Hey guys...
OK, like I said, a few mins of your time....there's something I wanna share with y'all. No, I'm not dying. Well, not yet. No, not preggers...now that would be a good prank email, wouldn't it?? lol, one day....
No, I was in church this morning, and I was just thinking abt how amazing God is, and how much he's done for me, and thought I'd share....some things are just too much, too great to hold in!! As various of you may or may not know, I had a hellish time last autumn/fall - my gran died, my grandad went in a home (he died in january), my uncle almost died...it was not a good time. Not good at all. I almost fell apart, almost had a nervous breakdown....just didn't do anything for about two or three weeks. Didn't speak to anyone, didn't pray, didn't work...didn't sing, which for those of you who see alot of me....I'm always singing lol.
ut....I'm still here, and there is no way I can be proud of that in myself. God brought me through. Somehow, for some reason (maybe coz he loves me lol) he stayed faithful to me, and made sure I came out the other side to where I am now, to where I can stand up and say that he is the best ever. He's a wonderful God, he loves me, and all you guys, soooo much. Never doubt that. Without him being there, my life doesn't make sense. Why did I get suspended? Coz it was his plan, to change me and make me who I am. Why have I been sooo depressed that I never wanted to see another day? To remind me that I can't do this on my own, that I need my God, my love, my best friend. Because I just can't do this on my own. I can do well in sch, get a decent job, get a place at Oxford, but without God, none of it means anything.
nyone who asks me what I want to do will get the answer "I dunno". Well, I do. I want to do what God wants me to do. I want to work for him, I want to glorify his name and what he has done. He is the only thing I can think of that I would give my life for. He's the centre of my life, and I want to do what he wants me to do, go where he wants to go. Because I can think of nothing better to do with my life. Nothing.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." (Jeremiah chapter 29 verse 11)
Thanx for your time. Love you all, and God bless.
Jess xx