28th September (Sun), sun

Its been so long since i last came here. So long since i last indulged in some virtual escapism. SIGH. Life is getting more hectic now. FYP, modules, work and studies is now eating into me. Really miss the good old days of supper @ Fong Seng and the TV serial craze era. Its now the "nerdy" Michelle prowling around school, sometimes in her skirt if her mood is better that day. Ha!

These days, i have grown very emotionally attached to a new found group of friends. I can say this is one group that made me smile after Fornax. This group of friends make me feel part of a group again, and i really miss this feeling. Seemed to have lost touch with this communal concept ages ago. I start to open up to people again. Slowly, but surely. Just like the good old days. I will do everything with them. Lunches, dinners, even studying @ the library together. Jialat... can feel their influence on me brewing stronger by the day. I am starting to be very emotionally dependent on them. Oh no... this is definitely not good lor... Will they be yet another group in my phase of life? A phase that is too good to be true? A phase that will fleet pass soon enough?

I hate to think of the time when our comradeship will end. It is difficult to start all over again... it is.

Saw him today at depac. He brought his brother there to replace a temporary crown that had fallen off. Er... ok.... then out of the blue, he showed me his new, yes, NEW handphone, and the candid snapshot he had taken of me seconds ago while i was busy talking to a patient over the phone. Er... ok... amusing why anyone would take such a DUH picture and even store it in his phone. But... well... He looks different now. Different from the last time i last him abt 3 weeks ago @ the sushi bar. He is sporting a little goatie now! ahhaha!!! and somehow he looks a little thinner now. More rugged is the key word. Tell u all a secret, *HEE HEE* i actually think he looks cuter and more manly now!!! Hahhaha!!! Like what my friends all say, I am not getting any younger liao... time to experience a relationship. Alamak... is this the mating season or what!??!!? Suddenly hear of so many people getting attached and lovey dovey, and poor me, still single and available. SIGH... Where is my Andy Lau?? My Prince Charming?? OOps... there i go again. *shrugs*

Got so inspired by the show "Love on a Diet" that i am more determined to change myself now. No no... no diet for me (for now), more exercise definitely though... more demure, less/no vulgarity, better dress sense, more womanly generally, less heaty foods so the pimples can clear up, more water, more fruits and vegetables, more nono.. less TV and VCDS, and better attitude. Yupp. Lesser/no more procrastination. Just do it. (",)

Cheers for a new Michelle. ("p)

4th September (Thurs), sun

Very "nua" mood. Dun feel like doing anything. Dun feel like thinking too. SIAN.