Well, as usual, I waited to hear from you. But, I imagine life on Angel Island
and at the Luna Foundation must be strange so I picked up the gauntlet and decided
to write you (for a change!). Besides, I worry about you!
I'm doing good and, if I know you, you're smiling right now as you read this
part. You're thinking - "told you so, Lizzie... you'd make a Helluva teacher." Okay,
so you were right! It's true, Nick - I'm happy. I really am! I love teaching - just as
much as you thought I would. The kids can be difficult at times and I am still
learning, but I'll get there. They don't pay teachers a whole lot (and student
teachers make even less!), but this was never about money. It's about making
dreams come true. You just wait and see! Things are working out just liked I
always hoped they would. Well, most things anyway.
Which brings me to you. Smooth segue, huh?! You've been on my mind
lately - almost as much as you're in my heart. Last I heard, you were headed to
Angel Island with that friend of your father's - Derek Rayne. And, I know you - the
tone of your letter was "iffy". You didn't want to go there but felt forced into the
situation. Do you still feel that way?
I guess what I really want to know, Nick, is are you making it work for you?
You mentioned in your letter to me on Feb. 8 that you "felt messed up but would be
getting a job sometime soon". Is this what you meant?? You said you didn't want
to accept "charity" from this Dr. Rayne, but what about the work you're doing
now?! Nick, I know you. You can do anything if you put your mind to it.
But I just have to wonder. It was obvious that this guy makes you tense. So,
what is it about him you don't trust? And how did I pick up on that one, Mr.
Boyle?! Easy - several years of "on-again, off-again" dating will do it every time!
Seriously, the most important to me is to know that you're okay! That you're
making friends or beginning to, at least. That you're getting a handle on your life
and ready to move forward - wherever that might be! You have to find a way to get
past the awful stuff in your life, Nick. I always hoped and dreamed that I'd be the
person to help you past it, but we've both known for a long time now, that it's just
not meant to be. Still friends though - right? The best!!
So, with a heavy heart, I have to ask you this - do you trust this Dr. Derek
Rayne?? I have to wonder if you do; and if you should! We're friends, Nick. We
always were and we always will be. God knows you've been there for me and
maybe - just maybe - this time, I can be there for you. If you need a place to stay
(when all this is over and the dust settles), you can always stay with me. The place
is small but there's room on the floor. Shoot. I'll even share the bed! Wouldn't be
the first time and a girl can dream that it wouldn't be the last!! Take care and write
when you can. I worry about you when I don't hear!
Love always,
PS I hope I'm not opening a can of worms here, but I have to have my say. I
was standing in line at the supermarket the other day and picked up one of
the rag magazines to flip through. And no, Nick, I didn't buy it! Anyway, I
saw one of the gossip column articles that Tracy Tremont writes for the
National Inquisitor. It mentioned "Dr. Derek Rayne" of the Luna Foundation
- by name! - hitting the high life withh some woman in Las Vegas not too long
ago!
