Dear........
Do you remember the night we were at the beach, it was cold, it was raining. I remember sitting on the wet sand crying and you said to me :
"I'm not going to let anyone hurt you ever again!"
There was droplets of water hanging from your hair and your lips were blue and you were shaking with cold, but to me you'd never looked so beautiful. You put your hand over mind but I still felt like ice!
We sat there for hours, watching huge waves crash into the shore just metre's from our feet.
Do you remember Christmas Carols in the park? Huddled on the hillside watching some over rated local singer sing. We had a bottle of vodka and a candle. I couldn't help but laugh when you snorted vodka out your nose! You went bright red and were so embarrassed.
As the sun went down and we laid back on that hill, drunk, cold but very much in love and everytime I opened my eyes you were watching me with those eyes that I still see everynight in my sleep.
And the first night you stayed over! We ate dinner and watched a girly sappy movie! But when the time came certain things to happen you freaked out! It wasn't just you! I felt like I was going to be sleeping with my brother! I guess we overcame that problem.
And there was the night when a friend called me and told me you were dead. Do you remember that? I do! I dropped the phone screaming. That night I felt like my tears would never end. I'd never even got to say goodbye and now you were gone forever.
And the night after and that and the night after that and even today I cry myself to sleep because your gone.
