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*~*I Feel*~*
i feel your sensation of words in my heart. they come at me a mile of a minute. i feel your presents within me. it feels great to be loved as someone by you. i feel the magic between us. ive never felt this way before. Its such a wonderful feeling of how much i love you. I feel the brillants of beauty in your heart. You have never brought me down. You've always made me feel better when i was sad. I feel so happy to be with you who has the sweetest words and the heart of sweets. Your so loveable. I'll forever love you with all of my heart. I feel so full in life with you now. I feel your love within me every single day.*~*A Tear*~*
I have tears rolling down my face. My eyes are red and they burn like hell. When im really upset i'll lye in bed and cry myself to sleep. Each time i dont talk to him i get really weak. My heart feels like it explodes. A tear will evenually fall to the ground it'll stay there showing me whats really happening around me. I'll feel like crying when i miss him so increiblely bad. It tears me apart i wish none of this would of never happend to me. When i cry it takes all my freaking pain away. I will always get really depressed if i dont get to say atleast one word to you for a mount of time. I'll just learn to stare at my walls and drift off into a world that i once baned myself from seeing. My eyes will evenuallly turn black from my eyeliner. Their reder than ever. A tear is how much i really miss how it was.... A tear is for him and all thats around me always.*~*Missing*~*
Theres a missing part of me. I feel as the other half of me has departed away. As each day passes by my heart feels like its about to die. The happyiness that it use to have in its place feels like its not really there anymore. I'll start to loose my mind if i think of what the problem is. When im missing somethng or a part that im not sure what it is i'll start to feel as im a complete nothing. Feeling like nothing leads to a world of sadness. By missing that part of me i think of nothing my mind goes blank. I'm not feeling too much up to par anymore. I'm not really sure what im really missing at all. The pain of this missing piece is putting me to a spot where i dont wanna be.*~*Life*~*
My life envolves you everyday. It envolves the specialness of you in my heart and soul. I'm so much happier since you've gotten in my life. Its been so great so far. We'll always be together for the rest of our lifes. You are my whole entire life. I can spend each day of my life talking with you. All the memorys will last til the very end. All the thoughts of you leave a special mark in my head.
every once awhile my soul burns to crist. its not a happy feeling. alotta times it just goes threw like a buring arrow. im telling ya i dont need this at all. all this is no damn good right now. why the hell do things just come straght at me in the face. im telling ya i dont need this. atleast right at this fucking moment. im sickkk of thisssss all...so when is everything gonna be alright for me. i can answer that for you its never going to be right. sometimes i wish i could die and never be alive anymore. alotta peopple think i'll never be anything good just a nothing...a nothing for the rest of my life. If i could change thigns then things finally would be right....
*~*Burning*~*
when i see the sun it just burns my soul. Burns me to the ground. Everything around me just fades away like it was never there before i had lived. I burned my heart with all the shit that went threw in a days time. Everything started to disapear around me. Everything had burnt to crist never returned. I wasted my lifee on in this place of nothing.. The nothing that there was no point in. When things get smokey i close my eyes like i never did before and wish it all to be a clear sky and a fresh smell. But the timess past everything is burned like dust. I dunno what happend to this place was it all to good for thigns to be around Everything slowly burnt away.. I dunno whyyy things just went away.. Every single thing has burnt Those thigns burnt my soul into the river and in the sunset. My fears my life my everything was burnt to crist nothing left nothing more and nothing less except you the one who's still left in heart the only peace thats left of me is you the one who took over my brain. The one who told me it be ok and the one who made me get past this terrifying day of my life.
*~*Fearless*~*
I fear you... i feel your light i fear the brightness that comes from the sun...the brightness that seeps threw my eyes when waking of the day...i fear how things are i fear how things might turn out. The days im fearless is when something i never expected to happen with life. something im afraid to say whats within inside of my heart. all that im pretty much fearless is the things that scare me most is darkness being alone death and also being somewhere that nobody is around. I'm fearless of anything that scares me or just something that im deepy afraid of which isnt that many things just things only i could think of within me and not in you only things i understand nobody else. I'm fearless of things that arent really as their meant to be.
*~*Darkness*~*
i can see the darkness f yuor eyes in the sky at night. The shadow thats behind those eyes isnt so true. Its a little funkey to me. Alot of times the light to you leads to all the souls of happyiness. The real darkness only happens when i want it too. i cant always hear it but those dark eyes are always there stairing at me every second of the day and life..... Darkness....
You are my light. You are my star. You are the brightest light in everything i do. You have always let me see things in a differnt way that they apear to be. I have always helped you in ways that i cant explain and that i dont know of. You have always been there for me. I'm always here for you too. Your a real special person in peoples life including mine. You inspire me alot. I havent noticed til now but you made things clearer to me in a way that i havent seen before. I realiaed you have made my life better than it has been in along time. your the best person ever and you should always keep being you.
~~She~~~
Once she's seen the windchill will cheer. She will not have fear. She will not have a falling tear. She will have faith. She will forever be safe.
~Hate You~
I use to care what you said about me. I dont care anymore. Your not my life being. The only thing you are to me is a bitch. I been ditched by you so many times. you made fun of me. For what to make your self fucking cool? Guess what that does nothing to me anymore. I dont give a shit about you. It was fucking fine before i met you and your friends or anybody. I was really shy still am. I am still fucking shy around people im more afraid of them now. i'm fucking scared to be myself. i'm afaid people will make fun of me that they did. I always keep to myself more than ever now. I am afraid to be close to anyone, you know why? Its because of you . Each day i would cry. you made my life miserable. Dont you think I didnt hear what everyone says about me especially you and your fucking friends. what the fuck is wrong with your head. I wont cry anymore. I had it with all of you losers. I hated my life and still do. I've hated you all so much. Will ya leave me alone for once? I will no longer put up with your fucking shit, I really hate myself because i let it go way too far. So please get a life and quit reuining mine. So please die in the head. Rest in your bed forever. I will forget you all and pertain back to how everything use to be without any of you. I hate you and now good bye for ever thank you for making me think im a pathetic person, you all will get it someday, but not now not in my time maybe another time. now go get a dime and leave me the hell alone.
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