I went out for a run this morning, before sunrise, and ended up
at this old park I used to play in as a kid. It was incredible,
lying there, watching the sun rise, it felt like I was the only
person in the world. I wish that I could describe to you what it
was truly like, so that you could see it for yourself, like you
show things to me, in your letters, but I'm not that good with
words. Maybe one day.
One thing I was thinking about, remember that time down on
the beach, when you were talking about how everything in life
goes in circles? Well, the strangest thing happened yesterday.
This guy that my old man used to work for rang and offered me
a job. Completely out of the blue. I'm wondering if Mother had
anything to do with it, the way she looks at me sometimes, I
know I'm worrying her, but I need some time alone to figure out
some stuff. I hope you can understand too, if I'm distant
sometimes. Anyway, I turned him down, of course. The job was
clearly some kind of charity offer, made because my father died
working for him.
I know that I'm kinda messed up at the moment, but I will get
a job, soon, and I'll get it on my own merits, not because of some
rich guys ideas of duty and charity.
I'll write you soon, going out for a run, try to clear my head a
little...
