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May 8, 2002 update
December 2001- We found out through a blood test, that was done on Patrick after he had trouble with the radiation, (mind you it took a year to get results on I might add) that Patrick has a rare syndrome called Nijmegen Breakage Syndrome and the effects of this syndrome usually makes them Microcephalic (small head/small brain and also small in size otherwise), make kids high risk for cancer, makes them very highly sensitive to radiation among other things so this syndrome is basically responsible for Patrick's radiation problems and probably why he had cancer.
We did the blood test on Cory being that he is also Microcephalic and he also has this syndrome so this is why they both have/had Microcephaly. It is a genetic defect on a chromosome that when the mother and father both have this defect is when this syndrome is passed on to offspring.
Although we know the reason and cause of Patrick's radiation problems, it doesn't make Patrick's death any easier, more what ify now and I still hold his radiation oncologist partly responsible for Patrick's death because of the ignorance on his part.

As far as Patrick's family. His father and I (his mom) are divorced now.
Cory and I are living in a small condo in Fraser, MI. I was working in the deli dept at Meijer in Fraser and left that job for a better job and was let go after three days. I am looking for another job..
I miss Patrick still on a daily basis and just go through the motions of each day. Cory misses him too very much. I will try and update now and then on our life without Patrick. October will be coming up soon and it will be two years since Patrick got his angel wings.

July 13, 2003 update- Well, we had a anniversary gettogether at Patrick's grave on his anniversary in October. Connie and Dianne from Mipps were there, John Nader, Laurie O'Meara and Mary Poeschel were there along with Lynn Terras, her boyfriend and her mom, my mom and her friend Betty Kern. We told of our memories of Patrick and released a bundle of balloons. Since then Patrick sends his little signs now and then and he definately has a green thumb and is living through the flowers on his grave this year. They are blooming like crazy now. I am working at Meijer, was working as lunch aide at Cory's school and started a home business called Herbalife. Cory is growing like a weed and almost as tall as I am. He is having some health problems and so we are taking one day at a time. He misses Patrick and likes helping to water the flowers on Patrick's grave. Our dog, Buddy, went home to be with Patrick the end of June due to health problems. Patrick is missed every day.

October 21st has been and gone again and a lot of flashbacks come with that date. I know Patrick is around us through his signs but it doesn't take away the wanting for him to be here physically and healthy and the yearning for the hugs, cuddles, kisses and maaaaaaaah! It is so hard in some ways to believe it has been three years but at the same time, it feels like he has been gone forever. I miss him so terribly and in some ways I know Cory does too.