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Walk Through The Fiery Gate

                                       

*Mine*
My Love Love? Hate? Choices Kill Me Bubbles What If The Darkness Realisation Nikita I Stand A Foot From You The Love Bible This Truth Somehow The Time Is Near What We Need My Hands Enjoy Youth Temptation Do I Give In? The Spark To kill Perfection The Search True Loves First Kiss A Poem For Alice Goodbye To You Valentines Day Poem The Lone Wolf Deception I Knew It Was True It's Like That The Taste Opaque Too Much To Ask One Drink Here With Me Illusions Boy How To Die Tutorial Perhaps What Matters Passing By I love you The Deal My Other Half You And Me Forever In Glass (Part 1) The Glass (Part 2) The Other Side Of Glass (part 3) Through The Glass (part 4) Together Forever Subconsciencely Be Free Still Insane The Curse-Gift Mine Death Is Only The Begining And For You Too Much Will Kill The Black Stallion Money Or Love Only Without You A Life Turns So Alive Why Am I Here The Perfect Drug One Day Ill Hold Onto Faith Freedom


*Lanas*
For Matt

*Jamies*
The End Death DARKNESS The Lady The Boy

*Caitlins*
The Coolness Of Metal Untitled What A Way To Die The girl in the mirror Grip of Death Blame

*Allannah*
A Poem For You

*Kitty*
The Edge 13, Unlucky For Some

*Dayna*
For You My Lust No More

*Manda Dot*
Its All Alright Someone Please You All Of It Did We Know Why In My Dreams Me 'n You








1 Dream, 1 Hope, 1 Chance, 1 Mistake









They carry me through the feilds,
Through the wreaths of mist,
Moist on my face,
And the lamb will pause, for a thoughtful stare,
The soldiers they will come,
And lay me in this dark cold Earth,
And push the clods in upon my face.
John Marsden ~The Tomorrow Series~









In this life of froth and bubble two things stand like stone,
Kindness in anothers trouble and courage in your own.
John Marsden ~The Tomorrow Series~







My Love




The sun rose again today,
Assuring my love for you,
It will set tonight,
Assuring it will last,
Till the end of time.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Love? Hate?




What is love? Hate?
Is it a human invention?
Or does everything have it?
Is it natural or unusual?
Does nature know of such things?
Does it know of love? Hate?
Nature knows no love,
Nor does it know of hate,
It knows no wrong,
For it knows no right,
It knows of life, of surviving,
That it must survive somehow,
This is all nature knows,
In my opinion,
If you care to listen,
Love, is a word,
Invented by us humans,
To explain what we cannot,
To explain a feeling, an emotion,
Of great strength and power,
An emotion to rule all other things,
Love to me means,
Knowing that you need that person,
Need that person to live,
Knowing that that person dying,
Would be like,
Someone taking a blunt knife,
And cutting out your heart,
Then squeezing it till theres no more,
While all this time you standing,
Feeling this even though its impossible,
Feeling your heart crush, shrivel and die,
This is the way I feel about you,
Always have,
Always will,
This poem is dedicated,
To you my love.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Choices




In this life we make many choices,
Wood or brick, black and white,
Shorts or pants, left or right,
And so on,
And through these choices many things change,
But one things for sure,
No matter what the choice,
As long as you have friends,
You will survive, you will be happy,
You will be loved.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Kill Me




Taking the blade,
Watching you scream,
Your terror sends chills down my spine,
I love the way you beg for your life,
Cutting your flesh,
Watching you bleed,
Your blood tastes so tainted and sweet,
I can't help but enjoy the pain you must feel,
But you deserve whatever you get,
You fucked with my head,
But it bothers me not,
I dont blame you for the way you think,
Because I think like that too,
Your morbid mind is nothing like mine,
I act on my thoughts you don't,
As I drain the life from your body,
And seal away your soul,
You Are Not Alone,
The Disowned,
Kill Me,
I Don't Care.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Bubbles




Bubbles,
What should I say?
What you think is true,
Is not,
And what I think is,
You deny,
So,
To make this,
True to your mind,
I have to,
Lie about you,
You�re the nicest,
Person I�ve meet,
Yet you believe,
You�re a bitch,
You think your fat,
I think your,
Close to perfect,
Not perfect though,
As nothing is,
And I love that,
About you,
What you think,
About yourself,
Is wrong,
It�s a bad,
Mindset to have,
But certainly,
We can both agree,
Not the worst,
You�re loving,
Caring,
You�re all that,
But as well,
You take,
What you really want,
But would,
Give it up,
For a friend,
You speak your mind,
And there no doubt about it,
That you aren�t shy,
Not a bit,
There are some,
Secrets you keep,
And others you don�t,
I thought I was,
Invisible to you,
But now,
I know I'm not,
That�s one secret,
You keep from me,
For so long,
One secret,
You shouldn�t have kept,
But now it�s out,
I�m ecstatic,
I�m glad it�s out,
For if it wasn�t,
I don�t know,
Where I would be today,
Probably not here,
It�s amazing how,
You can speak,
Right to my heart,
I love,
Everything about you,
I love,
You.
~The Nameless Wonder~







What If




This poem is for all the happy people,
All the happy people,
That have real nice houses,
Sports cars, good jobs,
For all the happy people,
That don�t know what its like,
To be poor,
To be broke as hell,
For all the people,
Who don�t know what its like,
To sleep, to live on the streets,
To eat from garbage cans,
From the gutters,
For all the people,
Who relate these people,
Closer to dogs then humans,
Who think they have no emotion,
No family to support,
Like they don�t even exist,
For all you people,
Think about this,
What if you got fired, and,
What if your family dies, and,
What if you go bankrupt,
What if you lose everything,
What if you end up on the street,
As a result from this,
Is this how you would want to be treated,
Like a pesky insect,
How would you feel,
Don�t try to put yourself in their shoes,
It won�t be the same,
Nowhere near the same,
So next time you pass someone,
Living of a lower standard then you,
Think of this,
Think,
�What if that was me?�
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Darkness





The screaming in my head,
On and on it goes,
I thought it was just the wind,
But no,
I realised then it was human,
The sound emitted was like,
Like something in my worst nightmares,
The sound of a mans soul,
Being torn from his body,
Of his heart being ripped,
Still beating,
From the rest of him,
All the pain and horror,
That everybody felt,
Combined,
This is the darkness,
And this time,
Its here for me.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Realisation




Your power is the strenght of a tide,
Which drifts in,
Slow, gentle, easy,
You are determined,
Obsorbing,
And I,
Like a ragged weed of the sea,
Pulling free to join you in your dance,
To lie upon you waters,
Shared in your magnetism,
Too late,
I learnt your true nature,
And was swallowed,
Sucked under,
Almost drowned,
Yet now,
I have found a firm place to stand,
Will resist you,
Battle you,
Keep my face always to shore,
Because there is no life in what you offer,
Only death,
And,
I want to live,
~The Nameless Wonder~







Nikita




End to end,
Stand to strand,
In the end,
I'll fall down,
No matter how strong,
No matter how weak,
Cause i admit,
I can't last,
Forever,
Without you,
Now you're gone,
And you're not,
Coming back,
I'll fall down,
To be with you,
Cause I know,
I'll see you again,
Wheather it be,
Just passing by,
Or if I'm,
Given the chance,
To hold you,
Althought I,
Don't think it,
Will be more,
Then a glance,
From Hell,
Through Heaven,
You're gone,
From this earth,
Forever,
Nikita,
I'll see you,
Up in the sky,
From wherever i go,
When my time comes,
And I fall down,
In the end,
Stand to strand,
End to end.
~The Nameless Wonder~







I Stand A Foot From You




i stand a foot from you
under your porch light
the chill of the night wind
as it blows my bare skin
i look into you eyes
i see your tears
i see my face
blood running from my eyes
my forehead, my nose, my eyes
trickling down my checks
dropping from my chin
sounding as it hits the concrete
like the rain sounds on metal
blood running from the gashes
above my eye
and i cant see
it fills my eye
i kneel a foot from you
under your porch light
the chill of the night wind
as it blows my bare skin
i look at your lips
and long for one final kiss
for your gental touch
and your soft lips
i pray to god
for you to kiss me
as i can hardly move
i cannot summon
the strenght to stand
i wish id never gone
i wish id never fought
because of what ive done
ive lost you and youve lost me
i lie a foot from you
under your porch light
the chill of the night wind
as it blows my bare skin
i do not feel the pain no more
i do not feel the heat
from my blood
nor the cold wet dew
that shines on the grass
but i do feel the want
to have you in my arms
to be able to hold you
and feel the love
that you and i share
and will continue to
after i die
untill the end of time
i die a foot from you
under your porch light
the chill of the night wind
as it blows my bare skin
you keeling over on the ground
tears now pouring
i wish i told you
how much i love you
i wish i told you
how much i needed you
i wish i gave you
time to respond
i wish, i wish, i wish
if only i had realized earlier
if only i had listened to you
if only i told you i love you
if only, if only, if only
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Love Bible




I wanted to,
Write you a bible,
Of love,
But the words,
They wouldnt come,
So Im trying to put,
All my love,
For you,
Into this poem,
I hope I love you,
Till the end of time,
Till the Earth collides,
And explodes the sun,
When Hell is full,
And the dead walk the Earth,
Still will remain,
All my love,
All my memories,
From the times we shared,
Will never fade,
From my head and heart,
I need you,
I want you,
I love you.
~The Nameless Wonder~







This Truth




This truth
One day I know
Its gunna
Kill me
But still
Its better to
Say the truth
Then to tell lies
But that�s just me
Most of you
Out there
Are different
And would lie
If it saved you
From something
Or
If it got you
What you wanted
And this is the truth
We all know this
Well
Most of us
The truth may hurt
May cause pain
And suffering
But in my head
It�s always
The best option
Always
Even though
The truth
Is destroying my life
It is showing
Who my true friends are
And who will stand by me
Thought the blazing heat
Through the freezing cold
I know
Who will be
Standing beside me
At the end
And all the way through
I have scars from lies
Inside and out
Some you can see
Some you can�t
The truth
Is gunna hurt me soon
I feel it
It�s not far away
All I hope
Is that
I survive it
And still have you
Through the truth
Through this truth
This truth
~The Nameless Wonder~







Somehow




I dont know how
But somehow
I screwed it up
I wanted to
Spend my life
With the best
Person in the world
I had that
I blew it
And i lost it
I dont know
How much longer
I will live
Without you
Could be 10 years
Could be a year
Could be a month
Could be a day
Could be after this poem
That i die
You once told me
If you love something
Set it free
If it comes back
Its meant to be
Well i came back
But you still said
Its not meant to be
I will die
With you in my mind
No matter
Who im with
You will
Remain with me
Forever
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Time Is Near




The time is near
I will be going
I have to go
I want to go
There is something I gotta do
Use this blade
Carve this upsidedown pentagram
On my back
To summon Lucifer
Make it big
Make it deep
Make the demons sense it for eternity
I am going
To the 9th level of hell
To challenge
Satan himself
I will be back
I promise I will
With blood on my hands
I will be back
I promise I will
~The Nameless Wonder~







What we need




I feel Im losing you,
I dont want to,
God knows that,
And Im pretty sure,
You dont want,
To lose me,
Its not,
Our fault,
Its the others,
The parents,
Theyre trying to stop love,
And thats impossible,
Exspecially,
Love as strong as,
The love we have,
We love each other,
So much,
We may aswell,
Be one,
If it,
Werent for the others,
The parents,
Id be,
With you know,
And thats what i want,
Thats what you want,
Thats what we need.
~The Nameless Wonder~







My Hands




My hands,
They have caused,
So much pain,
So much anger,
Yet have been,
So gental as to,
Touch an angels soul,
I look at them now,
Skin missing,
All bruised and red,
Swollen palms,
What have I done,
What has caused me to,
I know,
It was her,
What she told me,
It's not the worse news,
But certainly,
It wasnt what I wanted,
I'll deal with it,
I always have,
Always will,
Cause I have friends,
By my side,
Friend I hope,
I will never lose,
Friends i hope,
My hands,
Will never hurt.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Enjoy Youth




I was young once,
So close,
Yet it seems so long ago,
It was wonderful,
Being young,
Being childish,
But,
Things change,
And,
Things grow older,
We get wiser,
And with all this,
Comes responsibility,
Pain,
Love,
And other things,
Some we can control,
Some we cannot,
Some will get better,
Some will get worse,
Although i am,
No longer young,
I'm still happy,
Still going strong,
I'm still a child,
Inside,
And sometimes,
Even on the outside,
~The Nameless Wonder~







Temptation




When your in pain
Nothings going right
You keep thinking
Why am I here
Im better off dead
People would be
Happier without me
Starring at the silver
The sharp knife blade
It draws you in
Its so tempting
To pick it up
And to run it
Across your pulsing vein
Following it
Till the blood covers
Your arm
Warm, quiet and peaceful
As the blood rushes
Away from your body
Dripping to the carpet
Soft thuds on impact
Life seeps away
Lying in a haze
Dizziness creeps on
Then you drift off
Never to wake
The temptation
As you look
At the blade
Still sitting there
Why not resist
Challenge yourself
Resist temptation
Resist touching the knife
Its a hard challenge
But in the end
Its a worth-while challenge
~The Nameless Wonder~







Do I Give In?




I see him staring
Straight at me
Straight into
My eyes
Do I gve in
And say goodbye
Or do I resist
Only to gain more
More to lose
When he comes again
For he will
That is certain
I would ask someone
But I have noboby
I am alone
And the thing is
I want to be
For some reason
I like it
I enjoy it
Being alone
All by myself
I wonder if you
Could ever understand
Or will it always
Stay at arms lenght
From you
Always there
For you
But never able
To be understood
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Spark To Kill




It tears through me
Rippling out from the heart
Tis the spark
To set off the fire
Sometimes the fire catches
Sometimes it doesnt
Telling me to take action
To make you see
Tis the spark
The spark to kill
~The Nameless Wonder~







Perfection




Im not
A perfect person
Does that make me
Not a good person
If so, why
If so
We are all bad
None of us
Are good
For none of us
Are perfect
Perfect
As we know it
Or Think we do
Doesnt exist
You can be
The best
The worst
But you cant be
Perfect
Never
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Search

Blankness
The great emptyness
My mind wonders the void
Searching
But only found one
You
Apart from you
Nothingness
Not even darkness
Was to be found by me
I couldnt find
The coldness, the heat
Only you
Your all my mind holds
You could say
You are my mind
And for that
And so much more
Ive given you my heart
You are my life
I couldnt leave you
Without first dying
I give you all my love
For eternity
And longer
Itll never
Cease to exist
~The Nameless Wonder~

.





True Loves First Kiss




Happiness fills the air
Along with love
And many others
The touch
The sesnsation
The warmth from when
The hands are first held
Together
The feeling of belonging
True belonging
The smile that spreads
On the once long ago
Tear stricken face
The undoubtful delight
That glows unmissible
Throughtout the eyes
The windows to the soul
Till the eyes close
In share joy
The gentle touch of the lips
Which lights the heart
Sets it on fire
It can only be
True loves first kiss
~The Nameless Wonder~







A Poem For Alice




This worlds,
Left me blue,
Inside,
Battered and bruised,
Inside and out,
My friends,
They desert me,
I guess they cant,
Face the cold,
So i must,
Face it alone,
And I will,
I wont surcome,
To the darkness,
I will spread light,
I will melt this ice,
I will,
Bring upon fire,
To melt this ice,
I will chisel,
Through the rock,
On my stone cold heart,
It shouldnt need to be like this,
If only,
She hadnt been this way,
I wouldnt,
Need to do this,
If she never lied,
So i must,
Face it alone,
The tingling on my shoulder,
The warth,
My friends,
They are here with me,
Always have been,
I was just blinded,
But now,
I can see,
My friends,
They are helping me,
So i wont be,
Facing it alone.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Goodbye To You




Goodbye to you,
It hurts me to do this,
But I must,
You lied,
Yet again,
I guess,
You wont change,
And if you cant,
For me,
Then what is the point,
Of us being together,
I thought the world of you,
But now,
You will be lucky,
If I ever touch you again,
I have to say this,
Cause its tearing up my inside,
If I dont,
Ill end up,
In a ditch,
Under a bridge somewhere,
So I must say,
Goodbye to you.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Valentines Day Poem

I wait,
On you every breath,
I pray that someday,
I hope,
You feel the same as I,
I trust,
On your every word,
I look,
For your every move,
I know,
What we have is unique,
For when I hear your voice,
Nothing,
Absolutely nothing,
Can bring me down,
You illuminate,
My darkest times,
And support me,
When i need you most,
And when i dont,
The touch your vioce,
Brings to my heart,
Is like nothing I've ever felt,
For I love you,
More then words can ever say.
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Lone Wolf




I am born,
No one wants me
But i am theirs,
I am a burden,
I grow older,
Everyone complains,
But i am theirs,
I am a burden,
Im a teenager,
Everyone yell,
But i am theirs,
I am a burden,
I grow old,
Everyone ignores me,
But i am theirs,
I am a burden,
I die,
Everyones thankful,
I'm not longer theirs,
I'm the lords,
I'm no longer a burden,
I'm an angel,
I am the lone wolf.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Deception




I thought you loved me,
I thought you did,
I put my trust in you,
I devoted my life to you,
And you go and cheat on me,
And whats worse,
You lie to me,
Im never gonna be the same,
Only you can restore me
To my former self,
But you must figure out how,
I feel like dirt, like a piece of shit,
I feel rejected and lonely,
I guess you dont love me,
But still,
Theres a ray,
Theres a light,
Theres a hope,
Theres a spark,
For you and me,
To work things out,
Be honest, dont lie,
Lies and deception,
Is what youve put me through,
Be honest, dont lie,
Come back and stay with me,
Forever and ever on.
~The Nameless Wonder~





I Knew It Was True




When I looked in your eyes, I knew it was true,
My heart never lies, I was in Love with you.
As you stood there, just looking around,
My whole body melted, into the ground.
I remember the day, I remember the time,
I remember the place, still on my mind.
You looked so good in your shirt & jeans,
I remember that night, you were in my dreams.
I wish I could be with you, day after day,
Because I love you
More than words could ever say.
~The Nameless Wonder~







It's Like That


It strikes at will,
It goes where it wants,
It has no conscience,
It has no respect,
It is enivitable,
It is the one sure thing,
He is ruthless,
He is heartless,
He is inhuman,
He chooses young,
He chooses old,
He will choose you,
Death is like that,
~The Nameless Wonder~






The Taste




The Blood,
It looks so pretty,
The smooth flowing river of it,
Is so pleasantly hypnotizing,
I love it,
The insane smile on my face,
As I feel the cold metal razor,
Tear through more,
And deeper,
The feeling is like a drug,
Extacy,
Im so happy,
I must taste the metal again,
I squirm and rub my cuts,
Ha it tingles
~The Nameless Wonder~







Opaque




I stare at you and faintly make out the features,
Though you stand so close and so often,
I am blind to who you are,
I knew someone like you once,
She was dark and distinct,
We would talk together she and I,
And share our dreams and nightmares,
But she went away this friend and then i met you,
Someone has painted over the windows to your soul,
On the inside so I cant even scratch a hole to see,
I see many shadows and much movement,
Even in my blindness,
But I do not hear and I can not feel,
So do i give up trying?
~The Nameless Wonder~







Too Much To Ask




Its like im in a crowd of a million people,
Only one voice,
Hardly ever being heard,
Yet alone listened to,
No one out there cares,
For if they did,
It would take merely two seconds,
To listen,
Two seconds,
But that is too long to ask,
We are all too busy to listen,
And the lifes it shatters,
Because we are to busy,
It doesnt wsorry anyone,
Untill its too late,
Untill we are gone forever,
And still,
No one begins to listen,
Except the words written on pages,
By a once beautiful,
But now lost sould
~The Nameless Wonder~







One Drink




High-pitched squeling,
Bone-crunching thud,
Twisted metal,
Scattered bodies,
People screaming,
Commotion everywhere,
Blazing shapes,
Roaring fire,
Shattered concrete,
Frosted grass,
Clock strikes,
One two,
Three four,
Four a.m.,
Blurred lights,
Flashing lights,
Cold steel,
Silence interupted,
No more,
People yelling,
Uniformed people,
Ordering others,
Clearing area,
Carrying people,
Engines revving,
Assuring others,
Solid ground,
Hissing cars,
Black clouds,
Passers by,
No-one notices,
Me in the bush,
Off to the left,
Im just about dead,
It all started with,
Just one little drink.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Here with me




My heart would still beat,
If it wasnt already dry,
I would still have a soul,
If i hadnt gave it to lucifer,
In order to protect you,
My heart aches with the pain,
From what i have but cant have,
How deeply i care for you,
I can not explain,
I could never do enough for you,
To show truely how i feel,
On this night and every other,
I am so alone,
So cold inside while i long,
For what i have but dont have,
I need you here with me,
Like a line from a lost love letter,
Sent to the soldiers lover back home,
I need you here with me,
To kiss you,
Just to hold you close to me,
I need you here with me, I long for your gentle touch,
For your soft lips,
I need you here with me,
I want you I need you,
And dare i say it,
I...
~The Nameless Wonder~







Illusions




My illusions never changed,
They are just that,
Just illusions,
Illusions i had,
Long ago,
Of lost dreams,
And forgotten hope,
All faith now drained,
Unlike the illusions,
Of the roaming warrior,
Who still carries with him,
The greatest weapons of all,
His hope,
His faith,
His dreams from long ago,
Still fresh in his mind,
As if renewed everyday,
His illusions will become reality,
Turn into something real,
Of this i am sure,
The look in his eye,
You can see it on his face,
His illusions with the help,
Of his great weapons,
Will become reality,
Whereas mine will stay illusions,
Untill something or someone,
Reignites the flame in me,
And removes the haze,
Infront of me,
When my eyes are no longer glazed over,
My faith hopes and dreams,
Will return,
And i will become,
As the roaming warrior,
Im just waiting...
~The Nameless Wonder~







Boy




As the old man lay there,
His whole body looking,
As light as a feather,
His face worn from the years,
The face that looked impossible,
To shed even one single tear,
He opened his eyes,
And turned ever so slightly,
To face the young man,
Sitting to his right,
Gripping his hand,
In that silent hospital room,
A tear crept down,
The young mans face,
As the old man looked him in the eyes,
He opened his mouth,
Took a breath in,
Interupted the silence and said,
Boy,
With this life comes pain and hurt,
Bad things will happen,
People will come into it,
Just as quickly as others leave,
You have to deal with it all,
For good things will happen,
In time,
Also come Gods greatest creation,
Love,
The old man shut his mouth and eyes,
Turned his head back,
The young man felt the grip on his hand,
Weaken,
Till it was nothing,
The old mans time had some,
He understood this as he rose,
Said goodbye and left the room.
~The Nameless Wonder~







How To Die Tutorial




A slash to the neck,
Blood flowing out,
Staing the wooden floor,
Soaking in permanently,
Dard red on the light pine,
Throwing the body into,
A state of shock,
The noose tied tightly,
To the bridge railing,
Strong thick rope,
Slowly slipped over the head,
Standing like being crucified,
Leaning forward,
Leaving the security of the rail,
The loud crunch,
As the neck snaps,
The rope slides tight,
Securing its grasp,
Around its victims neck,
Stopping the flow of air,
Sufficating,
Sucked under,
Captured on a snag,
Tapped below the waters surface,
Thrashing to stay down,
Resisting the urge to float,
Swallowing water and choaking,
Becoming unconscious,
Loading the bullet,
Clocking the pistol,
Flicking off the safety,
Raising it higher,
Pushing the barrel at your temple,
Pulling back the trigger,
Covering the muffler completely,
With a lenght of pipe,
Other end in the window,
Rolling them up,
Locking the doors,
Starting up the engine,
Playing the waiting game,
Reading the label,
No more than four a day,
Unscrewing the cap,
Breaking the seal,
Emptying all contents into your mouth,
Swallowing difficultly a few times,
Feeling slightly dizzy and out of it,
Inhaling the gas,
Pure,
Extremely lethal,
Feeling great,
Inhaling the rest,
Not so great anymore,
Falling over and passing out,
Taking the syringe,
Filling it with air,
Gathering the courage,
Inserting the syringe painfully,
Into your neck,
Your jugular,
Emptying it into yourself,
Behind the wheel,
Foot on the floor,
Down a long straight,
Coming to a curve on the hillside,
Holding the wheel firmly,
Crashing through the barrier,
Colliding with rocks below,
Placing the knife,
Against your closed eye,
Holding it steady,
Ready to gauge,
Bringing you head backwards,
Then forward hard onto the steel,
Forcing the knife through your eye,
Clambering out the window,
To the edge of the roof,
Looking at the spikes on the fence,
Stories below,
Taking a breath,
Leaping out from safety,
Spikes piercing your body,
Placing the explosive device,
Inside your backpack,
Walking outside,
Dark cloak and hood,
Finding a busy place,
Squeezing the trigger,
Soaking the house,
And yourself in petrol,
Finding the matches,
Striking it softly,
Dropping it,
To the floor,
Watching everything burn,
Turning on the bandsaw,
Widening the gap,
Running through your hands,
Bleeding like never before,
Feeling faint,
Lowering your head,
Forcing it through the blade,
It all ends it.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Perhaps




Now it hurts in the worst way,
Now that you have gone,
I couldnt save you,
I was the one that deserved death,
Are you still here with me,
I dont know,
I just dont know anymore,
The memories are few and far between,
I can not remember now,
The days years ago,
I cant remember the things that happened,
What is wrong with me,
Was any of this real,
Oh Lucifer i hope it was,
Its like i never knew you,
Looking back years ago,
Perhaps i was the one to lie,
Perhaps i was the one to die,
Perhaps you were all in my mind.
~The Nameless Wonder~







What Matters




To not be alone,
But to still feel,
Abandoned by all,
How can i feel like this,
Im loved and i love,
This i know for sure,
But still alone,
I know this aint how it is,
But its how i feel,
And this is what matters,
Do you all feel like this,
I guess not,
For you all are still alive,
So i am,
Though barely,
It would be so easy,
To leave it all,
But i cant,
For if i do i know,
That i am causing,
Someone else to feel,
The way i feel,
I would rather suffer alone,
Than give up,
And force this pain,
Onto someone else
~The Nameless Wonder~







Passing By




This world is passing by
Passing me by
As i lie here
Watching the clouds
The stars, the moon
And the sun
The world is passing by
I realize this
But I have you
So what does it matter
I have you
Thats all I need
All I want
I feel sorry for people
Who dont know
What its like
To have someone
In their life
Like you
Its not one of lifes
Finest pleasures
It is the finest pleasure
Love
Yes love
True love
True love i find in you
~The Nameless Wonder~







I Love You




I love you
You should know that
I still say it
Cause i still love you
And i will continue
To love you
Untill my death
And beyond still
May it be written
Across the stars
I love you
I truely do
I know i cant have you
But thats okay
Just to be your friend
Makes me happy to be here
Happy to be alive
Honestly
I dont know what Id do
Without you
I know thats been said before
By other people
But it sums up
What i mean
Well
Some of it
For you cannot
Truely explain love
But
I want you to know
You are special
To me atleast
You brighten up my day
I love you
I really truely do
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Deal




Im floating
In a mindless state
No thought
No memory
No pain
Im drifting
Away from this world
Away like the tide
On my way out
And not returning
I will not
Be back
Ever
But one thing
Remains with me
It is the thought
The memory
Of the one i love
Still
No pain remains
Only love
Warmth
Still
I will not
Be returning
Im in limbo
On my way out
Im dead
I gave my life
To satan
And in exhange
Saved yours
You will not remember
But
You were dying
You had no chance
Of surviving
So i did
What i thought best
I gave
The rest of my life
Away for yours
And only my love remains
~The Nameless Wonder~







My Other Half




Bit by bit,
Inch by inch,
The other half of me,
Is shedding my outside,
My inside emerging,
My inside,
Something you do not,
Wish to see,
It will disguist you,
Repulse you surely,
All of you,
Except a certain few,
The ones like me,
Your born this way,
Your life is planned,
To be surrounded by,
Death deciet and pure evil,
Many shapes and forms,
We are cursed,
Cursed with this lust,
One you will never understand,
You cant become one of us,
You shouldnt be near us,
We shouldnt be allowed near you,
The things we do,
The people we drink,
The souls we steal,
The hearts we break,
Im warning you now,
Leave while you can,
Or become the victim,
We are helpless,
To leave you painfree,
This will be your only warning,
With us comes evil,
Worse than your nightmares,
Worse than the legends,
Of vampires and warewolves,
Please dont let me do this,
To someone else...
~The Nameless Wonder~







You And Me Forever In Glass (part 1)




Everytime you look,
At anything i gave you,
That ring i gave you,
My heart i gave you,
I hope you think and remember me,
The pain you caused the one,
The one that loved you most,
Remember the pain that shattered me,
Me and my heart,

Everytime you think about me,
I hope you know the way,
Things could have been,
Between you and me,
While i stare at myself,
I see,
You and me forever in glass,
The mirror with the cracked pane,
Like i feel so deeply inside,

Everytime you look into my eyes,
Though i doubt you get the chance,
You or anyone else again,
The thoughts racing through my head,
If only you knew what youve done,
I hope you do,
Does it make you happy now,
That choice you made,
The choice you yourself made,

Everytime you hear my name,
Everytime you think you hear my voice,
Everytime you see even a picture of me,
Everytime you catch the scent of the white rose,
I hope you know how you hurt me,
I hope you know how i loved you,
I hope you know what you threw away,
I hope you know i forgive you no matter what,
Though i can never forgive myself.
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Glass (Part 2)




I can see the wild in your eyes,
Trapped and binded with tamed chains,
Tearing endlessly to be let free,
You cant handle this world,
These people,
They just aint the same as you,
You have to get free,
One way,
Or another,

I can see you squeeze a blade,
The blood dripping from your fist,
Deciding whether to choose a cursed life,
Or hell,
Hell where you find it so comfortable,
Where i find it so comfortable,
Lucifer waits for you on the other side,
As he waits for me,
Hes calling our name,

I can see the steel slice your wrists,
As the chains loosen and fade away to nothing,
Watching the blood drain from your body,
A look of pure extacy floods your face,
I stare at you lifeless in the mirror,
At your departed soul,
For you and I are the same,
Dying in the mirror,
My face in the glass is my last sight here,

I cant see anything anymore,
Except for the never-ending land called hell,
The demons and disturbed souls,
Consuming each other,
I am home where I belong,
I like it here,
The morbid and sadistic minds,
In hell I'm in control,
Nothing can stop me here,
Nothing at all.
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Other Side Of Glass (Part 3)




Wandering the mountains in the depth of hell,
Countless hordes of demons,
The howling of lost souls,
The fierceness of the wind and suns,
This is me,
This is who i am inside,
Forever and always will be,
Nothing can change that
Expecially now im home,

Nothing can touch me here,
Nothing except,
The pain ive been through,
Its still with me,
Ill search,
Like a lost soldier,
Searches for his way home,
For a way to relieve these feelings,
Not knowing if such thing exists,

Looking through the glass sky,
I can still see you,
I can see you now,
I can see the memories that haunt my nights,
Memories of me and you,
On the other side of the glass,
Smiling,
Laughing,
Are you truely happy without me,

I still like it better here,
Away from the mortal world,
This is my home here,
I own it,
Until the day i get banished back to earth,
By only lucifer himself,
Then i must suffer,
The world with you again,
We will meet again somewhere...
~The Nameless Wonder~







Through The Glass (part 4)




As i lay here and think,
Is this really what ive come to,
Oh i know it is,
But is it really what i want,
One things for sure though,
I do not wish to hurt you anymore,
Maybe this is why i have shut myself away,
To protect myself from the pain of knowing,
Knowing what i have actually done to you,

For i know its not your fault at all,
Even if i have implied it was,
It never was,
I can admit that to you,
And i hope you do not forgive me,
For that will almost make certain,
That i will hurt you again,
And that is the one thing in this world,
That i cannot take,

My lifes like one great ball of shit,
But i have only myself to blame,
And always have,
And always will to and past the grave,
Thats just how it is,
And i am sorry to you only,
Not even to myself,
For i know i could change,
But i do not know why i dont,

You and me forever in glass,
That how i wish it was,
The glass,
It lets me see my true self,
The other side of the glass,
Where i know i belong,
To save you but not myself,
I hope that i could save you,
Through the glass i will save you.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Together Forever




Till the death it goes,
Death till we part,
Hell where well meet again,
An everlasting hell i put you in,
I put myself in with you,
We suffer together in silence,
Together forever...
~The Nameless Wonder~







Subconsciencely




The hopes and dreams of just one person,
The things he wishes he could have,
And he could,
If he didnt destroy the chances he has,
He cant help it,
Its just what happens,
Always his fault and always he has the choice,
But he cannot control himself no matter how he tries,
And not only does it hurt others It scars himself,
Such a life must be cursed,
Such a life must be destroyed,
Is destroyed,
Hes better off alone,
On his own,
On my own,
But i cannot resist,
I do not mean to do these things,
I cannot help myself though,
And it tears me deep although no one will see,
No one will believe either,
But i do not blame them as it is after all my fault,
No matter how i try,
I cannot help myself,
And i do not know if anyone can,
I hope someone can.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Be Free




Im never going to be free,
Ill always taste the rain,
Dont cry and i promise i wont,
One day ill have you,
That day ill taste the rain still,
And i shall taste the freedom,
And then may we shed,
Tears of happiness and love,
And love.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Still Insane




Thats me in the corner,
Thats me in the shadows tryna keep myself insane,
My mind is my own,
My own,
And yours if you wish,
I thought that i heard you scream,
I hope its just a dream but no,
Insanity creates reality and consumes my life,
But it is a joyous insane state,
You by my side at last,
Thats us in the shadows,
I know that i saw you cry,
But only tears of happiness and final forfillment,
To be together at last.
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Curse-Gift




If the curse is thus then what are we to do,
Watching the needles pierce the scarred flesh,
Tasting the tainted wine flowing from the veins,
Cutting off the skin of the dolls in this world,
Close your eyes to try and hide the truth,
Forget the things you know that disguist you,
The things that also seduce and tempt me so,
Hanging the memories in a padded cell in my mind,
So i can remember everything while you all look away,
My soul that i have distored so much to my liking,
This insanity that brings me so much extacy,
Oh the fear in my head of being sane,
Razor blade kisses are what i lust for,
Blood thickening the water i drink,
The screaming i enjoy indeed,
When you look at me you dont wish to see so look away,
What ive done pleases me fine but not you,
Leave me then i promise you wont feel a thing,
The rotten flesh from lifes tarnished by society,
Your rotten flesh,
You people that look down on us that do not realize,
That it is us looking down on you,
If the curse is thus then we shall treasure it,
To us this is not a curse more a gift.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Mine




Her blood drew me in,
With its sweet taste,
And the way it ran across her skin,
The things i wanted to do to her,
The things running through my mind,
She was so seductive,
I was shaking just hoping,
I wanted her to be mine,
Under her shirt is where i am,
For on her i have bound her,
The word writen on her back,
It reads,
Mine...
~The Nameless Wonder~







Death Is Only The Begining




A farewell that shouldnt be,
No blood,
No excuses,
Other than what you only know,
What you took to the grave,
It came too early as always,
But you brought him,
Why,
I wish i knew the answer,
You left me here alone,
To suffer,
The only thing i want to do now,
Is be by your side,
Wherever you are,
Im coming this instant,
Im not even contemplating,
Living my life another breath,
Without doing what i can to join you,
The fastest way right now,
Is the stained blade i keep,
Stashed away in my back pocket,
Always there when i need it,
Like now,
Im on the fastlane to you,
The cold steel insures that,
I can almost touch you already,
Death is only the begining for us.
~The Nameless Wonder~







And For You




i dont think i ever believed there was truely another,
another with the lust the same as i,
but as usual i discovered i was wrong,
not only was she like me,
she had power over me,
oh the way she could tease,
i would never known it was true,
untill she teased me,
she showed me i was not alone,
the feeling it gave,
you will never know,
for you never could,
i have been blessed by anothers curse,
or is it a gift,
to me it is,
to her im not sure,
one day i hope she shall tell me,
a gift with such beauty,
a gift with such power and control,
how she does it i do not know,
but again i hope i shall,
she to has a pure but disturbed soul,
i shall hide nothing,
i shall share whats deep in my black and demented soul,
and wish for a solution,
for the miles between to be nothing more than,
than a mere inch,
to share this gift together as one,
we shall drink together forever,
and know that its the others that are cursed,
that are so blind,
can not see how this can be so incredible,
one day it will be.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Too Much Will Kill




Everything that i am and have been,
Flows through my veins,
Within my blood is who i really am,
There is no faking the taste and truth,
You want to know whats truly in my heart,
Then take my blood into yourself,
But beware there is pain in there,
So do not be pulled in to far,
For nobodies strong enough to take my pain,
It will destroy you if you are not careful,
I lie,
There is one out there that can handle it,
I will know who that is after i taste hers,
To you all who are about to drink,
Drink carefully.
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Black Stallion




The black stallion dances,
As the rain drenches his coat,
He enjoys himself more,
The feeling that he is free,
No barriers surround him,
His mind soars like the wind,
His feet take him without looking back,
To be free...
~The Nameless Wonder~







Money Or Love




Look deep inside yourself and ask,
What am i striding towards with my life,
Whatever the answer is is what you want,
Or is it what you think you want,
Is it towards money and an easy life,
Or is it towards love happiness and friends,
Someone to be there when it isnt so easy,
To be able to make you smile by being there,
Hold them dear,
Dispite what you may think,
Money is alot easier to get and alot more worthless,
Than having someone stand beside you,
Or holding you late at night,
Which is more important to you,
Yet what are you trying to have.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Only Without You




I am forced to watch you walk away,
Time and time again,
It tears me into pieces,
I miss you,
Thoughts race through my head continuously,
I can see you taking each step,
I wish life wasnt like this,
If you never had to leave,
Then i would never have to hurt,
All of a sudden you disappear,
Thats when it hits me,
And my heart just fails to beat,
I could almost be pronouced dead,
Only without you by my side,
Only without you.
~The Nameless Wonder~







A Life Turns




A life turns,
With the blossom of the rose,
Turns from a morbid life,
To a life of happiness,
Like the wind blowing through the frail green leaves,
Or the sun beating down upon the deep blue ocean,
A life is so beautiful,
So delicate yet able to withstand anything,
A life turns,
In an instant with one decision,
One thought of mind,
One love,
Thats all it takes to bring someone back,
A life turns,
With the beauty of the white rose.
~The Nameless Wonder~







So Alive




I feel so alive,
The wind blowing through my hair,
Making my clothing flap so wild,
The sun beating down upon me,
I can smell the scent of the river,
And of the white roses growing along the bank,
I can hear the bird singing,
Freedom,
My heart is racing so fast,
I can feel my pulse,
Isnt it ironic,
That i feel so alive in this moment,
This moment as im falling,
From the bridge railing to my death,
So alive yet so close to death.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Why Am I Here




Im not quite sure what makes me keep living,
I could just take the easy way out,
But other than lucifer something is stopping me,
I feel there is something im living for,
Some purpose,
I just can not figure out what,
And its driving me insane,
Its like something or someone,
Is suspending my path of life,
All i want to know is what i am living for,
I spend all my days trying to work it out,
The only thing that makes sense in my mind,
Is that i am living on false hope,
Or maybe its not false,
But hope for you,
But i can not be certain,
To my annoyance i can say,
That i will most likely only know once im gone,
And i shall look back and kick myself,
Maybe with regrets i didnt see it,
Or maybe greatful that i didnt,
Its the unknown that could be keeping me going also,
The not knowing what the next second will bring,
Cause i have already learnt that anything is possible,
You proved that already,
I guess i will wait and see,
Why i am still here.
~The Nameless Wonder~







The Perfect Drug




Removing your clothing,
Chaining you down under lock and key,
With only the light from the moon,
Shining in through the blinds,
Taking these needles,
All 13,
One by one piercing your flesh,
Drinking the blood running across your smooth skin,
I know you like this,
From the look in you eyes and the way you kiss me,
Taking this blade and cutting my neck,
The way i tease you by almost letting you taste,
I can see you begging me for my blood,
Letting it drip onto your lips and watching you lick them,
Sinking my teeth into you chest,
You rise up with painful pleasure that you enjoy so much,
As much as i do,
Dragging the blade down your thigh,
Kissing away the blood trails,
Releasing you from the chains,
You take charge and release you biggest desire,
Your blood lust,
The things you do to me drive me into a state,
A state that no drug could take me,
Only you,
You my perfect drug,
I must have more of you,
And i am sure you could say the same about me,
Lying here covered in our own blood,
I can not remember having a better time,
As the night goes on,
And the blood flows freely,
We have the choice now,
To live together,
Or be together in death.
~The Nameless Wonder~







One Day




If i was yours and your were mine,
How ecstatic i would be,
Now i cant buy you diamonds and such,
But i can give you my heart,
All my love that i still have left,
Its all for you,
If you want to take it of course,
One day i hope that you will,
That day i will look up to god and thank him,
The angels created you perfect,
And to them im greatful,
Your beautiful eyes see straight into my soul,
The way you smile just brings me back from death,
I wish you were here so much,
Lying here by my side in my arms,
One day i hope that you will be.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Ill Hold Onto Faith




All i have is lyrics racing through my head,
I have no hope of getting my thoughts straight,
Mind you i hardly ever do so it aint a change,
Maybe if i could sort out my head,
Then i would know what i should do next,
Since i cant i just follow wherever life takes me,
I take whatever it throws at me,
And im still standing though barely,
But im still standing and that counts for something,
Ive learnt that i cant take the easy way out,
Besides i wouldnt be me if i did,
When i happen to get my head right or if,
Then i might be able to start having a better life,
Or maybe not,
The one way ill know is if i manage to do so,
There will be no doubt then,
I know there are others out there who cant calm their mind,
Although you can never see it by looking,
Its not skin deep,
Its deep down inside where they keep it hidden,
Where i keep it hidden,
I dont even have a clue where i am going with this now,
Thats how much well how little i am certain of,
If someone could come along and help me,
Show me they understand and save me,
Then i will know a miracle has occured,
So ill pray for that miracle and hope someone hears,
Ill hope because thats all i have at this point,
And they say that hope is all you need,
To make it through your toughest battles,
The battles inside that sting you the most,
So ill hope and have faith that there is someone,
Ill have faith,
Faith in you my saviour whoever you may turn out to be.
~The Nameless Wonder~







Freedom




No one can tell us what to do in our lives,
We shall follow what we desire most,
Smash the boundaries set for us,
Set by the norm of this so called society,
Watch us trample the lines that hold us back,
Ring the necks of the people that do not believe,
Do not show their free will,
The sheep that live among us in majority,
Following orders from the polititions,
Nothing can stop us from having our freedom,
Not you or anybody,
You can kill our bodies but thats just physical,
You will never tame our souls,
Our hearts,
These our what lead our march to victory,
Because if you want freedom and are willing to fight,
Then it is certain you will hold freedom at the end,
And that is what matters to us,
Freedom.
~The Nameless Wonder~







For Matt ~R.I.P. Matt~




When I arrived I was taken to see you
Into that dark, dreary shed
I stood there staring, staring at you
Not wanting to believe
But the cold, hard facts were there
No sound, no movement, nothing but silence
Just your body cold and white
No love coming from you
Just a deathly silence
Broken by sobs of heartache
What happened to you on that fateful night?
Only you know
Why did you leave us?
I don't think you realise how much yuou meant
Although our lives will continue
Our hearts will never be mended
All we have are the memories
Memories of the bright, happy young man
We all knew and love.
~Lana Oxnam~







The End




The bird flaps its singed wings
As it tries to flee the carnage.
Smoke threads its way skyward,
While fires take hold,
Growing bigger and bigger.
Explosions are heard,
Amongst the agonising screams
Of dying animals.
Slowly
Death fills the world
With its heavy stench.
Nothing can fight it,
For everything must die.
~Jamie Mountier~







Death




Towards the end of life,
You feel the cold touch,
Like someone reaching out to you,
Asking for you to come,
Come with them
To where they are,
Far, far away
In the land of the dark,
Where your spirit will rest for eternity,
Meeting everyone
Yet knowing no-one.
~Jamie Mountier~







DARKNESS




The dark beast of night
Creeps up unchallenged,
As the racket of life
Slowly dies.
Dark shapes creep
Out of the shadows
Into the darkened world.
Slinking, crawling, clinging,
Sound and light erode.
Inside your head,
You hear them call;
Call out to you.
But there are no angels now;
No shining lights.
Just you and the dark.
~Jamie Mountier~







The Lady




She waits...
In the darkness of your soul.
She waits for you,
For you, and you alone.
You know not her name,
For she bothers not with words.
She makes no sounds,
But she is able to see inside you.
Yet you know her well;
Her smell, the shape of her face.
Haunting, she's in your dreams,
When you see yourself in great glory.
She breathes...
And you sense her wishes.
She moves...
And you scramble to move with her.
And you long...
You long to live among the likes of her,
You long to feel power.
You long, yet nothing comes.
And her name?
Some call her luck;
The lucky few,
Living in their version of heaven.
But most call her fate,
For; because of her,
The masses of the world are condemned...
Condemned to a living hell.
~Jamie Mountier~







The Boy




The boy spends many a lonely night on the steps,
All alone�
No-one to love him,
No-one to be with him.
During the day, the sunlight fades his loneliness�
He eats, he breathes, he dreams,
And he stumbles through the day.
Yet as darkness beckons, he feels alone.
The boy spends yet another lonely night on the steps,
Still all alone�
With no-one to love him�
And no-one to be with him.
During the day, the sunlight makes him dream�
He dreams of love,
Of happiness, of friendship.
But as the day ends, his spirit sags.
And he spends another of the nights on the steps.
Still all alone�
With no-one to love him, to be with him.
And all that he wishes for is a friend.
During the day, a wonderful day, he feels love.
To feel this way�
All his wildest dreams� Real at last.
Oh the joy, it keeps the night bright.
And for once, that night, the step is bare.
No longer alone�
He feels love, has someone with him.
And the boy no longer needs to wish for a friend.
The day, it starts out bright, he whistles while he walks.
But his dreams and wishes are soon shattered and crushed,
As his �friend� turns their back on him.
The day now bleak, as dark as night, he wishes for his steps.
Back again, the boy spends the night on the steps.
Chides himself for foolishness,
For dreaming things could go right.
And he promises himself: he will never love again.
~Jamie Mountier~







The Coolness Of Metal




Your gaze is fixed on me,
Questioning;
I know the answers you seek,
How can I say those words?
You always have had such a strong pull on me,
But now your feelings have changed,
Suddenly.
For better or worse;
It doesn�t matter.
Now you want to know how I feel,
I can�t answer.
But as you close your eyes on a world full of pain,
And slowly press your soft, chilling lips gentaly onto mine;
It becomes clear,
My mind is made up.
~Caitlin My Friend~







Untitled




I slipped, I fell,
Into a dark hole.
I thought I was stuck,
And said goodbye to my soul.
I was stuck in a tortured life,
The people around me didn�t care.
They would just ignore me and walk on by,
Or stop and stare.
But there you were,
My ray of sunshine.
You pulled me from that dark hole,
You were the only one you saw I wasn�t fine.
And for this I thank you,
For being there for me.
My love for you will never die,
You are the bestest friend anyone could ever be.
~Caitlin My Friend~







What A Way To Die




The fire will burn;
The winds sill soar.
The deed is done;
I feel no more.
I thought I Loved you;
I told you so.
But do you care?
The answer is no.
I lie on my bed;
I turn the light out.
Am I dying?
I have no doubt.
Then I think of my friends;
And the family I hold dear.
I am doing this for for a boy;
A boy who doesn't care.
But I can't turn back now;
As I think with a sigh:
Why did I do this?
What a way to die.
~Caitlin My Friend~







The girl in the mirror




There's a girl in the mirror, Why does she stare?
Her blank, depressed eyes,
Fill me with fear.
How does she do it?
Do this to me?
And no one seems to notice,
Why can't they see?
Why does she look so dead?
With the evil glint in her eye
Why does she want to do this?
Why does she want to die?
Why are there scars on her body?
Why does she hold that knife?
Can't anybody save her?
See that she's in strife?
Then I finally understand,
Now I can see.
Only I can save that girl,
For the girl in the mirror is me.
~Caitlin My Friend~







Grip of Death




All my feeling is gone,
I'm simply dead.
There is nothing left to do,
Nothing needs to be said
You were the one who killed me,
But not by a knife or weapon.
When you said you didn�t love me,
My heart died in a second.
But you still don�t care in death,
Like you didn�t in life.
Even after you did this,
Putting me through this strife.
So this is that end,
If you just won�t see.
I�ll do the same to you,
What you did to me.
I�ll rip out your soul
It hurts, no lie.
So get ready for it,
For this is how you will die.
~Caitlin My Friend~







Blame




See the pools of blood,
The face you once held so dear;
The face thats now ghostly pale,
This is too much for you to bear.
As you see me lying here dead,
Tears clouding your gaze;
You wonder why I did it,
You thougth it was just a phase.
But why do you need to wonder?
The answer is pretty clear;
For it was you, my darling 'friend'
The one who made my heart tear.
You said I could always trust you,
And I foolishly agreed;
But the one time I needed you,
You weren't there for me.
So as I lie here,
My death well and true;
I just hope you understand,
I blame this all on you.
~Caitlin My Friend~







A Poem For You




I don't quite know what to write,
I want to write some for you,
Something that will prove,
How much i care and love you so.
Without you I dont know,
What I could do, to even stay alive.
And so everynight I pray,
Nothing will come between us,
Whenever I am near you
You sweep me off my feet.
If you mean to or not,
I dont know or care,
Because for you I'm always here.
~Allannah~