30th December (Tues), rain

Ever felt crying but the tears dun come? The feeling came back last night. What an irony. So many things on my mind, but i just can't brush it off. Duno what the XXXX i am doing tormenting myself again. Especially after promises and more promises to treat myself better, i spent the night tossing and turning with a splitting headache. And the best thing? He doesn't and will never know or appreciate it.

Its two more days to the new year. A new start, a new beginning. He told me next year will definitely be a better year. Hopefully. It is really time to move on i guess.

3rd December (Wed), sun

For those curious souls who is wondering what happened to my phone, I finally got an ah-beng to repair it and modify it to a 8850. Ha!

Its December, the month of caring and sharing, a season of love and hope... a month of work and fat fat pay cheques. ("p)

1st December (Mon), sun

My trusty 8250 is spoilt. I cannot hear the caller on the other end. Till i have the money to buy a new phone/my beloved Telco sends me a upgrade offer FOC/strike lottery, think i will ask my friend for a spare phone to tide me over this period. Sigh -_-"

Even till today, three days after the incident, I can still feel the ominous feeling of lostlessness inside me.

Believe it or not, think it does mean much to me.