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| Poems |
| Mirror Mirrored in my eyes I see you-and us. I have only memories Left behind a cloud Of dusty smoke And endurance and tears. I embrace the thought Of having you back But the dream comes to an abrupt end When the remeberance of reality Rips through my being. I don't know if I can go on Living my life wondering What it would be like to hold you, Or if I would even care. My soul is tired And my mind cannot sleep Because even in it's dreams It is thinking of you. Love can go on like that forever, you know. Even though I try not to love you My heart yearns for you My soul begs for you, My mind thinks of nothing else but your soul. To say I feel nothing Would be to fool myself. You make me feel alive- The day I awake and Find myself not in love with you Will be the day that will never come. I cannot not love you. It is impossible. Everything about you Makes me want to be with you. Through the mirrors of my eyes I see who I could make my life around. I wave my arms Trying to clear The dusty cloud you lost me in But fear that I'll never find my way Through your love. It has entranced me And left me here Thinking of only you. I know you're not everything But, oh, how you're everything! I cannot do anything But sit here in wonder Thinking of how incredible you are. All of beauty put together Could not amount to How beautiful you are to me. I adore you In every sense of the word. And I worship your very existance. Mirrored in my eyes I see love So pure and so true That I cannot describe it. |
| Late Night Lights strung To my ceiling Little tendrils, Peices of you. Falling in rivulets Dancing in shadows Talking to strangers Understood Not heard. My masterpeice Falling stars and angels Decisions burning Follow Your heart or head? It is all New to me Stay with me Fall under the table Start dreaming Over you. |
| Our clothes Sit in separate respective baskets Only leaving The indication That you were once here. But implying nothing more Nothing more Than you and I Our past in a frenzy Our future forgotten. And where do we stand now? No where more Than here. Our relationship as unorganized As my sock drawer. To ask of anything more from you Would be too much. You've given me plenty: emptiness, lonliness, hurt. The sun will continue shining And life will go on Despite the desolateness That hangs over our heads Like a dense fog in the night air. The memories will choke me And make the blood stop in my veins But what I will Ultimatley take from it all Is the knowledge Never to do it again. |
| Requiem And so is the death Of my love for you. Ended by one quick blow To my heart. My love, loved you It was undying Ever present, all eternal Or so I thought. How it was true to you; It watched you in wonder And yearned to be you In every way. Pray for my love That it learns to love again. |
| He called me heartless and cold In every sence of the word. Understanding how that was possible Abruptly blows my mind Since I don't understand How he can be so hypocritical. Besides shutting me out completely There is a world of hurt he caused me That needs to be repremanded. He says everything to me Like I caused his being to be ruined, When he's the one who ruined himself. I was his world For years in his life. Yet the only thing he can do Is hate me Because he love me so. |
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| And then I just realized: You want me. |