26th February (Wed), sun

I went back to work today, all prepared to hear the music. But i had to encounter what i call unfair treatment. The only reason why i am still tolerating this is becos i still treat her like a friend. But i guess that won't be for long if it continues.

Think i am getting petty. Or maybe the situation is as serious and unbearable as it seems.

Apologized to him for something i supposedly did wrong a year ago. Guess my temper is pretty bad then. Actually i think it still is. I really gotta go for anger management classes soon liao... sigh...

24th February (Mon), sun

1355pm: I am now typing this entry in the clubroom.

Yah yah... i skipped work today... had to go to school today for the councillor session today and tomorrow. Rather last minute notification i agree, but... oo well... I have a '4 year' bond with Engin Club, so... actually i think its more than 4 years, but... hahahhaaa...

The bash on Sat was great great great! Its not as crowded as "Innocence" the last time, but the music and the company was still wonderful. Enjoyed myself thoroughly. ("p)

Miao Shou Ren Xin ending soon... tomorrow's the last episode in fact. But never mind, Channel U will be airing another Wu Qi Hua show right after this drama! Hahaha! I love Channel U!

Supposed to watch a movie with them tomorrow. Well, see first bah. I dun want to end up a mega watt light bulb.

23rd February (Sun), sun

Took leave today. Think this must be one of the few few Sundays i dun have to work... Went out with my friends in the end, machiam like walk around aimlessly at Orchard, look see look see and spent some money... Oops... quite 'interesting' huh.

Ysterday was the last Sat that cute dentist is gonna be attached to the clinic. Haha... he will be leaving for course soon and another doctor will be replacing his shift thus. Hope the subsequent Sats will be interesting... ("/)

20th February (Thurs), sun

One of the rare weekdays when i am home for dinner. Nothing. Just felt that i wanted to go home to a little love after a hard day's work that's all.

Its nice to watch some tv occasionally too... just found out about a show on Starhub preview channel every night at 10pm... well... i shan't say the title here, but... its not too bad a show after all.... oops.. hee....

Was surfing the web this morning and saw this webpage. It really touched me to see that there are such nice people around this seemingly mercenary world after all. People who care to give a little love to others. Even to animals. Yah.. they are a team of friends who work to help the stray animals we see on the streets find homes.... Great to see comrades working together for a common good cause... I salute you...  Really wish my mum would allow me to foster a dog home...

Been so long since i updated this diary... i also dunno what to write liao... so awkward....

Engin Bash this sat... some of my friends dun seem interested in going anymore... sigh...

11th February (Tues), sun

Just came back from Suntec with my friends. He needed to get a gift for his niece... hee... what a good uncle hor.. i dun remember buying any presents for my nieces and nephews before.. and i sometimes doubt that i know their names too... er...

Well, the thing is, i am confused. There are so many questions swirling around, but i dunno who i can turn to for the answer. Geez... what an irony.  ("<)

9th February (Sun), sun

I dun feel too good today. Think its another wave of depression. Maybe its all the little things that is always there but din find a chance to manifest itself? Well, i had the chance today. You know, Its always disappointing to know how u have fallen back on others' expectations, or more of the time, how others have fallen back on your expectations. You put in the best, put on a brave front, give a smile and positive outlook to life, but sometimes, just sometimes, kindness dun beget kindness. How would you feel if u have invested time and passion into doing something to realise in the end that people aren't happy, or you are not getting recognition or what we say, not reaping what you sow? Sometimes, all you need is not monetary rewards, not dinner treats, not physical returns. All you need is a good pat in the back, or a thank you that was said with the person looking at you with sincerity. I was pretty naive last time. Actually i think i still am. I am the sort who emphasizes on emotional/spiritual achievement more than physical rewards. True, the complaints will come. Definitely. But at the end of it, you let me choose again, i will choose my exact same path.

These thoughts had been hovering around me since the night of the  first day of lunar New Year. To make matters worse, i felt that i had been attacked, again, by my dental workplace. I am someone who emphasizes on equality. I hate unfairness. And i am a victim of it now.

I feel like a resentful, spiteful brat now. All i need now is a victim to call me and receive a lashing of  my bitterness.

Thanks for all the cool experiences LIFE.

4th February (Tues), shine

Happy New Year!

Yoz! I am so so excited today! Guess what? my dentist ( i shan't name who here.. hee) actually let me drive his car all the way from Boon Lay back to my home in AMK!! It was his new, automatic car and he actually offered to let me drive it?!?! Oh my god! I was so stunned! To repay his gratitude, i helped him save fuel by going 120 km/h on the expressway. Ha!!

Think this is his substitute for an ang pao... but, i seriously dun mind lor! ("p)

Went to my friend's place for a New Year gathering yesterday. Woah.. her condo is nice! And well, i managed to maintain my reputation of being the gambling queen... again! Ha! Thank you thank you! But in the end we spent more time watching tv instead lah... so i din get a chance later to lose my money... hee)

(Total gambling profits to date: $42.30)

(Total gambling profits left to date: $5.20)

We then went for a seafood dinner followed by a karaoke session. It was great! Er.. think, no, i did sound funny last night... not my usual standard.. er... quite malu ah... paiseh paiseh...oops...

This New Year hols had been one of the most fruitful one i had. (">)

I had so many first times this year!

1. I watched my first RA movie "Golden Chicken"! Its a good show that reflects on HK economy and social problems.

2. I spent my first Lunar New Year night at a pub.

This looks like a great year ahead. ("p)