7/18/00
Qualms with Satanism
Not long ago, I was at Barnes & Noble with my friend, John. He was looking at comic books like the dork he is, so I started to wander around the store. For shits and giggles, I started looking in the "New Age" section.
I'm not a believer in New Age stuff, but some of the books about ghosts and hauntings are interesting to read. I happened to come across "The Satanic Bible" by Anton Szandor Lavey.
Naturally, I picked it up and began to peruse its pages. I've always considered myself pretty evil and I like to imagine that Satan favors me highly. I was interested in what Satan's highest priest had to say on the subject of child molestation, so I found the chapter which deals with sexuality and began to look through. According to the Satanic Bible, everyone is allowed complete sexual freedom, which means homosexuality, transvestism, bondage, bestiality, etc. are all acceptable.
However, much to my chagrin, I found that the Satanic Bible does NOT endorse rape or molestation of any kind. I was baffled by this. Next to sadistic murder, what is more evil than raping children? I was intent on uncovering this mystery. Apparently, according to Mr. Levay's logic, comitting an unwilling sexual act upon another person violates THEIR sexual freedom, thus violating the whole sexual freedom clause of Satan's laws.
I thought that was absolutely ridiculous. Maybe Satan doesn't want everyone's sexual liberty violated, but certainly he must allow certain privileges to his chosen followers. According to the Satanic Bible, I could not rape, torture, and murder a five-year-old girl. Satan is getting soft! I think humankind has surpassed the Prince of Lies in terms of evil. Back in his day, pride was the worst thing you could do. Satan needs to get with the times, I say.
Supposedly, there is a Satanic cult operating in my hometown. There were rumors about it all over school, but I didn't believe them. They are just as fabricated as the stories about a brothel on Route 7. I have been to the driveway of where the Satanist's supposedly make their headquarters with John. I turned off the lights and stopped the car and he proceeded to panic most pathetically, so we left.
John told me a story that I found simultaneously interesting and stimulating. According to him, several years ago, a naked three-year-old girl was found wandering around in a field, crying with a pentagram carved into the small of her back. I have trouble believing John because he is a pathological liar, but the idea is still nice.
After he told me this, I was inspired to create my own cult of child molestors. I would contact police departments in the tri-state area to find the names of convicted sex offenders. Then, I would contact them and see if they were interested in joining. We would gather in secret, each taking turns to bring along a living girl. We would ritualistically rape, murder, and dismember her. Our whole organization would be shrouded in secrecy and evil.
Even though I will probably not create this cult (I am going to college in two months), it's still a fun thought. I might make up my own little Child Killer's Bible to spread the word on my hobbies. I'm sure I could get some recruits if I tried hard. I'll have to keep this in mind for the future.
One question still plagues me: do they have the Satanic Bible book-on-tape?
Looking for Jenn
I need to make an apology to my readers. I know you are probably reading my diary because you are interested in pedophilia, necrophilia, and murder. So, you are probably bored and disappointed when I talk about my crush on a girl over the age of ten. I'm sorry. I really have no other place to discuss this.
I'll keep it brief. John and I went looking for Jenn today, hoping we could find her and hang out with her without having Mike around. (At least, that's what I wanted to do.) We found Jenn's house through clever detective-work, but she was gone. She had gone somewhere with Donner, a really goofy, weird junior at our school. For some reason, he has an incredibly hot girlfriend named Aurora. Anyway, we couldn't find Jenn because she was with him. We tried to find Mike, but he was gone too.
So, I was forced to spend the evening with John, listening to him talk about a girl he fingered the other night at a party he didn't invite me too. In retaliation, I made him listen to me ramble about why I was so burned about this whole Mike/Jenn affair.
He asked if my obsession with their relationship was spawned from jealousy. I said yes. However, jealousy only makes me care about how badly Mike is going to eventually break her heart. Even if I was a strong supporter of their relationship, it would still happen. She should go out with me. Silly girl, she chose poorly.