jesspoems

Bitter

You never called
When I wanted you to,
Or had that kind of grace.
I never loved you,
But I guess I couldn't
When you treated me
With the signifigance
Of someone who doesn't give a damn.
Yes, I'm bitter-
Cold to the fact that I wasted
Two years of my life trying to force myself
To love you
While you just had me hanging there,
Telling me something other than the truth.
You were never irresistable;
I could have went forever
Without touching you.
I hated to kiss you,
And I never felt anything
When you tried to touch my heart.
Actually, you never did touch my heart,
You just sat there
And expected me to give you all
When I told you to wait for me.
Yes, I hate you,
It's taken two years for me to admit it.
But I hate you with a passion
And never wanted to be with you.
Can't you see that you were nothing to me?
And that I don't need you
In my life.
You never respected me,
And to tell you the truth
I never gave a damn about you.
Goodbye.

Attraction

Yes, I am attracted to you
Very much so,
And in every sense of the word.
You look at me, with those blue eyes,
You charm me in every way.
You seduce me in only a way a woman can be
And I feel almost it is impossible
To not fall in love with you.
I feel myself
Looking at you more
And wanting to see your smile.
I find myself wanting to hear you talk,
I want to look at your hands,
I want to talk to you for hours,
Yet I cannot describe what I'm feeling for you.
Do not make me do this,
Do not make me choose,
And don't make me fall in love with you.
You do this thing with your eyes,
You have this special way of looking at me
Like I'm supposed to be here.
I haven't felt you yet,
So I'm not sure what I need.
And I will keep myself
That measured distance away from you
So that I dont fall into... you.

Between the pages,
I flip and see
You and me
Walking with our fingertips
Until they bleed.
I turn around
And look for something;
Where I went wrong,
But all I see
Is "should haves,
Would haves,
Could haves,
And maybes."

On the Kitchen Table

I remeber that night,
It was a while ago...
You grabbed me, around my waist
And told me I was perfect.
My hands were trembling,
But at those words
I would have done anything for you.
My heart pounded incredibly
As you lead me to the room.
Me, so young and neive, so gullible,
So convinced you loved me.
That night, you changed my life;
That night our silk and denim
Dropped to the floor,
As I tryed to prove how much
I loved you.
In ten minutes, you let me know
Just why you were with me,
Even though I wasn't sure
Just why I gave in.
You left my house
As I went to bed crying,
Ashamed with myself
....never to hear from you again.