Sheet... wanted to go Pulau Ubin today but din manage to wake up early enough.. hahahaa... lazy pig i know... then wanted to go out jalan jalan cos this will my last free Sat for the next month to come as i will be working from 2-9pm every sat at the dental clinic from next week onwards!?!?! But, i dunno where to go leh.... Singapore seems to be quite a tiny boring island after the exams... ha

So here i am, stuck in my room with the my notebook and the looping mp3 "If We Hold On Together".

I'm sure some of us have experienced this before. You start to admire this guy/girl you know and one day when u "share" secrets with your friends, you realise that hey, your good friend likes that guy you admire! So drama hor... so what do you do? On a chat with my best friend one day, we actually got to this topic.. haha... and our conclusion was, we will forgo the guy. haha! surprised? Girls are all very sensitive creatures (if u all haven realise it by now). Funnily enough, we tend to put others before ourselves. Yupp, that's the stuff mothers are made of. We will listen to the friend talk and oogle all about the guy and you can even give some suggestions and analysis on the situation. Haha... but who realise that we are actually not feeling very good inside? Dun worry, this is all part and parcel of life. Its these little little nitty gritty experiences that make us grow... just give yourself some time and time will heal all wounds. Who said scars can't heal? There's even a plaster on he market now that minimizes physical scars to a minimum, so what more emotional ones? Just give yourself some time to forget and a few months down the road, you will be able to look back and say, Hey!!! That was quite stupid! Hahaha... luckily i din tell anyone that i liked him....

i sound quite pro hor... bo pian lah.. i am just but an ordinary girl who have emotions too. And what better way is there than to express it here? Of course, i dun expect friends to ask me about what i write here. I respect my friends' privacy and i hope that understanding can be reciprocated. =)

So many people may think, if i dun want anybody to talk or ask, why write it here? Well, cos this place is the place where i hope i can be truthful to myself. My place where i write down what i want to and what i can without implicating others. So...

Well, if anyone has anything to share or needs some advice (from a novice hahaha) or just simply a listening ear, feel free to share it with us here. I know how hard it is to keep things to yrself too. (",)

Still waiting for the reply for my HK OIA. Hope i dun end up doing IA at Boon Lay in the end... sighz...

Did this test today from a friend's friend's website. Haha... for the bored...

Woke up today at 1230pm hoping to watch the repeat telecast of "Dun worry be happy" on channel 8, but so sheety.. today dun have, was showing the repeat telecast of "City Beat" instead. Sian by half already. Then I was in an experiment mood  I decided to re dye my hair! Yup! i went to the pharmacy and bought this XXX brand "Bronze Shimmer' colour. You know its those type of packaging where the models very chio with their hair colour so i was very tempted lah. hahaha... and... after a big mess in the bathroom for 0.5 hr,  my hair colour instead of the chio chio multi faceted shimmering colour promised, my hair turned even blacker than my original! My hair used to have very nice shiny reddish copperish brown tapering to the end from my last treatment at the salon about a year ago, and now, its all gone! argh!!! my ma and pa was like luffing and luffing! sheet! i spent $16.50 to get my hair dyed black again?!?!

moral of the story: go salon and dye your hair! the money spent is well worth it. ("[ )

still got work tonight at the clinic... me machiam becoming nocturnal animal liao. Wake up in the afternoon then go work at night then surf the net till wee hours of the morning. Haha

Btw, anyone interested to go bash next wed at zouk? $15 for 2 drinks! steady!  interested people pls email me k?

Think i'll go back to sleep now.. all the tv programs so boring.... ZzzzZzz

I finally stepped down. No more Engin Club, no more FOP. Maybe no one will believe that i actually regret this decision. I mean, this is supposed to be a good chance for me to catch up on my long lost grades and get the min. 2nd lower honors i desperately needed. But, no. I felt more lost than happy. Hey, maybe i am a born die hard workaholic. Hahahaa... maybe?

I attended Appreciation Dinner again. My third and final one. Funnily, the tears all seemed to have really dried up. I couldn't cry anymore. My mind was just a pure complete blank. I dunno how i should think and feel  anymore. Machiam like a walking zombie.. oops... so morbid... later heard from the rest that i made a complete fool of myself when i got drunk at Mambo No 5. Whatever...i just remember crying like nobody's business and feeling much much better the next day. Finally learnt what drowning away your sorrows meant.

Well, guess its all too late for regrets already. Life must move on.

I finally managed to pass my driving practical exam on my second attempt on 14th Oct 2002. Hahahaha... that slip of paper cost me close to $1k in total k... alamak... and the best thing is i got no car to drive!!! What the...!!!

Well, these are the more significant things i can recall as of now. Maybe its a good thing i can't remember the rest.

Still waiting for reply for my HK OIA now. Really long for this 'long vacation' in my life. Take a break from all the normal routine, do something different, have some new experiences.

Btw, for those curious souls, i am over him.