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Jerk

I heard you fell in love again, or at least that�s what they say
I heard you think of her at night and hold on to her each day.
I heard that you were happier than you ever really were
That everything you do each day entirely revolves �round her.
I heard you fell into the trap again, of love that�s paper-thin
Heard that you weren�t any different from boys who believe that they are men.
Saw you hold her close to you and not want to let go
Saw the need for her in your eyes� just thought you�d like to know.
I�ve heard a lot of things that sound so typical of you
Though there isn�t much I�ve heard that I didn�t think you�d do.
Hug her, kiss her, hold her until the moon and sun don�t shine
�Cause I�m happy for you both, and so glad you�re no longer mine.

Mutant Flies

It�s been to long, I�ve waited to long
To see your smile, to see your eyes
I can�t sit here thinking, just can�t lay here dreaming
You are so much different than other guys
I�d love to be up there, I�d drive there, to get there
And to get up there I�ve made many tries
I live with confusion, I adore this confusion
But to my numerous questions I get no replies
So I�m stuck here thinking, just sitting here watching
The weird behavior of mutant flies.

Live To Learn To Love Someone Else

Live to learn to love someone else
And hope that their love they�ll return
Sit and wait for what they have to give
And from each love lesson you�ll learn
That it�s not what you say that proves your love
It�s the things that best go unsaid
And its lying awake just thinking of them
Replaying their words in your head
It�s always amazing to hear their voice
And the kissed never get old
Giving all you have without wanting
Is the purest of love, I�ve been told
So when the opportunity knocks at your door
And as you approach the door, you turn
Go back and let that person love you
Never fear the burn
For if all goodness falls away
And you�re left with bitter words and tears
Remember all the good times had before
And don�t make love one of your fears.

Almost Lost It

The sunlight hid for days from me
Couldn't regain my sanity
And all the things I longed to hold
Had become distant and oh so cold
Everything changed and what was warm was dead
I couldn't concentrate with what was in my head
Memories caused tears to fall
Though I tried to act cool in the thick of it all
I looked for ways to ease the pain
My desperate ways I could hardly restrain
Slept to avoid feeling empty and through
Compared to aleternatives, it was the best thing to do
Held in emotions to make me look strong
Didn't give a damn 'bout what was right or wrong
Kept secrets, told lies, put on quite a show
Tried to hold myself up but weakness started to show
And God, did I pray for the ability to forgive
For I felt it was the only way that I'd be able to live
So I worked hard on loving and returning the old me
Most times it was difficult, though sometimes easy
And the grey clouds moved slowly away from my head
And I started to spend less time sulking in bed
The sun rays were shining, the air was crisp and cool
Things started to return back to normal at school
And the lost love from which this pain had come from
Sprouted a new friendship only encountered by some
Yet another trying situation I have again made it through
Just had to remember: to myself be true.

Fickle

Hopeless romantic
My love life is frantic
Ever changing interests in men
Fall in love all over again
And over and over, it really doesn�t stop
Once I hit the bottom I shoot right back to the top
So help me from spinning right out of control
I fall in love with love with all of my soul
I am crazy for boys
It�s like shopping for toys
I find the ones that make me smile
And have a crush on them for awhile
But that�s not what I want, you see
I want the one that is there for me
To comfort and protect and hold me when I cry
To lay with and gaze into the night sky
So yes, I am fickle, but not always
Only until I find one with who I want to stay