So I receive Kathy's gift today via airmail - I tear the box since I am really excited and ridiculously impatient, and I find three little cases of glow sticks, beads and pacifyers. Inside joke. I laugh my ass off and I feel my eyes tearing up, so utterly sad because I miss her to death.
During nostalgic times like this, I wonder if I've made the right choice in deciding to study here in Seoul. I don't regret the decision; the school's alright, work is great, and the cheap clubbing scene comes in handy during phases of boredom, but I just wonder... that's all.
Kathy and I were suppose to room together in New York while she attended Pratt and I studied at Sterns, NYU. Except, I got stuck in California and decided to study in Berkeley. So we were just in opposite coasts... separated by 1-800 long distance phone calls. And then, I had to move here... and dialpad will no longer be free... and if I don't shut up, I will be complaining for the next few paragraphs. Brace yourselves.
Let me talk about work instead. Work is pretty cool; I was walking towards the lobby area to take the elevator up to our office and I bumped into that really fat Korean comedian who's face looks like an oragutan, but body resembles that of a gorilla's. He's famous not only for his eye catching looks but also for his original acts. Wait... it's not that I'm a fan of his, I just thought it was awesome that I got to see more than a handful of actors on my first day of work. Work itself isn't difficult at all but getting TO work and BACK home/school just wears me out. But here's what I did yesterday; Ellen and I decided to pamper ourselves so we went to go do our hair. The best part of the day was when we took the subway from my work place all the way to school; I love the long solitary rides and I was so glad to have shared it with her, this semblance of solitude... but that solutide was completely disrupted by the time the day was over. KU's having a week-long celebration and there was a concert in progress, right smack in the center of the crossroad which we needed to cross in order to leave school premises. Except, there were so many students, head banging, singing, jumping up and down that Joanne, Hee-jin, Angie and I were just standing there, in the middle of the crowd, gasping for air and holding onto our dear lives... literally. Now that I think about it, it's damn funny...
May 13, 2001
I bought an MD recorder/player today; actually, I went to technomart after church to get my discman fixed but the very convincing worker there forced me to buy the $400 contraption. But I'm really happy that I did; now I get to listen to all the music I want, I won't find myself buying a 16-track CD just because I enjoy listening to two of the songs; yaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. I can't stop listening to Jill Scott and Case and there's no particular explanation or reason for this addiction. I feel exactly the same way with Stevie Wonder's "Lately" although people keep on telling me that Jodeci's version is 'better.' Well, they're only going to receive a deaf ear on that little comment. And to Michelle Unni who made me listen to Nsync in her car, all I can think of saying at the moment is... it's going to be okay...
May 15, 2001
I met up with Ellen and Hazel after work today around six. It was nice, sharing a relaxing evening with two genuinely caring people. We also took sticker pictures before heading off to Club Clue.
Here's a short dedication to Ellen...
Hey sweetey, I know you don't really like this particular sticker picture but notice how purty your facial features are. We've been spending a lot of time together lately; I always appreciate your company and am always amazed with the honesty and sincerity of our conversations. I just hope that I'll be able to give you the happiness you have given me and if at any point in our lives I disappoint you then don't hesitate to point out my faults and mistakes. Well, I should end right here before I become all sappy and teary-eyed but remember, always, that you are an important of my life and will always be one of my best friends~ Mwah!
Have you ever seen a rose in full bloom? Its beauty encapulates so much, yet we marvel at the rose when it's petals are boundly knit together, in its state of fragility and innocence. This is when the dance of life takes place; we do not live our lives knowing when we will bloom, we celebrate our journey towards this profound stage. We should live our lives as though we are on an eternal treasure hunt; the final treasure doesn't make it worthwhile... the experiences and memories obtained throughout the whole advenuture does.
May 23, 2001
I spent my first half of the day walking around Kyung-Hee University, Ellen's school; such a great school, man; I envy the students there. Well, this is the website to her school: www.kyunghee.ac.kr and this is the website to my school: www.korea.ac.kr - feel free to compare the two institutions of higher learning.
Profound thought for today:
What goes around does, in fact, come around. People will get what they deserve and this is not entirely based on the name of 'poetic justice' or even Machiavellianism, but more geared towards unspoken but understood inevitability. This may be because of social imprints, due to the way human beings differentiate 'good' and 'bad,' the way people divide the system of rewarding and punishing. It could be from a higher source, of religious faith and spiritual learning. But I strongly believe that its more than all this. It's our knowledge that life and existance itself is the most sacred and important thing known to man. We learn our strengths and our weaknesses while living our lives and this knowledge gives us this awareness.
May 27, 2001
Say NO to drugs, kiddos. If you're unlucky like some people, then you're ass will (I guarantee this) will end up in jail. What a psychotic weekend... here's another word of advice (for free); be careful who you hang with, if you're unlucky like some people, then you're ass will (I guarantee this too) will end up in jail. In both cases, stuck in jail, I'd say, for at least six hours of interrogation.
May 30, 2001
Profound quote for today:
You can know someone better in a moment of Honesty than ever you can in a Lifetime of Lies -Javan
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ps the animation on the bottom evokes so much emotion in me... hahahaha... the band-aide on the heart is absolutely sweet; thank you hazel!
