those things
You sat alone in darkness and I brought you light
You said you were hungry, I brought you dinner
That I cooked last night
Because love makes you do those things
Yet there are days and nights when I think
And to myself I know, your love goes somewhere else
And although it hurts, I still have my wants
So I think if I keep giving you love
Someday you will see
All the love you truly need
Lies deep within me.
At other times I am being stupid
I know you tell me lies
I act like I haven�t seen the truth
With my very own eyes.
Where do I go, what do I do from here
I try to make my feelings change
Yet I already know they wont
I try to chase the hurt away
But it stays within me heart
I try to look the other way
Yet its tearing me apart
What do I do
I know what the truth is
Yet I let you persuade my mind another way
Love makes you do those things I suppose
I don�t think I want to love you anymore
October 13, 2002