for those of you freaks who inadvertantly surfed on my page and have no clue as to i am... i'm lindsay. i turn 18 in june and i'm a cyncial hypocritcal red headed witty funny contradictory amusing loud mouthed girl. a senior at john jay high school in new york, i love writing, which i assume you've noticed, and i love books of all sorts. i live a perfectly normal life in my nice sized home in my nieghborhood with my nice mom and dad my nice older brother and my nice dog. i'm aboslutely normal and it irks me when i see other perfectly normal people leading normal lives write about how horrible their life is and how close they are to hell and all of that crap. not that i don't have angst. i do. but i don't parade around wearing fishnets and baggy pants to proclaim it. i read albert camus, maya angelou, and shel silverstein for all my angst. writing about it usually makes me feel like a fraud. alright, now that i am totally off the unknown subject.... i do that a lot.... back to me. summer is my favorite season for so many reasons. i hate the snow. i hate the cold. i hate the school. i'm not some total reject loser that fails math every year-- in fact i'm 49 of my class of 448, i'm in my fair share of ap classes, and the honor society, and a boatload of activities. so don't get the common misconception that i'm a worthless slacker. i am, but only because i see homework and trivial matters like notetaking in class a big waste of time. if i can go on auto-pilot in school and get good grades, why do i need to give a shit? i'm off topic again. back to why i love summer. i've been going to the same camp since i was four, and when i was 15 i started working there for about a buck twenty an hour. but i love it, i love my friends there, i love the fact that everyday i go to a place where children fight over me and i can boss little darlings around. the past two summer i had a charming group of fifth graders, and-oh god- some were taller than me. yikes! i love the foreign guys from all over europe, and i love making friends from all over the world when i don't have to drive more than fifteen minutes to see them. summer is the best. the weather is hot and i can wear all the tank tops i want. my birthday is june 18th, just days away from summer. i usually have to take a major exam on my brithday. how awful is that? i go to school for three hours to take a test and leave. no remembers, no one cares. that bothers me. i love being the center of attention and to be forgotten is just unacceptable. i like to feel that the world is my own personal stage and i am acting out a role. i love to act and bask in the lime light. unfortunatly, my school just loves musicals and i can't sing if my life depended on it. the fall of junior year i got the lead in butterfly and shocked the pants off everyone who didn't know i could act. i managed to make the previous two shows by pretending i could dance. i pulled off my part of being a dancer pretty well in pippin and children of eden. i moved onto some like it hot the fall of senior year, and dropped my part as Nun #17 for first flute in the pit orchestra this spring for the sound of music. i adore music. i've taken music theorym four years of school band, flute lessons, piccolo lessons, and my dad, the muisc prodigy, is starting me on guitar. my taste has morphed and developed over the years, ranging from classic rock to classical piano to alternative to uncategorizical crap. i'll listen to anything, (critically, of course) especially: the beatles, phish, chili peppers, pearl jam, fiona apple, pink floyd, and anything played on wpdh, the classic rock station. you would tunk guys would appreciate a girl who knows all of the words to stairway to heaven, but shamefully enough, that's a misconception. while most guys claim to like girls such as the aforementioned, it seems to me they really go for the shy, maleable, pretty, soft-spoken, j-crew wearing prototype. most boys reject me. i'm the thoughtful, loud, and ridiculous girl next door that they love to flirt with but not hold a relationship with. i think. in reality, whenever a guy is remotely interested in me, i lose interest due to their lack of intelligence. it's so hard to meet people you can actually talk to in high school. all teenagers are garanteed misanthropes. i think being 17 means i can see whichever guys i want to see and not be hassled by commitment. i have my whole life for that, im not looking to settle down anytime soon. i have too much to think about now, i don't need to add an annoying guy onto that. not that im totally romance-free. just keep me out of that mess. i have so many other things for that, like galavanting with liz and lauren, for instance. or trying to get into a college that's not plagued with the j-crew wearing girls. or trying to graduate without commiting a homicide. it's a goal, right?
--Lindsay Beth Kaplan |
