| Through the darkness breaks the light. |
| Through the light unending pain. |
| Deify the wretched ones, |
| Till the Darkness comes again. |
| -Strength Through Wounding (A.F.I.) |
| My Music -> |
| Some Of My Thoughts |
| For many years I have been fake. Perfection was my goal, to make someone proud, protect myself, and various other reasons. But finally I couldn't anymore. The pain, the rage, the hate, the numbed emotions reviving became too much. Every emotion I ever suppressed blew up in my face. The hate, and everything took over me. I was ruled by emotion, and lack of, rather than controlling them. Various things happened, and I realized I couldn't live like this anymore. I couldn't take another day of pain. Another day of searing defeat. I realized that I was choosing to be like this. So I decided for the most part to stop. Yes, I have to really limit myself on how I act at work, and around family. The latter I am easing into who I am but they are already wondering if I am into satanism [one side is Mormon, the other Christian. I am a mixture of Christian, and pagan religions].So here I am. Who I am. I am dark, but light. I am a sadist, and yet don't want anything to be hurt. I would drink human blood if given the chance, and yet don't eat meat. I live a life of contradictions, and parallels. I am undefinable, and yet labelled. I fit in almost everywhere, and nowhere. . . |
| My Stats |
| Age: 19 Sign: Aquarius Height: ~ 5' 8" Weight: 115-120 lbs Eyes: Green. They change depending on my moods. Some people have said blue. They have a yellow tinge (and the center turns very yellow) when I'm pissed. I guess blue is when I am happy, or something. When my entire iris has a yellow cast, run for the hills. Hair: Dark blonde Area: Southern California Major: Theater Arts E-mail: [email protected] Status: Taken Factoid #1: My teeth are sharp. My friend, Sanurra, said it was one of the first things she noticed about me. Factoid #2: There is the number 4 made in veins on my right foot right above my big toe. Factoid #3: I am called Miroku Girl in anime club. I have many other nicknames too. Factoid #4: I evaluate humans. Why they do the things they do, what they will do etc. I can get into some people's frame of mind. Even my theater teacher says I am intuitive. FavoriteBand: A.F.I. FavoriteSong: Morningstar FavoriteMale: My boyfriend, then Davey Havok FavoriteMovie: The Crow Favorite Shade: Black FavoriteColor: Blue, then silver Favorite Time of Day: Evening. A perfect balance of light, and dark. Favorite Word: Booyaka Favorite Food: Oh... um... I have it. A plate of choc. covered strawberries, a can of whip cream, and pitted, processed cherries. Other than that, pizza. Oooo, with black olives! And those vegetarian chicken things by Morningstar Farms. The chicken patty is really good with white bread, and lettuce. FavoriteQuote: Um... I have more than one. . .I seem to like Thoreau though. . . |
| If I am not I, who will I be? - Henry David Thoreau |
| The future, as always, belongs to the dreamers. - Heinz Pagels |
| I was not born to be forced, I will breathe after my own fashion. - H. D. Thoreau |
| I am looking for an honest man. - Diogenes |
| Other Good Quotes: |
| I won't be wronged. I won't be insulted. I won't be laid a hand on. I don't do these things to other people. I require the same from them. - Gunman J. B. Books (John Wayne) from The Shootist |
| Quite simply- I want honesty. - Soren Kierkegaard |
| Theoria non delenda praeter necessitatem. Translation: Razors should not be thrown away as long as they give a fairly decent shave, or until you have a better one. - Reuben Abel |
| Fear cannot be without hope not hope without fear.- B. Spinoza |
| The biodegradable but nonrecycleable animal blessed with opposable thumbs capable of grasping at straws.- Bernard Rosenberg of humans |
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