I think what I have in mind in to do something like let the school have ¾ of the profits while I'm employed there, since I'll be using school resources to print everything when it's done. For now, I'm making sure a very minimal effort on this project is being done at school, just to cover my ass if I need to keep it for myself later down the line.

After talking about the game I mentioned to Paris that I was also writing my own textbook series as well, but he said the game seemed more prevalent than the texts. Then, he sort of hesitated a moment and apologized, saying it seems so cliché to say someone's coming in to want to know about spiritualism, career, and love, but that indeed love was the third thing coming into focus. In fact, he redrew a diagram he'd started saying that what seemed more accurate was three paths converging into the clearing of sun and warmth... the three paths were my spirit, the game, and love and relationships. He again affirmed I was close to this clearing and said as far as love is concerned, the spirits were telling him one message, Feel no fear, but didn't know what it meant.

I started to briefly mention what had happened with Kari, and Paris said he knew my heart had a few bullet-holes in it. I laughed at the analogy, telling him about the death threat and my unknown son. (Paris interrupted to let me know my son will seek me out to get to know me.)

I said that Feel no fear made sense to me as I have a lot of fears about money. With no car I am afraid no one will want to go out with me... without a lot of cash I can't afford to treat a lady as I'd like. Paris asked me, "Would you go out with a woman if she was poor?" Of course, I would. "Would you go out with a woman who doesn't have a car?" Again, I said I would. He said those things don't affect whether I'd find a woman to be with, so why couldn't there be a woman who has the same views, who doesn't hold material possessions above love?

Paris said he wanted me to do two things. First, I'm to make a contract to myself, listing all the qualities of the woman of my dreams (including religion, looks, personality), and to sign the contract. The second thing he asked me to do is when I found someone I'd like to date, to come back to him and borrow his car. He was very insistent upon this and asked if I would.

It was my turn to be hesitant. I said I really don't like to impose upon people, but he said people can't be imposed upon. He said that since his recent surgery he's unable to drive and he has a car that's not being used at all. He also said I am a very nice man and that he liked me, that he'd like to help me out, to offer me this favor, and asked once again if I would come to him if I need a car. After all the insistence I finally gave in, saying I would, but to be honest I'm not sure I can bring myself to do it.

Girls don't like boys,
Girls like cars and money.
Boys will laugh at girls when they're not funny.
And these girls like these boys, like these boys like these girls.
The girls with the bodies like the boys with Ferraris.
Girls don't like boys,
Girls like cars and money.

Girls & Boys
written by Benji Madden and Joel Madden
Copyright 2002
EMI, April Music, Inc., and 21:1 Music