| Slave Journal May 16th |
| Journal for Mistress Control |
| Started my computer up Wednesday 16th May, hoping to get a message from Mistress Control, my heart lit up when I saw that there was one there. Opened it up, and was pleased that she was happy with my journals, and I was happy that I had not to smack myself with the ruler. Disappointed when Mistress told me I was not allowed to cum, but had to carry on with stroking three times a day. Again woke up with an erection and did not want to stroke it, maybe Mistress would give me some other orders when I opened my message so I rubbed my cock on the bed mattress to try and give myself some ease but soon had to stop, because I would have cum in seconds, my cock aches so much to cum. Today I also have to go shopping for my Mistress to buy, spring clothespins, deep heat, and candle and leather laces. It is now 9am and I am naked starting my first stroking session, and with no ruler, I am looking forward to it. As I am stroking, again, I imagine myself kneeling in front of my Mistress, kissing her feet and pleading with he to let me cum, but she just pulls her feet away laughing, and forces my face down onto the floor with her feet. After around seven minutes, precum started to seep out and I wiped it with my hand and licked my fingers clean, so near to cumming and not been allowed, is one of the worst teasing your Mistress can make you endure. Just worried about each session incase I cannot hold out, do not want to upset my Mistress, and be punished. Went to the town to buy Mistresses things, so for this second stroking session 1pm I had to go into a public toilet cubicle. Did not strip off naked in case anybody saw me, so I just dropped my trousers and pants down to my ankles and started stroking, I could not think of anything this time, just please nobody try the door or look over the top of the cubicle, because I knew if anybody did try the door, with the fright I would have cum straight away. It also took me longer, around twelve minutes, before I had to stop and again no precum came out, always the second time that this happens. Mistress forgive me for not thinking of you, but I was so frightened in case someone came, I could not think of anything else. Came home and had a coffee and then went upstairs at 3-45pm, stripped naked, got on my knees, started stroking for the third session, again wanting to cum so much and not been able to, if only my Mistress would let me cum once, it would take this itching out of my cock. Therefore, while I am stroking I am still pleading with my Mistress, imagining her in her black leather suit and whip in hand standing over me, not even allowing me to have a peep at her. This time I lasted around eight minutes, must be getting better with practice, only a wee bit of precum came out so it did not take long to lick my fingers clean. These stroking sessions are making my cock sore, but not as sore when I had to use he ruler, maybe sometime she will change my routine. I do not know how long Mistress is going to keep me at my three session stroking and not been allowed to cum, but I will have to last it out to please her and keep her happy. Bought all things she needed so maybe for being a good slave she will let me have pleasurable wank and let me cum, please Mistress please. |