Ok...well this isn't going to be very interesting. I have no job and I'm not in school so my days are pretty exciting. I will try to make this worth reading though. Well today I'm a little on the frustrated side. I want to go back to school but I can't afford it. My dad doesn't seem as though he wants to help but I guess why should he. So I had a plan for myself and it's not working out. I have tried like you wouldn't believe. Since my mom lost her job back in April I have did nothing but look and mail/fax out my resume to employers....NOT A DAMN THING. I thought I could work for a few months and save so I could pay for my own classes. So my (used to be aunt) finally gets me an interview at the store she works at. I'm thinking I got the job for sure because she is a manager and they had me go through all this bs. Anyhow the guy who interviewed me never called back. I knew he would'nt when toward the end of the interview he asked me if working with someone I knew well would be a good idea and then ended with "well I hope you succeed in whatever you do in the future...we will call you". DON"T WASTE MY TIME....that I have a lot of by that way...I think I mentioned that. I had a really good job offer. My mom talked me out of it cause it was a night job and I had to be outside. What is that about, 20 and still listening to mommy.
I'm changing the subject now. So writing stuff out is supposed to help. I think it just makes you more pissed off cause now not only do I get to think about all this but I get to re-read it to myself a few times too. Maybe that's the point. Well I'm going leave on that statement.
The weekend turned out to be pretty good for the most part. My cousin from Canada came down to visit. That always makes things a little more interesting. I didn't get to party with him as I planned but that's just how it goes. He got his drink on and that's all that matters I guess. Besides I retired my party days for the most part. I'm kinda glad I did because all morning I had to listen to him pucking in my bathroom. Guess he had a little too much fun last night. Hearing someone puck is the worst sound ever. I'm glad I'm not him right now. There really isn't a need for me to booze it up anymore anyways. I mean I will drink on certain occasions, but just for the purpose of getting wasted...I'll pass on all that. I have been there back when I was his age and it's not very fun. Of course at the time I thought It was. But anyway...what's with the bactaria in our water. That's about shitty. We're like Mexico or something with our nasty water. Having to boil it until Wednesday. After I heard all of that I don't even wanna shower in it. I'm about to become a dirty bum for a few days. I'll just sit in front of my computer unshowered, eating everything in sight and listening to some Sublime :) Hey...doesn't sound too bad. Anyway enought of that. On my list of things to do for today I have. Ok actually I don't have a list I have like one thing to do for today and I don't think it's gonna happen now cause my cousin is sick as hell. I was supposed to take him to the gun and knife show. That was gonna be my big event for the day...for the weekend actually but oh well. Until next time. I'm outta here. I gotta go wake up my drunken Canadain family member.
Here I am again. Tuesday night...well, Wednesday morning now. Anyway, I'm up late as hell again like always. Oh well I wont be able to stay up late like this anymore after this week. I got myself a job finally and I'm getting me a loan from my daddy to go back to school, which starts next week. Things seem to be looking up for me now-a-days. Most things anyway and that's not bad, not bad at all. We'll see how it all goes. The past few months have been the rough. Probably the roughest since back when I was a kid but I think that's all gonna lighten up here soon. "Back when I was a kid" wow that seems funny. I say it a lot but when you write you out it makes you feel kinda old. I am getting old too. I feel it now. This is my last month as a teenager. The years will fly by after 21. That's what everyone says anyway. Most of my friends are over 21 and they say it's all down hill after that. Kinda depressing huh? people my age are getting married and pregnant. It's kinda crazy. I'm happy about it though. I don't really care if the years fly by me. I hated being a kid with a passion for the most part. Becides I'm not worried about getting old. I don't care if I'm 20 or 60 makes no difference to me. As long as I'm not alone. That really scares me. I don't want to be alone and I don't think I know how to hold on to someone. Well I do know how too, I just think I don't and it confuses the hell outta me. I probably confused the hell outta who ever is reading this too with that statement. I'll could go on about it now but I'm really tired and I'm running outta room. Wow I went from happy talk of school and getting a job to this depression subject of my insecurities. Anyhow now I'll have something to write about next time I come on this thing.
