Chapter 25
As soon as Serenity heard the door close she knew she had to call him. Serenity was now fed up, she couldn�t keep living in fear in her own home. She couldn�t stay with Randy any longer. She had finally mustered up enough courage to call AJ and ask him for help.
Randy had gotten upset with her again. He hadn�t hit her but he had come close to it. Instead he had just walked away and drove off.
She was now alone and she was shaking. She took a deep breath as she picked up the phone and dialed his number. She hadn�t dialed the number in so long, and still she remembered it by heart.
It was time to finally tell him the truth, and reach out to him, she thought to herself. He had told her he�d always be there no matter what. She believed him, she trusted him.
�Hello?�
When the voice on the other end came in clear she almost lost the nerve but she answered back, in a shaky unsure voice. �Hello.�
�Serenity?� AJ question still unsure if it was her. �Yeah, hi. How are you?�
�I�m fine. What�s up with you?�
�Nothing much.... actually... a bunch of stuff. I guess I�m a little stuck.� She said starting to breath heavy, her voice starting to crack. �Serenity listen, I really can�t help you. I want to, but I just can�t. I�m trying to get out of this rut I�m in and at the moment I need to work on my own problems. I want to be a friend to you but every time I try to do that we just fight. It gets us nowhere. So maybe we need to just stop, you know? Just go on with our lives. We don�t have to be real close. I know you mean well by saying you want us to be really good friends, but I just don�t think that�s going to happen right now. I think you know it too.� He paused for a minute before going on.
�We don�t have to be best friends. I understand you have your new life now and I�m happy for you. I don�t want you to think I�m trying to come between you and Randy or that I�m jealous because I�m not. I just want you to know it�s okay if I�m not apart of your new life. You don�t have to include me to make me feel good or whatever. I�m okay with being on the outside. At first I wasn�t, and I�m not going to lie...it was hard, but... right now I�m trying to get my own life together so it�s fine. You and Randy should talk out whatever problems you have. I�m not the guy to help you.� He finished.
She couldn�t believe what he had just told her. She was completely speechless for a moment. �Okay, um, well. I�m going to let you go now then. Talk to you later, bye.� She told him then hung up the phone quickly.
He didn�t care about her anymore, she was really alone, she thought to herself. As she laid flat on her bed tears started to trickle from her eyes. She felt like a fool for calling him and embarrassed for even thinking to ask him for help. But then she realized she missed him also. �I should have never left him. I should have stayed with him, I should have stayed.� She said as she spoke aloud. There was nothing left to do now but try and work things out with Randy. She felt she had to try and stay because there was nothing else left for her to do.