My christmas didn't go all that well though I spent all the gracious time with my family. Yeah I know, I suck and YES! Christmas Bombed! oh well, kids I might not be drinking on New Years but I'm difinitely partying my ass up!
12/26/02
HmM..can life get any better? Well I wanted to say, Hi Ryan, because I wanted to go dancing with him tonight but can't seem to get out of the box. IM TRAPPED! SAVE ME! "aight"-Ryan. "your crazy ma-lee, you really need to get out" -marline "I know, can't you tell I'm getting crazy? I wanna go dancing with him so bad!"-mol Well, there be another day for me to dance..I mean com'on, DANCING IS MY LIFE.
12/27/02
I hate feeling in love, I hate thinking about a certain someone. Why are girls so iresistable? BLAH! "cuz you know Girl, your body is wonderland"-mol and I'm about to loose myself everyone. I'm not gonna give up, and girl if your reading this, just wait and see. What I want is what I get, and what I get is what I want.-mol
12/28/02
Hey Ya'll, I'm hungry, about to make myself some fai wai. But than agian, Im gonna feel fat, I'm getting close to getting my six pack and I'm gonna put a picture of me on this website...with my abs...teehee like the world wants to see my body anyways, right? well I've been working out cause my hair is getting longer and im gonna look better as ever agian. no more short hair yah know. well, I'll put more of recent pictures of me and my friends but not just yet. have a luvy dubby night....-mol
12/29/02
Hey its New Years..How Fun...BLAHZEYING HERE! um..waiting for a call...dancing tonight? hMM i dunno yet now that I'm in the air. This is the most fucked up year I ever had in my whole entire life. I hope 2003 is gonna be the year of ecstasy..lol...well who knows whats gonna happen next...maybe a leprachaun is gonna come to my doorstep and grant me three wishes...that'll be perfect. Id wish for Money, Happiness and the third wish....hMmm..and a wife. lol
12/31/02
Oh BOY!!! Its the first!! and I havent done any drugs...not that I do ANYWAYS! Hmmm..i started my first day working out and I really want to put my abs online..just don't have a camera right now...=( When will the sun rise above me so that I can go chill at the beach...:::::screams::: I have a confession..I actually miss cuddling with a girlfriend but I don't want a girlfriend right now..sad huh? I want a girl who just wants to lay back and have some fun like she is curious..about her sexuality of course...haha I miss the old days. Well, HOLLA FOR ONES!.
01/01/03
Hello everyone..I'm about to go see Melissa in her cute surf uniform..=) should i get a snap shot...hmMmmm...well today was a good day..FINALLY! I woke up early, thought about running but then agian it was like 30 degress out..HELL NO....the workout bench is good enough for me. hey, My hair is up...no more short hair! yes, I can look athletic agian without looking like a femme. I slept at 5am last night writing in my book..woke up at about 10am (thats early for me during break)and thought about my resolutions....I got a pretty list and im gonna compete agianst myself..well guys...I meant ladies...if you wanna holla at me...do so.
01/02/03
WHOooO...im finally out and about..my arms getting bigger..YAH! Today is apples and kamson's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYS! I had the best dream last night about me and two other girls..nosa but I dreamt about the flintstones how fred got jumped by dino...=)well Imma head to emarald with the girls, its gonna be fun, right? hMMmmm..CHAO!
01/03/03
Funky spunky, i feel like dubunky? I LOVE YOU! thats for Chellie Cheese..cause you know why chel, i see your true colors!(the old times.) Chris! now I know we need to go out...and hmMMm..who else..silent, can we pop one together? tee hee just don't tell any one even phatty girl. haha alright, imma go workout..my arms are DIESEL! tee hee I can beat anyone up...even YOU!
01/04/03
Hello agian!hMMm i just downloaded a couple of phat techno from the internet..=) im trying to raise a fund so that i can go to the club, if you would like to donate money, email me. =) j/k but i want to go to the strand tonight with candy and robert, they are so fun to hang out with. I did three, THREE, loads of laundry today...my BIG arms did all the work..well imma go take a poop in your face now. ehhehe so nastay....=b well see yah lata!
01/05/03
HEYAH! Last night I had a blast with Robert and Meghan, but it hurts when apple and candy aren't there. There weren't to many girls there..whuts up with that strand? aight, sat. night, I hope to be at the PULSE!....wish me luck. AND yes, I'm chuggin agian. I LOVE GOING OUT WITH ROBERT! I always have the best time dancing cause he can ACTUALLY dance. Candy and Apple too. Well imma Hola out. Peace!
01/06/03
Wussup everyone...hMm..today Im going to play volleyball with the kids. hopefully i challenge myself and others to hit the corner line. hmmMm today is aight..i woke up, took a shower and dance by myself in my room. Well I have nothing else to say but F* YOU BIN LADEN!!! BURN IN HELL!!! yaha!!!!-mol
01/07/03
Hello Yellow People...my back is hurting, i freaking tore my muscles! OUCH! aight..whats new?? i met 3 amazing girls but sad thing was that i couldn't remember their names. Maybe next time i'll see them there...::::frowns::: I couldn't sign up for classes today and whats bothering me more is that i don't know what college i should go to for 2003 fall semester.....but i have a 2.98 GPA...im so happy! its not all the great but im getting there. Hopefully i'll pass my next 5 classes..::whoopie:: well me gonna head downstairs to my room and then back up here to look for nutrients. BAZOuNTS!
01/11/03
Hello everyone! My body is not hurting from a big ass workout yesturday...im so proud of myself that i pushed myself to a limit without breaking down..im going to warwick tomorow to watch tash play ball..its obvious, they'all will win the game. i talked to a couple of coaches this week..what interest me most is Maine, Suffolk and Chestnut..we'll see what happens next...well, see you later!
01/15/03
Hey Dolls, today is such a bad day, i couldn't get the classes i wanted..my car is not up to date, someone hacked into my fafsa form, email, aol and everything else..WTF! who ever it is, i WILL find you and beat the living crap out of YOU! cause you just messed with the wrong person and messed with my education...will this time i gotta say, the world does sucks! well AS of NOW!
01/17/03
Hey yall. my life is getting more worse and worse but the the only great thing about this past week is hanging out with Tyler! He is one of the greatest "friend" I have ever encountered and im glad that i met him. we'll all see what will happen. Maybe we'll end up in a brawl..maybe? ::::grins:::::
01/27/03
Im sitting here in the office with my bestfriend Nelli, she says Hello yall. I've been partying alot but not as much as Nella. Alot of shit has been going down but things are great. Boys are fun to be with but girls are just everything.
04/07/03
Happy Birthday tah ME!! lol...well today I am officially 19 years old...everything has been great....i had a warm morning with a wonderful girl..a gift from two of my girls (jenna and tonya) that made my birthday and coaching career unforgettable. My greatest gift of all are my sisters..Marline, Oeun and Jessica..without em...I wouldn;t have a smile. In a sence, I dance of joy in my mind...Another time of my life i came as one...would be of course me two favorite girls who don't get along...Nelli and Melissa...yall both make me giggle...and i have a confession to make..life for me recently has been empty..for instance..loosing a friend..loosing love and loosing my life. I try to ignore it but it'll never go away...wanting to loose made me wanted more. I can instantly be changed by one girl who made life difficult but then agian, easy. With as much hatred that i have for her...inside I definitely miss her..maybe one day she'll notice the true meaning of friendship vs. reality and love.
05/09/03
Im sorry hun.
05/16/03
You will never know how I feel. Sometimes I want to let you go, sometimes I just want you back. You dont understand how much you hurt me, but you know you do this on purpose. You even hear of me and you lestin carefully hoping to turn things around. But I wait for you to actually succeed and accomplish in hurting me agian. I loose with hurt and you win and cry. You hope to stop but you hunger of pain. MY PAIN. my pain that you know doesn't wash away. Then you begin to understand, it always had been....our pain.
05/17/03
Welcome back to my mind, you made it this far..::smiles:::Well...There is this German girl I met at the strand :::laughs:::...the first glance at her took my eyes by surprise...I turned to Robert..'I want that girl'...and Rob replies..'She doesn't look gay Marly, leave her alone'..::LAUGHS of Animosity:: All this time Rob was wrong because this girl makes me happy every time I am with her and everytime I hear her voice..so Becky..are you sick of me now? ::beep beep:: its great because this girl...becky...cheats on me all the time..and whats even better is that she can dance! :::screams::: so ladies...as of now..I am off the meat market..lol...okay yalls..Im off to make a call..SkiaZzZZ!
06/12/03
aight here is the story...becky is rumbling through smith street and she drives about 16 mph....and im not kidden...i waited for her to show up after 30 minutes...this is the truth...she had a girl in the back seat...she think i don't know..but i do....lol..im really kidden....agian....but i dont think i will be heading to the beach..to cold...the plan for the week besides calling becky...see becky...tuesday..friday and saturday and hopefully sunday. I have a date with melissa on wednesday and maybe a date with nelli today...it really all depends. I've got mo, khannary, makara, tasha to maybe all go to the GAY parade...and yes...i will be holding beckys hand...oh yeah...i finally found out her last name..but im not telling..well speak to yall later!
o6/16/03
so yesturday Rebeckha knows that i am a bad fisher! she is so CaAaa---ute. we went to the park yesturday and saw birds..i shot one of em..j/k....im addicted to Becky. so guys....I am dead beat tired.....yesturday i went to go see tash...hopefully that'll be a night to remember...i dont think i will ever sing to no one agian...lol...right mo? i went out with nelli yesturday too....dude i got my ass kicked in pool.....tash.....maybe another night, when the time is right....we'll dance agian. with mo instigating in the background off course. alright yalls...hollas for dollas and the dolla menues. Peace!
o6/20/03
:::turns over to tash and both gives a wierd look::: do you want to smack her? or we get it on? lol :::mo and I sings...::oh baby please, you got what i neEeEd..and you say im just a friend...and you say im just a friend..oh baby you...:::alright yesturday was great but candy..where the f-ins were you? rob..were you drunk last night? or shall i say afternoon? oh and yesturday i was drivin and i passed a couple of monkeys..they were asking me if i had any money.. i didnt but i had BANANAS! lol oh chris...did you tell her? i hope you did ::wink wink:: it'll be our little secret..haha well i have a long day ahead of me...maybe i will meet someone half way. you know who you are. oh yesturday...i had shrimp..seafoood...seafood..cake..pizzaz..more shrimps...what a great way to start your morning and end your night. peace out yalls..dont let mother nature fool you.
o6/23/03
Melissa and I had the best night ever in my car. Im talking bout wild sex...lol....the greatest part of the night was doing sign lauguages to the cop...i had to explain the dough nut and of course all melissa could do is smile at the cop without helping me talk...what a great girl. Melissa...anytime.....anytime i say...you can always run over any other curb...beacuse really it'll be for my enjoyment..(laughs)..but hey i still have a date with you sunday...unless your bluffin out....hmMm aight melarse..you know how much i dig your chizzLlen style....yah know....surf first..khakis later. lol Love You to Death Babe...love to spend another morning with you...in my car. :;;pPPooooOPPPss:::::
o7/10/03
Some people can be so shady....wether your my "x" or my friend, i really don't care....you dont let people cry in front of your door step....or dont think about the other person's situation....now i know...the world is full of ass holes...and you know who you are...i dont think i can ever forgive you. The "heart" part is not there no more...wonder why we didn't bond as much as we use too. sorry that i look at you a different way but its your fault you made 'us' this way.
o7/11/03
"here's to the night we felt alive"-eve 6. The way i felt two days ago is the same way i felt last night. I dont know what has happened to me but i guess it happens for a reason. Like driving around for almost an hour and in my head all i tought was..'what am I gonna do?' its not love..its not my life...then what is it really. Just the emotions that bothers and lingers me like the trance of ecstasy pounding wall to wall asking me..'are you ready for it? or you here to stay or go?' well I don't know. Maybe it will be my turn to cry...just maybe another day. When that day comes, I know when its my run..my run to grab and reach my elation..only my turn to please and surrender to the falling sprinkle that sprakle agianst the light the brightens my face and I will say..'i finally won'!!
o7/17/03
ALlriGht...to much is in the planner....practice....practice...workout..and more practice....:::pokes myself::::: 'damn, this isnt a dream' Nelli and I are going to the movies today but I want to see Melissa...oh by the way...Nelli and I agree upon that the restuarant sucks as hell...yuk..I think I have a tummy ache...about to head to school for work out..brb...okay Im back..ran ten laps..feel great...good job Mo...good job:::high fies:::...Well I think I am heading to hampton beach tomorow...and I think im gonna go drop by a party...or as the americans say..potty..talking about pot...it is SoooOO bad for you...and also...don't drink..that can lead to depression and a fail of succession...aWww..thank god i don't do these kinda things...as for the love life....no love..that means...I still love one person...:::winks::: Im not ready to fall in love agian..it hurts too much and oh yeah..i don't have the time in the world to fall in love...well..im actually in love with a stranger...okay not in love but I really do feel :::butterflies::: when I did first set my eyes on her.....she caught my eyes like a young 'filly' :::falls on the ground and becomes...''captivated'':::: Oh yeah...I love that word 'captivated' ever since she said it...:::wHaoOO::: THANK YOU CHRIS!!! Ohkay...Imma head to the commons...my room of course....b--zounces!!
o7/25/03
Hey Yalls...im at CC. alright..Last night I had dinner with Melissa and I had the best time ever with her. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! Your style rocks kiddo. You were an 'alright date' and you know the reason why the date wasn't the 'alright' date....:::two girl laugh:: I didnt go to pulse or strand either days because Omara wasn't going...if she was going...I would definetly be there...but both worlds don't meet I guess. Today im going to the movies with my biznatch Nelli...she's paying!:jumps up and down like a Mexican: There is one girl I want to talk to for the past week but its hard because I think she is avoiding me..avoided by my forwarded remarks....oh well...life is hard...cope with it....Oh Im moving to boston...I told Melissa that yesturday...she replies like a goof ball. lol I wish I can still coach my girls but I guess it ain't happening.:::shoots myself:: okay yall..imma head out to the traing room....later gaydors!
o7/26/03
Lets start with my sister Marline...:::laughing out hestericaly:::::: She fell down the stairs and I laugh so hard I fell to the ground. At first I was't sure if she was hurt but then she said something, we both began laughing non-stop on the stairs..I wished I had it on camera! Well, im going to Six Flags on saturday with Nelli. Looking forward to it. I never mention I went bungeEeeEe jumping with my sis..anyways we'll have that posted once I have time on my hands. Oh yeah... new decoration..I decided my room is going to be a dj kinda scene lounge. I've decided to paint my room baby lightish blue with clouds...kinda as though it is ecsatasy. My turntables are being put on decks and my record covers are gonna be hanged on my walls and doors are gonna be grafeatti like spray painted..Its gonna be phat! I've finally made the ultimate decision. Oh yeah...Im having a Big Ass volleyball painted on top of my windows with the number three in the middle..WhooOp whOOp...my room is gonna be bangin...no one is invited without a vip invitation. lol..bye everyone.. bye bye!
o7/28/03
Hey yalls. Today i have a day off!!! yipPPeEEee. oH ANGELINE JOLIE ex girlfriend ching chong is butt ugly...angelina what are you thinking?...damn if only I ran into you first. I found my freestylers record and its music I've been wanting to spin for a long time. I finally got my phone. you want my digits? well you gotta work for it. lol. oh I gotta say....Becky if your reading this...your drawings..kicks..I mean Kicks Ass! KICKS ASS BIG TIME! Im heading to the mall today..and maybe the movies and then I am going to buy toys for Ethan, my nephew. And I MISS YOU SO MUCH JESSICA AND ALEX!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! XOXOXOXOXO love you alls. peace
o7/30/03
Yer!!!!! Right!!!There are so many hot girls in boston. ::::rob and apple agrees:::::nods::::::Pulse was so much fun. I went with Rob, Apple and Becky. Robert..YOU LOOK SOOOoooOOOOoo CUTE! And Apple, the hat looks awesome on you. Oh by the way, what happen last night?..I meant morning..:::laughs:::: and at pulse, I met two girls, Joe and May..man oh man, Gracious Joe, you are drop dead gorgeous, and a good kisser too and oh yeah..I love the tounge ring. WheEEee I'm surprise I cross your path. :::smiles:::you know whats also the great thing guys, she's from BOSTON!!!! YAY!!! Thank God there is a place like pulse on saturday night because without it, I can;t distinguish between lesbo and lesbians...lol peace! love yous.
o8/02/03
Im going to CC today to watch Bay View play basketball...whatta bad sport but my kids are on the team. My day started off wicked slow...im very tired but I be back later..::::going back to sleep::::(11:45)
o8/06?/03
...im so lost ...I don't know where to go, if in time I find my hit, maybe just maybe, I will slip, slip and fall across the sea, and let me fall and she says "just let it be" oh swedums, oh sweet lips, if i can recall another day, I 'd call for yesturday, with the rain that rained the rivers, and the rain that rained the music, I will hold you close, and never let go, I, in the right mind, will have you forever to hold.
o8/05?/03
::::faces of many colors:::: They say the faces of many colors, has the same stories as its past and then someone told me, 'knowledge is based on the past.' Its true, and then apple says, 'if you expose yourself to much, you completely kill yourself' ouch but its true. lol Yet I have the hard hands to keep my self motivated only to be cheated by what they call, 'The Playas' :::HA!!::: I, I say I cheated the playas with the lowest cards and yet I raise and stand with the blood that circulates across my eyes and I say 'draw me, draw me if you can' ::they all sit and stare of hate:::::I in the other hand, win and I run::: This story makes sence...I only scare myself by taking all the risk. For the attention, for that overboard 15 minutes of fame while 'the others' sit and wait and I run to see. Im young but I know alot. Only even the summer is not mine to keep but it is ours to share. If you not be greedy and tell, maybe we'll fall together and smile. Smile when we play, dance, sing, all is all..don't be to serious about what others will think or see, its how you see and feel that makes you who you are. :::::just smile:::: It'll be a whole new perspective when you do it.
o8/06/03
YESTURDAY WAS SO MUCH FUN!!!! ROBERT YOUR SUCH A FLAMER!!!!! HAHAHAHA AND APPLE< YOU ARE DEFINETLY BJORK NUMBER 2!!!!!. I couldn't ask for a better night with the two of the most GAYEST people in the world!!!! :::::LAUGHS HARD AND FARTS:::::: Man Joey, I love being used by you.....Im such an idiot not going home with you...god damnit what was I thinking??? your so hot gurl! Love the hat. We can make out ANYWHEREEeEEEeeEEE we want untill the girl at pulse kick us out from the spot. lol. Who Da Man? Robert, the head band man..WHooOOoOO...agian whoOooO and APPLE....BJORK WITH A FREEDOM SCHOOL T_SHIRT!!! HAHHAHAHAHAHA. Oh there was a hot girl at pulse I wanted for so long but her GIRLFRIEND was with her....Im so scared of her girlfriend because I think she knows I like her girl so she might beat me up..=( Im Gonna STEAL her girlfriend..lol...thats what I Say.....DuDe!..I have so much fun partying straight..I like being not GAY...LOL.....YEr RighT! okay Im gonna go running...bye everyone!!!!!! IM GONNA GET THAT GIRL!!!! JUST WATCH!!!!! WATCH::::::SCREAMS AND PULLS HAIR RUN AROUND CRAZY AND SCREAMS EVEN MORE:::::
o8/10/03
Man oh Man.....I just love boston...so many hot girls..AhhaHHHahha...I love newbury street and I love all the girl schools...lol...undate update...practice starts in 2 weeks...i move in the 21st.....alright almighty.....did alotta thing the past 2 days...thought of one girl all night...one clue.....umass dartmouth kicks aSS!!! yeah she attends umass...loving boston!loving it! well thats all to know...pg13 baby...pg13!:
o8/12/03
::laughs:: Fun day today....I met two guys...(my brother's friends)...sorry Sam...they like me better! lol...well I told Rith and David that my brother Sam is gay...my brother turn red and then the funniest thing happened...my brother-n-law walked in with a dress/robe and we all cracked up...'I told you this is a GAY house' well i didn't have lunch today with Nelli...but I am going to see Melissa today at the mall..YipPppEee...Today I am playing volleyball agianst the rivals...it'll be fun because imma get to cream them. Spike Away Mals! well imma head out for some lunch..check yalls out laters gaytors!
o8/13/03
Lemme tell yah, lemme tell yah...i freaking HATE cops! they FREAKEN SUCK LIKE A MOTHER HUBBER! Anyways enough with the rants...Im sick out blazayers...you suck ass too...alot has been going on...alot....I kept it quite and cool..to convince myself everything is gonna be okay....I went to the beach...of course I met a girl there and she does NOT look gay...she saw my necklace..lol....okay...today mission is to kidnapp Melissa and suck her into my life...im sad..the whole world is sad...but i am going to pulse tomorow so it'll be a-okay...hopefully unless this x girlfriend of mine from high school is gonna be there...if she is...i think theres gonna be a big argumentation...it'll suck....well shout out to the sistas....I will see yalls tomorow...bye! molsa..
o8/13/03
Sat.....whOooO......FUN....i get to kiss CAITLIN! It something I wanted to do since high school.....but I'm in love with a stranger....its hella wierd.....i was looking for her but of course i had no luck...hooking upp with another girl. (what was i thinking?) im watching dance fever...its a pretty tight show. apple says its a remake of fame :::?:::: uM....we're making a dance team and hopefully well battle other groups..it's gonna be the shit! well Melissa and I went to the park about 1:39am...it was scary considering the cats we're mad mysterious...Melissa was being a sissy, ...lol.......bad.bad.bad bad girl,......you make me feel SoooOO good......so good, well I got this...one girl...ONE BEAUTIFUL, SMART, FUNNY, OUTGOING GIRL I WANT.....i can't seem to get because of not meeting on the right page (sobs).....well im off..
o8/14/03
.Its funny how credits are given to people just for a moment of excitement and experience. And its funny how credits aren't given to stranger without notice. Society tends to jump and love and love for free and yet people just throw it away because of jealousy. I in the other hand, likes to say, I had a chance and blew it. Either I blew it to have and keep or I blew it to make new conversations...you know what, i can't talk right now..brb.
o8/15/03
Sat..i finally get to see one of the most beautiful girls I'vbe ever seen....talk and then left because of ROB AND APPLE! DAmn YOU GUYS...aight..2 puerto rican girls in one night..isnt that wierd...sunday night...I get to see Gloria agian..shes a pretty kewl chick...I like her..and her DANCING...omg..she dances professionally! :::drops mouth...i did alot this week ALOT...and I've gain wieght...bad...im starting a workout for everyday use..apple and I are doing it together.....we're pretty excited about it....Girls are so fun to be with...i love em..I LOVE YOU MELISSA AND NELLI...had to say that....and you know the black girll monique..she finally called..FINALLY! i want to kick her ass so bad.,..and i talked to marissa and this is what she said, "Man, you need to get your ass up here, we'll show these white ass ho's what c-town is all about" THat is the fuNniest shit I've ever heard....and Marissa..you are WHITE AS WHITE AS IT CAN GET! well this one sweet girl told me that..'im glad your here, i can get to know you more better now' awWWw isn't that sweet..and you know what...i just stood there in surprise..SURPRISE!
o9/06/03
Friday night was kewl..i got to see omara..she and Rob had alot in common...I wish they would have played rnb because she didn't like techno...well at least we all got to spend friday night and sat. morning altogether...maybe this weekend we'll spend it together..maybe..okay why is that every girl I talk too is never 19 jus over 21? damn..I must look very mature...and how come the girls look 19 but is over 21? who cares..they are all hot anyways...well I admit..Im shy in front of omara so I don't think there should be anything between us but with Gloria...Im def. myself.
sat. Sept.03
Apple and I first dance battle and WE WON! we punk their ass so bad...S&G....thats our dance team...Soul and Groove...its hot man...Apple is a great dancer and so is Robert..but robert think he is too kewl for us...::::Whatever rob:::laughs::: Besides that...i have to tell yalls a story....if I played volleyball..I would never had met this girl name Gloria..and Im glad that I didn't played...:::my friends are prob. saying 'What???':::but its true...For a very long time, I never met a girl like her...Shes so easy to talk too and she has her own point of view...and plus..she watches the chipmunks! ::YEAHAAAAA!!:: I thought Gloria was too good for me but we talk and I find us pretty chill and laid back...well monday was hMmm..I was dead sick..didn't wake up for Nelli but I did for Gloria...and im glad I did...when I walked in the mall all drowsy and stuff...untill I saw her and I was like..WhoOopieeE..she Was so sexXxXxxyyYYy...she had those thing tied in her hair and pink all matched up to her watch..I never liked pink untill I saw her sexy-in it up....I was having lunch with a hot ass girl..gosh..im so gay..But seeing her made..I mean MADE my day..the way she laughs..the way she talks and def. the way she ordered her kids meal :::HHAHAHA::: Im looking forward to thursday..I can't wait to spend our movie night together...maybe we won;t even sleep..ttahaha.....bye yalls. Oh yeah...she's a dance instructor for URI!! :::SOoOO SexXxxxY::::
Tuesday. sept.03
::JT Breaks::Gloria...21...1 tattoo.im falling for this girl..not in love yet..but I am falling for her. She is so pretty how her face shine agianst the light. She brightens up downtown. I wanted to go dancing last night but after the water fire, I was too tired. Her and I left at midnight..she's my baby. we're gonna do alotta things like go to the drive thru movie, go dance salsa and marenga and shes gonna teach me cumbias..she is SooO awesome...I loved just holding her last night at waterplace...I never had such a moment like that with anyone else..im telling yalls..she's magneficent...beautiful...smart and a GREAT..GREAT dancer and kisser too. haha..i think im getting yalls jealous..okay..im heading to boston..see you laters!
Tuesday. sept.03
Club Hoppin is the way to go. Friday was kewl but I wish Gloria was with me..she was in New York. I spent the entire night with Omara only to get pull over by the cops...not just one cop but two..it sucks because just this week alone, I got pulled over twice both with citations. well, I grew out of my shell for Omara..I wasn't shy no more now that I have Gloria...I think Im going for the FULL commitment. Omara is just a friend and YET; she made me a scarf. I like both girls in both different ways. Omara I can chill with and Gloria I can start with....I hate working...I wish Gloria and I could spend a WHOLE week or even an entire day together just relaxin...my silly goose needs it...jumping to another story...Nikho and Chris were throwing up showers in the parking lot...it was soOoO funny..Omara and I got a kick out of it..we HAVE PICTURES.....I will put it up soon..well more stories to come..i miss my baby Gloria
Friday. sept.03
I called Gloria today..we decided to be just friends...I really don't want that...its really all because im moving to school in january..I thought we could work things out but I guess I would have to work it alone. My time I spent with her I enjoyed it all..we'll have more time to spend together in the future..just not as one. I liked her because being with her was all real..It felt as though she's really in front of me and that I can touch her but now that I lost her..I lost hope. Im an idiot to give up, I guess I can say..Im an idiot to end the story short
Monday. sept.13.03
I just have to say one thing..I thought Gloria and I would last longer than I expected....I think I do things to late..well anyways..Monique called me..im spending the weekend with her..can't wait to see and play ball with her...I guess Im gonna go now and think of Gloria..::sobs:::
Tuesday. sept.14.03
Its so great how I damn started my weekend..I went up to tiekyo and it was crazy...MoBlo and I had a blast and the people I meant there were F&*(!^ crazy! Off the fa chizzZo..(mo your prob. laughing) But lets see...meeting mad girls..mad guys..I think Im Bi....YEAH RIGHhHHHHt! hahha...bi-myself that is. I MISS MY ALEX and my FAVORITE ONLY SISTER IN LAW JESSICA!...My webpage sux as hell..I keep thinking of one person...I just wish that our prob. isn't the problem because there are way more worse obstacles than the one we are going through...I wish Jessica was here so that I can tell you my problem. Im hooking up with another girl...hopefully everything goes good..I mean..shes the kind of girl I always go for but I guess there will never be another Gloria. Shit...you know...I don't care..but I admit...Im a loser...I don't care if the whole world knows Im sweating Gloria because she's something my friends don't expect me to sweat over. I know one thing about this girl is that...she is the predilection of ambition.
Monday. sept.20.03
I thought I knew what was love untill I met this one girl. She changed the meaning of life and the meaning of real in reality. Not that I fell in love with her but I fell in love with her beauty, Her so-call intensity of challenge as she pushes its boundries to the next. "2003"
Monday. sept.20.03
I got a date Sat. and before that date, i have a date with my sister and baby asia. Its going to be so much fun. Today is not an exciting day but Im glad I got to see it. Tomorow im going to try to get a cell phone. Hopefully I can holla at my girls. lol. Oh by the way world..i got my surf board...its hella phat...the board costs $500. isn't that crazy? its a christian hetcher board..well imma go surf dreamin now..lol later gaydors.
Tuesday. sept.21.03
Alright...hear me out...im just stright pimpin now..lol..gotta a date tomorow night..maybe just maybe...I will get laid..sike! I gotta a date with a man...hahha...nah..we were watchin movies at his crib and maybe a little sumtin sumtin might happen..hahhaa..how I mock the worth...The song playing right now is women's worth by alicia keys, its what im feelin..but im hooked on the mountians and rivers by az yet....For the past two days I've been cronked on sugar..its crazy...I dunno why people take drugs when they can just eat sugar all day..::laughs::I can't wait for sat....my sister Marline and I are fachillen chizzlen in her new car...its a tight ride..better than mah ride..im just straight feelin ghetto tanight...maybe because im lestining to reggae. HA....I feel like Im higher than the natural high.....nighty night mah littl egrren people...get paid and get laid....
Wednesday. sept.22.03
Damn..damn...damn...this weekend was off the hook...fridae started outt soOsoo good...Gloria and I was on the dance floor and of course she was rockin it...she was soOo bangin..more bangin than the girls that were hittin on me..my friends were jealous but i didn't care..first of all...im jealous of whoever has gloria but she is coming over tonight..hahaha...::mock the worth::sat...was hella boring but all i wanted to see is Sunday because who's coming over? GLORIA! haha...we're just watching movie..thats all..=(...but =) Saturday I did go and see her...she so beautiful...damn damn damn..thats all i can say..I WISH GLORIA IS MY GIRLFRIEND! which of course will never come true. :::sobs and leave with envy::::
Sunday. sept.25.03
I confess too many things to Gloria...but Im glad i did...For the first time I had fun without thinking about her..it hurts to know im not with her nor that she'll ever be mine again... well my x pushed a girl name kerri so hard that her drink splashed everywhere....what was that all about? hardcore dyke action....I could've went home with a girl but found out what she said to kerri and i decided to back off..i knew she was kinda pyshco....She just want to get in my boxers..lol..alright alright..I do need gloria..I need her because I love her....DAMN....i said LOVE lol...what are the chance me loving another human being....small..slim....slice...slash..wel I let yall know...I do Love this girl...'she made me realize what love really is and there is not enough to explain what love really means'.
sept.26.03
So many things...so many things..OMG...i've given up so many things for Gloria, I've given up so many cute girls even though Gloria and I aren't together..oh you know what...There will NEVER BE ANOTHER GIRL LIKE GLORIA. Her bestfriend told me I will find someone else better than her along the road...YEAH FUCK NO!..you don't understand how offended I got..Robert and everyone else says i deserve a girl like her but why don't i have her...I want to kill myself...one of the reason why im going to the airforce is because of Gloria...seriously..I've been dead without her...she doesn't see it but everyone else does..she told me she didn';t know thats how I felt...but I guess Im gonna kewl..and just back off...I really don;t want to...I guess she'll be a part of my life...I never felt this way guys...I don't understand...out of everything I ever wanted...iI didn;t know it be a girl...seeing her Monday with her bestfriend....I got this wierd vibe..but im not gonna say anything..Gloria baby...,aybe you'll read this one day...I told Robert and B..."If i could give anything away..it be my heart...without her im dead and if i can have her back...she can rebuild me."
Wednesday. November.12.03
Yo....this week, last week, was off the hook....I met soOO many GiIiiIrlss....it was crazy...I can't believe we ended our weekend on tuesday.....I thought that was great..You know...I guess some things aren't suppose to go the way its suppose to go...For alotta girls of course...for instance....we don't communicate with eachother and lack of time made for eachother...if she doesn't see what we're meant to be or come out to be...I guess we just wasted chapters of our lives...I miss her..I exremely do...everyone askes me about her and I just shruggesSs....'I dunno, I wish I knew'....but if you are reading this....IM SURE YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.....I love you to death and I know we are not together or even talking...but I'd take a bullet for you. I miss you goofy. p.s.s.s.s No, this time is not about Gloria...lol
Wednesday. November.12.03
Saturday was straight up bangin....Gotta couple of numbers...of course Im not gonna hook up with any of em...I was pretty wasted...kinda like an anti-depressant..lol...These girls that I met were those kinda girls you just wanna hang out with. Alright..I finally know what the perfect kinda girl I want..I want a pretty girl who know how tah dress..more than half the time she's all versace up and then when we hit the crib...she's in sweats with a tank top and her hair is tied up in a pony tail..I want a girl that knows how to make me smile or laugh when its not even funny...kiss her and I laugh..of course only one girl I experienced that with one girl...she made me all ill inside but maybe another girl can make me feel that way...I want a girl that has no drama...who's cares about life but doens't care about other people's drama...I want a committed relationship and this time I won't get scared...I want a girl I can go to the club with and she'll let me dance with other people but when its our time...'it's our time'. I also want a girl that carry's herself well who knows what she's doing, who knows what she wants. She's def. has to be smart and knows how to carry a conversation. I want a silly girl who i can take to my mama and make my mama think...'my daughter know what she wants'. I need a girl that can dance, be multi-talented and at the same time, knows how to play volleyball...I want a girl that can R. Kelly me, knows musics, knows art. Looks a plus but personality is the chart. I want a girl that can inspires me and make me do that I thought impossible. I want a girl that makes me jealouse but doesn't play the game..I want a girl that doesn;t act like she's in highschool....or ask for the official date..who cares....I want an admiration and So far only one girl has fit all of my wantings but apparently she IS TO GOOD FOR ME....of course I don't know rather to laugh, cry or just search agian...help me lok tha.
Monday. November.25?.03
Gloria made my damn week...she went to the club and we dance..the funny thingis that I didn't get beat up..lol...I think Rob has gotten it all wrong....Damn...if only i could be with Gloria...she was straight up BAGIN...Kerri was there and I finally told her what I always thought about her...Im glad I did...I still havent told Gloria everything....how I gave up everything...Im such a sad story...Christmas is coming up and its the first year I am single...I thought it be with Gloria but I forgot...she has a sketchy girl...I thought I was blind. well..i shouldn;t even say anything. Maybe I am blind. But I do know is that im a loser...everyone tells me...lol...well my one wish is.......I think yall know what it is already....=(....maybe it will come true.
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Monday. December.1.2003
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Taurus
Your sign is that of earthy Taurus, the second sign of the zodiac, the sign characterized by endurance and sensuality. Taurus is also associated with material goods. Venus, the planet of love and beauty, is your ruler, and makes you a very warm and faithful person. For the most part you are even-tempered and show a great capacity for affection, as well as an appreciation for beauty and art. You are loyal and reliable. You keep your promises. As the first of the three earth signs, you are realistic, patient, and persistent. You are the most grounded sign of the zodiac, preferring to put down roots and aiming for stability. Comfort, even luxury, is very precious to you. And indeed, you rule the second house, the sector of the horoscope that encompasses money and possessions. This house describes your value systems, including the value of oneself. Your sign is a fixed sign, dear Taurus, meaning you enjoy responsibility and taking charge. However, you are not a doer - you are a delegator! Like every genuine Taurus, it may take you longer to get involved with something, but once you do, you don't want to stop. You are more passive than active, and prefer to have the world move around you while you sit still and direct. Your strengths lie in your decision-making abilities; you don't make snap judgments or jump to conclusions. You engage in careful consideration, as hastiness and impulsive actions do not appear in your script. In your relationships, you are fully committed and faithful, and you seek harmony and inner peace. But you too have a few weaknesses. One trap you may fall into is that of obstinacy and self-righteousness. Due to your firm beliefs, you are deaf to any kind of criticism. This inflexibility can cause you to resist change and procrastinate. You run the risk of becoming lazy, overindulgent, or convinced of your own infallibility.
Wednesday. December.1o.2003
I love having fun when people think I don't have fun. Nelli and I are back together by the way. We went to pulse yesturday and we met lots of girl. Apparently I got into a little misconfusion. I don't want to say it online. Well I had fun dancing on the stage with B. He's such a model-ish dancer. handsome female..hahha.. Got alotta comliments too :: smiles :: I met so many girls ...im gettin good at approaching girls..before I couldn;t even smile at one.....SIKE! lol. I met a kewl chick but she straight. I like her down right attitude and her smile made me approach her. She reminded me of my little cousin. Im meeting her agian when the play agianst tasha's team. I need a straight friend like her. Anyways...there were lots of girls there i've never seen in my whole entire life. I think girls think Im flirtin with em but really im just a nice person that likes to talk. ahHh. There was a kewl chick there too but she left early..I dont know why she did...she so cute...I like the fact that we can say funny things to eachother with high fives and all...and she told me 'yay! im not here with my ex girlfriend'...of course...I am in line. lol. I do have a crush on her. =) Maybe we'll hook up. "YAY!!!" I'll be back with more.
Sunday. December.15.2003
Aight..whats up...Im talking to this girl name Amanda..She so funny and she's definetly not shy like she say she was. I met her a couple of times..Hi's and Bye's but this time we danced and talked and kissed..=) Um...I like her...it feels like a start to my dating scene...Im surprise I give myself a chance but I still want one girl back....=( but I guess my life has to go on like I don't want it to without her..okay..okay...I gotta stop..Amanda is wicked awesome...we're just gonna lay low and chill..ttyl guys
Monday. December.22.2003
Its been a year writing in this journal of mine...its pretty crazy. If yall have been following what I've been saying...Well its been ironically hectic as hell this year. Meeting people, breaking people...wow..I can't believe its almost over for the year 2003. Well here is what I have to say to everybody, we are what we commit to the wrongs, we learn from them and what we havent done, well began to try and do. Accomplish our faiths and think, it will happen, because you'll never know what will come to the next day. Like we all say, like we all know, live today like its you last, because you'll never know, what will come and what will go. Merry Christmas
Thursday. December.25.2003
Ive been doing alot this past week. Its been so stressful yah know. I wish I can have things done my way or for me but it seems like its not happening. Life use to just revolves around me and personally, I cant say that now. Im just like the other people now...like when you want to say something to their face sooOOo bad but you don't have guts...you just lose your mind. Well, im beginning to loose my mind and im sure she is too. If im constantly thinking about her, im sure little things remind her of me. like e.g, the way a person says hi or licks her lip a certain way. We miss eachother but why aren't we together? well let me let you now, I Love You.
Wednesday.Jan.14.2004
Hey...I had one of the most funnest night ever..lol...Dude i have a headache...the party didn't ended untill about 4 or 5 in the morning......I felt like I was in highschool agian...it was wierd but it was fun..kissing people you never thought you kiss is halarious....thank god I didn't get to kiss B or Robert the B-Bert. At kamp was so much fun...I got hit on alot by so many girls and dogged by their insane girlfriends. Its all good just as long as were not touching, right. Well Today there is a party but tonight is going to be KICK ASS. I dunno how many girls are going to be there just as long as im there breaking the beat a downs or two. Damn...this weekend is alerady crazy. Chris, La, Shy, B, Rob and the rest of the crew...thanks for giving a fun ass night....love yah deps. peace.
Sayturday.Feb.01.2004
I don't know what it is but I be having so much fun at the club now. I met a blond chick Tara whom I think was the hottest chick there..she reminded me of heather and you know how hot heather is. Well I didn't get her number but I did get 10 other girls. LOL...they just go into my collection box. none of em were as special as a certain...ahem...someone...Last night I got a number from this girl or shall I say women...::laughs:: she's wicked funny and outgoing slash funny. Im def. calling her. But I wish I had asked Tara for her number. Girls are all so dramatic...I don't understand why some of em think Im there girlfriend...They are blowing up my spot...And for the LAST TIME...IM SINGLE AND IM NOT DATING A PUERTO RICAN CHICK..but I wished I still do. But if your reading this, please don't come up to me and ask if im dating her and pa-pa-please don't tell me im concieted when I don't know you. But enough bout sats. Good gOoOooOOOOoooD news...I passed my ABSVAB and signed all my papers..so Im on a go to the U.S. Air Force..so wish me luck on all my future success..more good news...B-Rob ad I are back as friends, B got into JWU and Chris got his permanant government job, and yeah yeah, Rob is going to loas for the 50th time so he can blow $8,000 in less than a month...Damn spolied loation. Anyways...Its great to know that were all moving forward in our life together as friends.
Wednesday.Feb.11.2004
'I want a 1,2,3, harlem girl.' Hey I finally finish all my process for the Air Force..Officially in it now. Should I be excited? should I be sad...Should I go up to the girl I love and tell her that she ruined my life..Shit..too much man..too much..I dunno what to feel right now...Its like love all over agian. Im lestining to the song that I played for her when she fell asleep on me. She was like an angel from a Bed time story. I don't want to think of her but there was this one moment I look up and it seems like she was there sitting the same way and she looks right into my eyes and thats when I knew I was in love. I miss her so much. But back to life...I've been doing so much..I think I've been so dumb to let time fly and let me look at it and say 'dude, I could've done some thing. but I just rather choose to watch her and see if she is really happy' I guess she's forgotten to love. She's like every other girl, she let love just pass her by.
Thursday.Feb.19.2004
I wanna give a shout out to my girl Kim, Happy Birthday Hun, she's turning into the big 20..whao...hope you got what you wished for. I wanted to share a story today about a boy, name will be disclosed. How can such a bright young boy turned his life upside down in a little to no minutes. It surprises me how a talented kid like him, take asuch a wish and throw it away. Is it the drug, is it the people? sad to say, i really don't know. I work my whole life trying to find his pieces but he just let me put it together and let others take it apart. Him knowing how much I care, how many the pople around him care, let people of such disqualifying personalities take him down with them? how can we stop this kind of disruption? well im gonna work with him tomorow and get things strighten out, till then, we'll see. Good night.
Wednesday.March.03.2004
Happy Birthday to one of the greatest girl lived...Savy thap that ass. lol...Happy Birthday Ma. WEll alot has happened to my life. My parents sold the house..im leaving...nothing could come at a better stance. I dont understand girls no more....maybe i do drive them nuts but they DRIVE me nuts. I wish sometimes i can dust them off my shoulders and say "hey...why can't lesbians be friends?". Im not the typical lesbian, im not the typical asian, so why not let me have fun and drink my coffee? I wanna dance but just ten feet away. I don't like you but I so want what I can't have but then..why do I want what I do have sometimes?
