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Oh, good Lord, I thought that the school year would never end. But thank God it did, and now it's summer... and what am I doing? Teaching?!!?!?!?! Yes, summer school, and it's acutally quite enjoyable... not in that wake-up and it's-all-you-have-to-look-forawrd-to kind of way, but the kids I'm working with are great and Mary, my teaching partner is wonderful, she's so much fun... I really can't complain. (Okay, well I can, but who listens? as my family says-- so, moving on....) :) Things are going well. I was down in Rhode Island before the summer school train got started and I saw some long-lost relatives (okay, so they weren't lost, but I hadn't seen them in a really, really long time).. It was great to see everyone again. And I think they were surprised at how I looked. I hadn't seen them in eons, so it was nice to hang out, expecially with my cousin Neshaminy. After they went back down south, I just hung around my parents' house, hung out at the pool (in my new BIKINI- I'll put some pictures up when I get them scanned in... yeah right.. sorry folks, I don't think I'll ever be quite THAT secure). But I do have to say this is the best that I've felt in ages. I feel like a normal person. I eat like a normal person, I go into Wal-mart and buy clothes like a normal person... it's amazing. I never thought it would be like this for me. It's just amazing. I seriously did wear a bikini while I was at my parents' house... and I wore it in front of people. Not a LOT of people, just my husband and my parents and my brother.... but still... a huge big deal to me. It was nice to get sun on my skin ( I have psoriasis) and not feel like a huge freak. And I don't care how lumpy you are, what your body shape is... wearing a bikini... out in public.... even if it IS only in your parents' backyard.... amazing feeling. made the whole surgery, everything... all of it worth it. :)
In other news... I feel more... health teacher-ish. Silly, I know. Buit I really do. I'm starting my third year with Ptld, and I really feel better about myself. I feel more liek I *belong.* Like I'm not such a fraud. You know? Like I'm not some fat lady up there talking about something she obviously must not know anything about just because she's fat... make sense? To the skinny people reading this, it sounds ridulous, to the not-so skinny people, or maybe ust the sympathizers, it makes perfect sense. I just feel more normal. Even teaching over the summer, when one of the kids make a comment, and brings up the fact that I'm the health teacher, I feel more like I can accept that role now because I'm average (or almost average) weight.
I really hope this makes sense to someone else besides me. :) I know it must.
To sum up, these past few months have been great. The end of the school year was good... crazy, but good. I'm glad it is summer now, and I have the time to relax and rejuvinate. I wish my husband could relax with me, but I'm happy that he has a job in his field that he's working in. His hours are decent, and even though he's still working at CVS, we still get to spend some time together at night and on the weekends. I promise to post up some pictures asap. I'm planning to put together a one-year mark celebratory page.
Thanks for all your support- especially my family. And most especiallly my wonderful husband, Thanasi. I could not have gotten this far without your love and support. I wish marriage was something you could clone to give to people, becuase everyone should be as lucky as us. You are a wonderful husband, the best anyone could ever ask for. I don't know what I did to deserve you, but I hope I keep on doing it.
More updates later (I'll try to be more prompt),
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