30th October (Thurs), sun

The second night or rather morning i am still awake @ 240am.

I can't get to sleep. And its not the coffee. -_-"

27th October (Mon), sun

Geez... Really surprised to find myself back in this virtual escapade tonight. Considering the fact that exams are nearing and deadlines are coming... SIGH... I should be studying now... yeah... should be... Bleah

Feel very bottled up. Like gas in a shaken bottle waiting to explode. But practicality and reality will never fail to remind me to keep my cool. Let it all out now will only cause hurt to myself and others. Yeah. I rest my case. For now at least.

I wish him all the best. -_-

26th October (Sun), sun

Just came back from a drink with some good friends @ Suntec.
Life can be such a contradiction sometimes. We feel happy, but we dun laugh. We feel sad, but we smile. Why?!?! People do it for different reasons. For me, i do it to protect myself. To hide my vulnerability to others. For most, its an act of self defence. A desperate attempt to hide the soft weak side of ourselves.
How long has it been since we last felt the flutter of first love? The type that makes one go weak in the knees whenever the special someone passes by, the type that makes one go breathless when the special one casts a smile at you. I hate to say it, but maybe its true. Yeah... u heard it... its true. It all depends on how well one conceals it. Some do it so well others dun even know a thing. Some even managed to convince themselves to think otherwise. Cheem seah... ("<)

There it goes, up in the sky
There it goes, beyond the clouds
For no reason why,
I can't cry hard enough...
No, i can't cry hard enough.. for you to hear me now...

14th October (Tues), rain

Writing this entry now as i am waiting for my SCC2303 tutorial. Yupp, this is the module that is supposed to help me design webpages and stuff. Bleah... I set my own pace.
Been a long time since i last updated. Yupp. even too lazy to update the monthly format... just lump the Sept and Oct issues together and that's it. Really sian. One more month to exams. And i am still trying to understand what is going on in lectures. Better still, my FYP is in a standstill, cos i have no time, no mood and no motivation to do it.
Today marks the first year anniversary of my driving license! No more P plate! (not that i have used it before), and i can rent car w/o anyone's help liao! Yohoo!!!!!

Anyway i can earn immediate $3k and subsequently $600 a mth? Hmm.... gotta work out my expenses and budget... Targetting a Nissan Sunny now... Hiak hiak!