| Undertones
By Prinsesa When people ask me how I am, I say �okay,� �still the same,� or �nothing new�. I do not tell them that I am frustrated, and I do not tell them that it is one of the emotions that I most frequently feel. When people ask me what I�m doing, I tell them �nothing,� or �reading a book,� or �watching TV�. I don�t tell them that I am waiting for hours and that I am probably waiting for someone who will not come. When people ask me where he is, I tell them �around,� �at home,� or �I don�t care�. I do not tell them that I do not know, and I do not tell them that I have no way of finding out. If people are going to ask me if he loves me, I am going to tell them �yes,� �of course,� or �he should�. I am not going to tell them that I�m not sure. I am not going to tell them that it is something I want to find out myself. I will see him tomorrow, or the day after that. I will see him because I will make a move to do so. I will see him because I want to. He is going to smile and kiss me and act like nothing is wrong. I am not going to cry. I am not going to break up with him. I am not going to tell him how I feel. |
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