As Blair followed Megan into the victim’s room an odd thought
struck him. The room was so dark, dreary and just depressing.
Didn’t the hospital think about things like this? This couldn’t help
the poor man. Blair was going to open the damn blinds first thing
so the man could see that there was actually sun shining out there.
It happened so seldom that Blair felt they shouldn’t pass it up. What
would a normal man do when attacked by some psycho? Who knew?
Nevertheless, Blair felt like he should help this man out a little bit.
Maybe he could find out if the man had ever been with another man before.
No, that was none of his business. Get a grip Sandburg;
you can’t make everyone’s life better. You can’t even take care of your
own. Blair sighed as he stepped closer to the bed.
“Mr. Chase,” Megan said, “I’m Inspector Conner, of the Cascade PD, and
this is my partner, Detective Blair Sandburg.”
When the man heard Blair’s name he turned over, stared with dead eyes
at Blair, and asked, “Sandburg, is that really you?”
“Spense? You need to talk to me. We need to find out who
did this to you and why.” Blair said, trying to remain calm when he realized
that this was a friend of his.
“Sandy, you know this man? Would you prefer I pull Jim in on this?”
Megan asked.
“Spense, are you all right with me being on the case?” Blair asked his
friend.
“I don’t want anyone else, Blair. I’d like if you stayed on.”
“All right... but you have to know that we’re going to be asking some
tough questions. Are you up to it?” Blair asked.
“Yeah, let's get this over with.” Spenser said in defeat.
“Mr. Chase, were you able to see the rapist’s face?” Megan asked.
“No, he had a mask on and he used one of those voice contraptions that
changes the sound of your voice.”
“Spense, you need to close your eyes and think back and see if you remember
anything about him you would recognize. Was there anything familiar about
him at all?” Blair asked.
“Yeah, there was something about him. While he was raping me he
kept saying, “You're finally mine,” like he had been wanting me for some
time.” Spenser said quietly.
“Mr. Chase, you believe it was someone you know? Do you think
you could give us a description, as in height, weight, scars and that type
of thing?” Megan asked hopefully.
“I believe that it was someone I know. Why else would they have
disguised their voice? If it were someone I didn’t know they wouldn’t
have needed it, right? Did that rapist use it on his other victim’s?”
Spense asked trying to stay calm, but not really doing a very good job of
it.
“Blair looked at some of the notes that Megan had made and said, “Spense,
you’re right. If it’s the same man he never used anything to change
his voice with any of the others. We might be on to something.
It might be someone you know. Is there anyone that has made his feelings
known towards you in the last six months or so?” Blair asked.
“A teacher from one of my classes came on to me, Blair. It can’t
be him. He might be an odd guy but I can’t see him raping all of those
women to get to me.” Spense said with his head hanging down. Spenser
really felt like his life would never be the same. As if things weren’t
bad enough, someone he knows has to be the one investigating the rape.
Spense turned away from them and curled into a ball.
“Conner, could I see Spenser alone please?” Blair asked.
“Sure, I’ll be outside.” Megan said and then she whispered, “get that
name of the teacher for us to check out, Sandy.”
“I’ll be out in a few minutes.” Blair said. He then walked closer
to the bed and said, “Spense, you can talk to me now. We’re alone.
Nothing will ever leave this room.”
"Jesus, Blair, I can’t believe this. I wanted to be with a man,
you know that, just not this way. I should have made up my mind sooner, I
guess.”
“Spense, who have you been thinking about being with? I need to take
all things into consideration.” Blair said taking hold of Spenser’s hand
and holding on to him to let Spense know he was there.
“Do you remember, Shel, from your class? Well, he’s the one I’ve
been interested in. I couldn’t get up the nerve to do anything about
it. He kept asking me out but I told him I needed more time. I was scared,
Blair. I was scared.”
“I know, calm down. I don’t blame you. The first time's
hard enough without someone putting pressure on you. You’ll still have
that chance of a first time, Spense. This wasn’t your fist time.
This was taken from you, not given. There's a big difference. Don’t
worry about Sheldon. I’ll talk to him and see what’s going on with
him. He doesn’t need to know anything about what happened.”
Tears started rolling down Spenser’s face and Blair said, “Do you want
me to hold you? I don’t want to do anything that will make you uncomfortable.”
“Yeah, I’d like you to hold me.” Spenser whispered.
“Megan pushed the door open about an hour later and saw Blair holding
Spenser in his arms and rocking him while Spenser cried his heart out. Megan
was so proud of her partner that very moment she about burst. Sandy's
one of the best people I know. He deserves nothing but happiness from
life and Jim. She walked back out to the hallway and sat down
on the chair that was there and waited patiently for her partner.
Once Spenser had calmed down a little Blair asked, “Spense, I hate to
ask you, but do you think you hurt this person at all. Did you try and
fight?”
“Yeah, I had blood all over my hands from the scratches and bruises
I put on his neck and face. I went right through the mask.”
“Spense, I need to go and see if they took the proper scrapings when
you were down in ER. I’ll be back up to see you tonight. You hang in
there. Oh, let me call my friend who deals in rape crisis and he’ll
come over to talk to you. Would you be okay with that?”
“Yeah, Blair, I would. Thank you for coming up. I’d like
to have you come and see me tonight. I can’t close my eyes at night
because I’m too afraid. Do you think I could sleep for a few hours tonight
with you here?”
“Yeah, I’ll bring my partner up for you to meet. You’ll like him.
His name's Jim.”
“I thought Inspector Conner was your partner.” Spense said surprised.
“Well, she is today, but my usual partner's Jim Ellison. He’s
great. You’ll like him. We're together in all things if you catch
my drift.” Blair said smiling.
“No shit? That’s great. I’m happy for you, Blair.
At least you did something before someone else made the decision for you.”
Spenser said sadly.
“Spense, I have to go now. I’ll see you tonight. Try to rest and
if anyone upsets you, ring for the nurse. You don’t have to put up
with it.” Blair said as he squeezed Spenser’s arm with warmth and caring.
As Blair walked out into the hallway, he smiled at Conner and said,
“Come on, Partner, we need to see if they took scrapings from underneath
his finger nails. He said he drew blood on the man's neck and face.
If we happen across our guy, he’ll be easy to spot. We have two possibilities.
Let's get busy and take care of this case. It makes me sick.
Conner, I think this guy raped seven women to cover this one up.”
“Sandy, do you really think that? That's past weird, I mean... why?”
“Maybe someone that didn’t want to be found out. Someone that
was trying to hide his homosexuality. Maybe someone that's neither
of the two men that Spense mentioned.” Blair said, concentrating on it as
they walked down to ER.
Once down there they checked the logs and found out that all things
were done according to regulations. They had the scrapings.
Now they just needed to find their man. Blair turned to Megan and said,
“I’m going back up to ask him one more question before we go. Come on.”
The two detectives walked back to the room and knocked. Spense
told them to come in. When they walked in, Spenser tried to smile,
but it didn’t quite reach his cold, dead eyes. “Forget something, Blair?”
“I know that this is really hard, Spense, but I need to find this guy.
Can you think of anyone at the University that you wondered about in the
last six months or so? Did you ever look at any of these men and think,
I wonder if they’re gay.”
“Why? What does that have to do with anything? I might have
thought that about three different men over the last six months.” Spenser
answered.
“I need their names, Spense. I won’t hurt you or anyone else in
the process. I promise.” Blair said as he pulled out his notebook.
Spenser gave him the three names of men that he’d thought about and
Blair wrote them down and said, “Okay, I’m going to get on this right away,
Spense. I’ll see you later on tonight. Take care.”
“Bye, Blair. Good luck.” Spense said as he rolled back over to
his curled up position again.
When he got out to the hall, Megan said, “Jim's going to meet us at
the University. I thought it might help if we had another person on
this. He might hear something that isn’t meant for our ears.”
“Good thinking, Conner. Did you call Mel and tell her lunch was
off?” Blair asked.
“Shit. I’ll do it now.” Conner said as she dialed the cell phone of
her love. When Mel picked it up she said, “Murdock.”
“Hi, Mel, it’s me.” Megan said.
“Hey, Sugar, how're you doing this fine day?” Mel said smiling broadly.
“I have to cancel lunch, babe. Blair and I are on to something
that might be a good lead. So, we’ll have a rain check, all right?”
“Sure, you go and get your job done and I’ll see you tonight.
Maybe we should plan on dinner with them tonight, you think?” Mel asked.
“I’ll ask, but let's not plan on anything yet, Mel. Let’s see
how this case pans out.” Megan said
“See ya later, sweet stuff.” Mel said hanging up her phone. Megan
found herself smiling like an idiot. The idea of being so much in love
with this woman was just weird. Megan had never really thought about
women while she was younger but as she got older, the thoughts were there,
she just needed to act on them.
“Sandy, Mel would like to have you and Jim meet us for dinner tonight
if we get this taken care of by then.” Megan said as they started driving
out of the hospital's parking lot.
“Well, I’d have to see what’s up with Jim but I don’t see why it would
be a big problem.” Blair said, smiling at the goofy grin on Megan’s face.
Once they got to the University, they saw Jim’s truck and walked over
to it. Jim was down on the ground tying his shoelaces so they hadn’t
seen him right off. “I was wondering when you were going to get here.”
Jim said standing up with a huge smile on his face.
There was no one around so Blair touched Jim’s hand to let him know
that he was thinking of him. Jim held his hand for a few moments before
letting go. Jim loved the feel of Blair’s skin against his. Blair
had skin like nothing Jim could even describe. It was so soft and
gentle. Jim had to shake his head to get the thoughts out of his head because
he was beginning to get hard. Not something you want to do while questioning
a rape suspect.
Blair handed Jim the notebook and said, “These are the names of the
guys we need to check out. We want you to listen and see if you notice
anything out of the ordinary. We need to find this fucker soon.”
“Amen, guys. Let's get this show on the road.” Megan said walking
up the stairs to the main building. Once inside they found out where
each of these men were and started for the first one, the teacher.
His name was Royce Masterson. They walked down the hallway and knocked
on the door where he was supposed to be. He opened the door and said
to Jim, “Can I help you?”
“Mr. Royce Masterson?” Jim asked.
“Yes, and you are?”
“I’m Detective Jim Ellison of the Cascade PD. I’m here to ask
some questions about the rape that was committed the other night on campus.
Your name has come up and we need to check out a few things.”
“My name came up about a rape? You’re joking right?” Masterson
said loudly and then he saw Blair standing there and said, “Sandburg, what
the fuck are you doing here? You told them about us, did you?”
Jim looked back at his partner and saw Blair’s face turn red.
Blair said, “Masterson, where were you last night at 10:00?”
“You fucking told them that I’d tried to make you do something, didn’t
you. Did you mention to them what a cock tease you were?” Masterson
said.
Jim was so pissed off and wasn’t quite sure why. “Mr. Masterson,
we’re getting away from the question here. This has nothing to do with
Detective Sandburg. We need to know of your whereabouts last night
at 10:00.”
“Well, that one's easy. I was out to dinner with my wife’s parents.
Assholes didn’t let me get out of there for hours.” Masterson said, somewhat
relieved when he realized he was no longer in hot water.
“I need your wife’s name, address and phone number, sir.” Jim said.
“No, you can’t talk to my wife. She’ll want to know why and you
can’t say that's why. She has no idea I’m gay.” Masterson begged Jim.
“Sir, I have to check out your whereabouts from 9:00 last night until
11:00.” Jim stated firmly.
“How about the restaurant? They know me well and we were there
until about 12:30 this morning. They can give you the information.”
Masterson said, trying to save his ass.
“That will be okay for now, Masterson, but if we need more, we’ll have
to get back to you.” Jim said as he started walking down the hallway.
This whole time Megan had remained quiet and wondered just what she
had missed on this one. She would've guessed that this man tried to
force Blair into something he wasn’t willing to do. God, she hoped
not because Jim would kick his uptight, rich ass. Now that idea made Megan
smile.
As they walked over to the next building, Blair kept waiting for the
boom to fall on him from Jim. Jim didn’t say a word. This wasn’t
a good thing. He could tell by Jim’s body language that Jim was more
than pissed off. The next person on the list was Sheldon Mitchell.
He wasn’t in his class. The next person on the list was Linc Brennen.
He was in his class, answered all of their questions, and admitted to wanting
to ask a few guys out but he had an airtight alibi for last night.
He was with his professor getting help in some classes. He gave the
Professor’s name to them and they let him get back to class.
Conner said, “Jim, who do you want to talk to next? Anyone in particular?”
“Why not ask Sandburg? He seems to know more about them then we
ever would.” Jim said pissed off. He walked to the next room and asked
to see Mark Martin. When he came out, he smiled at them and said, “Could
I help you?”
The first thing they all noticed was that he had no scratches or bruises
to be seen. However, Jim could hear his heartbeat pounding like a jackhammer.
“We’re investigating the rape from last night and need to know your
whereabouts between 9:00 and 11:00.” Jim said.
“Well, that's easy. I was hanging with my professor. We
studied all night long.” Mark said very nervously.
“What is the professor’s name, Mark?” Sandburg asked.
“Professor Archer. You remember him don’t you, Sandburg?” Mark asked.
“Yeah, I remember him. We’ll have to check your alibi.” Sandburg
said, looking over at Conner and Ellison and saw they were ready to leave.
Mark reached out, grabbed Blair’s arm, and said, “Blair, please don’t
do this. He’ll be so pissed off that anyone knows. I wasn’t studying.
He’ll get in trouble for nothing.”
“Well, I wouldn’t exactly say for nothing, Mark. We have someone
else with him as their alibi. Seems somewhat strange. Did he
leave you at all?” Blair asked.
“Well, yeah, he was busy doing other things. And he said he was
also tutoring, but I was there, I swear.” Mark said.
As they walked out of the building, Blair said to Jim, “I think we should
check the library for Shel and ask if he’s seen anyone that fits that description
since last night.”
“Fine.” Jim said coldly.
“Jim, don’t be pissed, okay. We’ll talk about this later.” Blair
said.
“Fuck that shit. I need to know if that guy pushed himself on
you, Sandy.” Megan asked.
“Fine, yes, he did. I stopped him and the security guy pulled
him off me. I told him I wouldn’t press charges if he kept away from
me. I know, I know. It was stupid. I should have pressed
charges. I was scared.” Blair said all in one breath.
Megan and Jim both came towards Blair and Jim said, “I’m sorry, Chief.
I’m an ass. What can I say? I was jealous that I don’t know everything
about you.”
“Jim, you can’t know everything about me. I'll never know everything
about you, either.” Blair said.
“Sandy, when did this happen?” Conner asked.
“About four years ago. Right before I met my blessed protector.”
Blair said, smiling now.
As they walked into the library they just looked around. Blair
had told them what Shel looked like, and they knew who to look for.
As they walked around, Jim heard a heartbeat beating very hard over to
the right in the back of the library. Jim asked the person in charge
if Shel was here today and she said, “Well, I know he’s here. I don’t
know where he went.”
“Chief, I think it might be him. Let's not get too wild here but
don’t let him slip by. Are there any other ways out of this place?”
Jim asked.
“Nope. This is the only way in and out.” Blair said.
Blair walked back towards the person in the corner of the library and
said softly, “Shel, is that you?”
“Yeah, why? I’m trying to find a book I need for tomorrow.
What do you want, Sandburg?” Shel said angrily.
As Blair got up close to him, he saw the black eye, the bruises on his
face and cheek. Then he saw the gashes in his neck. “Shel, what
happened to you? It looks like you got in a pretty good fight.” Blair
asked.
Shel thought since he was bigger than Sandburg he’d get by him easily.
What he hadn’t planned on was a very angry Sandburg. So as soon as he
started to try and run over Blair, Blair shoved him so hard that he was down
on the ground faster than you could say, ‘Sandburg.’
Blair was reading him his rights and cuffing him when Jim and Megan
got there. Jim looked on proudly as Blair shoved the man into the
hands of his partners. Blair was pissed.
After they took him downtown to book him, they had to ask him questions
in the interrogation room. He gave everything up quickly. He
wanted to make a deal. What people won’t do for saving their own hide?
Megan met up with Blair and Jim as they walked into the garage at the
station and asked, “Mel wanted us to meet her for dinner. You guys
game?”
Jim looked over at Blair and said, “Sure, I guess so.”
“Jim, could I talk to you first?” Blair asked.
Conner said, “I’ll meet both at the deli in about 20 minutes. See
you then.”
“So what’s up, Chief?” Jim asked, checking his partner and knowing something
was up.
“I want to know what was going on in Simon’s office this morning.
You want the truth from me all the time, well, I want no less, man.”
“I planned on talking to you tonight about Simon, Chief. I really
don’t want to get into it right now. I think we should go and relax
and then go home and rest.”
“No, we can’t. I promised Spense that we’d come up and sit with
him for a few hours so he could sleep. He doesn’t feel safe, Jim.
He’s scared to death and he’s got no one.”
“Okay, Chief, we’ll talk about it while Spense's sleeping, deal?”
“I guess that would work. Nothing's wrong, is it?”
“No, nothing's wrong. Don’t worry so much. I love you.”
“All right, those are the words I really wanted to hear, man.” Blair
said lighting up like a light bulb.
Jim cuffed him along side his head and they got into the truck to head
on over to the deli for dinner with Mel and Megan. Now this might
be interesting, Ellison. These women want something. They just
have that look about them.
When they got to the deli, Mel and Megan were in a booth and called
them over to join them. Blair and Jim slid in and got comfortable
while the server came to take their order. Jim ordered something nice
and fatty, and Blair changed it for him, then ordered the same for him.
Jim glared at Blair and Mel and Megan started laughing their heads off.
“What’s so fucking funny?” Jim asked.
“You two are just too cute for words.” Mel said, laughing.
“Hear that, Chief, we’re too cute for words.” Jim said, laughing, too.
“Okay, enough of the sweet talk, what do you want?” Blair asked , starting
to laugh harder now.
“Well, since you brought it up, we have a proposition to make to the
two of you.” Mel said getting both men’s attention right off.
“Don’t worry. It wouldn’t hurt.” Megan said, smiling.
“Megan and I both want children. But what’s even worse is we both
want to carry children. So we’re wondering how you two feel about being
fathers. Would you consider thinking about being our perfect fathers?”
Mel asked.
“Jim and Blair, I want you guys to be up front with us. If you
don’t want it, it’s not the end of the world. But I think you’d be
great to at least think about it.” Megan said.
“Why do you want to have the babies at the same time?” Jim asked.
“Because we thought it would be nice to have siblings, more or less.”
Megan said.
“And how would you want to go about this?” Jim asked nervously.
“Jim, this doesn’t sound that great but I’d like you and Blair to do
the deed at our house so we can use a turkey baster to shoot it in.” Mel
said.
Jim and Blair both turned red. Jim said, “I think we need to think
about it, Mel. We will discuss it and think it though.”
When their dinner came, they started discussing the case they had just
finished and before long they were just relaxing and talking about camping.
They found out that Megan and Mel both loved camping.
“Mel's looking to buy a condo or something and I saw one of the places
at the loft was up for sale and we considered that one. How would you
feel about that?” Megan asked.
“I don’t care as long as you don’t move in with us, Megan.” Blair said
laughing.
“Oh, you're so funny, Sandy. I’m just dying from the laughter.”
Megan said sarcastically.
Blair looked down at his watch and said, “Shit, Jim, I promised Shel
we’d stop up there. We better get.”
All four cops stood up and Mel was the first one to hug Jim and Blair.
“Thanks, guys, for even considering it.”
“Yeah, what she said.” Megan said as she hugged them next.
“We’ll let you know as soon as we discuss this.” Jim said. “We’ll see
you tomorrow. Night.”
They walked out and got in the truck. Jim had a big old smile on his
face. Blair had an idea that Jim had already made up his mind. Sandburg,
how do you feel about sharing this man of yours? He’d belong to someone
else besides you. Even if it were a child, they’d still belong to Jim.
They would be part of Jim.
On the drive up to the hospital, Blair was really quiet and napped a
little so he could stay awake for Shel’s sake once they got there.
Blair woke to his partner saying his name softly and sweetly waking him
from a sex filled dream. “Chief, we’re here. You wanna get the
lead out or what?”
Yup, that was his sentinel. Mr. Romance. The romance would
never die up in this relationship if Jim was in charge. Blair started
laughing and Jim said, “What’s funny, Chief?”
“You, Jim. You’re funny. You’re just too damn cute for words.”
“Man, we’re not going to live that one down are we, Chief?” Jim teased,
making light of the fact that Megan and Mel thought they were both too cute
for words.
“Nope, but there are worse things in life to be, ya know?” Blair asked.
“You set, Partner? Jim, are you sure you want to go with me?
You don’t have to.”
“Chief, I don’t want to spend the night away from you. Even if
it’s in a chair across the room, I’ll still be able to see you. I understand
that this man needs to feel safe to sleep. I know that I felt that
way when I got to Peru. I couldn’t sleep until I met Incacha.”
“Blair leaned across the seat and gave Jim a long kiss. Jim, finally
coming up for air, said, “Now that's unfair, Blair. Totally unfair.”
Laughing, Blair got out of the truck and waited for his partner to readjust
himself in his jeans. Once Jim caught up to him, they walked into the
hospital together. “Hey, Jim, do we tell Spense that we got the guy
or do we not bring it up?”
“Chief, do I look like anyone that knows the first thing about rape
victims?” Jim asked.
“I think we should have classes in this type of thing at the station,
what do you think?”
“I think if you think it’s a good idea, Chief, it’s a good idea.”
Getting off the elevator, they made their way to Spenser’s room and
knocked before going in. There was no answer and Blair pushed the
door open and saw Spense looking out the window. He was standing up.
Blair thought this might be a good sign but wasn’t quite sure.
Jim leaned in and whispered, “Do you want me to go and talk to his doctor
first before we say anything?”
“Yeah, but come and meet him first. He wants to meet you.”
“Spense, I told you we’d be back. I wanted you to meet Jim.
He needs to talk to your doctor about a few things and then he’ll be back.
Spenser, this is my friend, Jim Ellison.”
“Nice to meet you, Detective Ellison.” Spense said, but didn’t raise
his eyes to meet Jim’s. Jim had seen this so many times. They
think they deserved it. They think they have no more self-worth.
It made Jim so fucking angry.
“It’s great to meet you, Mr. Chase. Can I call you Spenser?” Jim
asked kindly.
“Sure, that would be fine.” Spense said.
“Well, I’m going to be back in just a few minutes. We’ll talk
more then.” Jim said as he left the room.
“Spenser, what was that all about? Why wouldn’t you look at Jim?” Blair
asked outright.
“Because I know what I’ll find there. Jesus, Blair I don’t know
how you can stand to look at me.”
“Spenser, have you slept at all today?” Blair asked.
“No, I told you, I don’t feel safe.”
“Do you feel safe with me, Spense?
“Yeah, I do. I don’t know why I do but I do. I’m so glad
to see you, Blair. Before Blair knew what was happening he had his arms
full of a sobbing Spenser.”
Blair rocked him back and forth and just rubbed his back softly and
slowly. When the door to the room opened up, Spense tensed immediately.
Jim said, “Spenser, it’s just me. Jim Ellison. You’re safe.”
Jim moved over to the two men and Jim put his arms around the two men
and drew them both into his embrace. They stayed that way for a long
while. Blair didn’t know how long but his arms were numb so it had been
awhile. Finally pulling away, Spense moved over to the bed and climbed
in and asked, “Can I go to sleep for a couple of hours, Blair?”
“Yeah, Jim and I are staying tonight. We’ll be here for you.”
“Thanks, both of you.” Spense said as he drifted into an uneasy sleep.
Blair had to run to the bathroom and left the room and Spense woke up
crying. Jim moved up to the bed and said, “Spense, it’s okay, it’s
Jim. Blair will be right back. Don’t be afraid, okay?”
“I’m not afraid of you, Jim. You don’t scare me. I see the
way you look at him. I know you’d never hurt anyone.”
Jim could see him shaking hard under the covers and asked, “What can
I do to help, Spense?”
“Could you hold me for just a little while? I’m so fucking scared.
I’m so fucking tired of being scared.”
Jim climbed onto the bed, sliding Spense over a little bit and put his
arm under Spenser’s neck and pulled him into his arms. Spense went
without a fight which surprised Jim, but who was he to argue. Whatever
worked was the important thing.
When Blair got back from his short walk and bathroom break, he found
two sleeping forms in the bed and a smile lit up his face. God, Jim's
a good man.
Blair pulled the chair up to the bed and laid his head on Jim’s leg
and went to sleep. The doctor was shocked to find two men protecting
this man as they were when he walked in. Especially since Spenser
had not wanted anyone to touch him or be near him. The doctor had
his first ray of hope for Spenser Chase.
Jim opened his eyes and said, “Hey.”
“You must be one of the Detectives that the nurses talked about.
I’m Dr. Dan Dennen and you are?”
“I’m Detective Jim Ellison and this man waking up at the moment is my
partner, Detective Blair Sandburg.”
“Good to meet both of you. The nurses said that Mr. Chase slept
the entire night. This is quite a shock to us. Thank you for
being there for him.”
Jim unwrapped his arms from underneath Spenser and got out of bed to
relieve himself. He was about to burst. He hadn’t wanted to disturb
Spenser during the night. When he got back to the room Blair was talking.
“I’ve got a friend who's a rape crisis therapist along with her husband.
They're coming to see you today, Spenser. You’ll like them a lot.
They are both victims of sex crimes, so they understand it all. You’ll
be safe with them.”
The doctor turned to Spenser and said, “Mr. Chase, did they tell you
that the man who did this has been arrested because of the good description
you gave? He’s the one that hurt all of those people. You helped them
find him and get him off the street.”
“No, I didn’t know. Thank you both.” Spenser said and for the
first time looked up at Jim.
Jim saw one of the saddest men he’d ever seen in his life. He never
wanted to see anyone that sad again. He smiled at Spenser and said,
“No. Thank you. You were the one that helped us. Without
your help, he’d be out there hurting someone else.”
Looking at Blair, Spenser said, “Who was it, Blair?”
“I’m sorry...it was Shel.”
“Oh god, somehow I knew it. I just knew it. He didn’t want
to wait. I shouldn’t have made him wait.” Spenser said, crying softly.
“No, Spenser. No person, man or woman, has a right to expect anything
from another person just because they feel like they deserve it. Don’t ever
think it was your fault.”
“Well, gentlemen, I’d like to examine my patient and I’ll let you both
go home and get ready for work. Thank you for looking out for him.”
The doctor said.
Jim pulled a couple of cards out of his pocket and handed one to Spenser
and the other to the doctor and said, “If either of you need us for anything,
we answer the phone, day and night.”
“Thanks, Blair and Jim. I needed that sleep.” Spenser said with
a small smile.
“Take care, buddy.” Blair said as they walked out of the room.
Once down in the truck, Blair said, “Man, I need a shower bad.”
“Yes, you do, Chief.” Jim said, laughing, as Blair smacked him in the
arm.
“So Jim, you going to tell me what was going on in Simon’s office yesterday
or not?”
“Why don’t we wait till we’re home and I feel more comfortable telling
you about it.”
“Man, that doesn’t sound good. Am I going to hate this, Jim?”
“I don’t know yet, Chief. We’ll discuss it when we get there.” Jim reached
down and switched on the radio and they both started singing the song Amazed,
by Lonestar. Jim kept smiling while he was singing it to Blair.
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby, when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting
better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by
my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby, you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spent the whole night in your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting
better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by
my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by
my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you
When the song ended, they both smiled at each other and Blair said, “That
song is so us, baby.”
“Yes, it is.” Jim answered as he pulled into the parking lot and shut
the truck off. Getting out, they locked up and made their way upstairs
to shower and dress for the new day.
As they walked into the loft, Jim picked up the phone and called Simon.
“Hey, Simon?”
“Jim, is anything wrong?”
“No, we spent the night with a sick friend at the hospital, so would
it be all right if we sleep for awhile before coming in?”
“Sure, that’s fine. I heard you got the rapist. Good job.
Tell Sandburg he did really well.”
“Thanks, Simon. I’ll be sure to tell him. I’ll see you later
on today then.”
“Just come in tomorrow, Jim. Take it easy today and relax. See
you tomorrow. Bye.” Simon hung up before Jim could say anything back to him.
“Hey, Chief. We got the day off.”
“Why? Why’s he being so damn nice all of a sudden? I have
a feeling I’m not going to like whatever it is you have to tell me.”
Jim jogged up the stairs to get them clean clothes and was back in a
flash as he dragged Blair into the bathroom for a shower. “Have I told
you lately how much I love you?”
“No, not since last night.”
“Well, I do love you, Chief, more than you’ll ever know.”
“Jim, last night when you held Spenser in your arms all night, I found
that the sweetest, but yet most sexy thing I’d ever thought about.”
“Really? He just needed to be safe, Chief, that’s all.”
“Well, you have a way of making anyone feel safe all the time.”
“Thanks but that’s because you’re there to guide me all the time.”
Blair said, “All right, that’s enough. What's with all this sucking
up?”
They both got into the shower and felt the warm water flow over their
bodies and both men relaxed right away. Nothing could beat this feeling.
As Jim washed Blair’s body and watched Blair get hard, he asked, “What
do you think of being a father?”
“Man, don’t bring that up now. Get back to business. We’ll discuss
that later.” Blair said as he kissed Jim hard and passionately.
Jim finished getting them all clean and said, “I don’t know about you
but I’d like to be in our bed when we do this.”
“I couldn’t agree more, Jim. Lead the way, I’ll always follow.”
They went up the stairs, kissing and groping the entire way. Jim
sometimes felt like he was in a relationship with a teen. Not that
he was complaining. Nope, he wasn’t a fool.
Once they got on the bed, Jim got the lube and condoms out and started
preparing Blair. He really wanted to fuck him bad. He hadn’t
even asked, he just figured that if Blair didn’t want it, he’d tell him.
“Can I fuck you, baby?”
“Jim, you know you can.”
“I thought I’d make sure.” Jim whispered. Blair smiled at him
when he realized he was probably still thinking about Spenser not having
a choice. Again, Blair thought to himself, God, Ellison's one hell-of-a
man.
As soon as he had stretched Blair, he slid in and both men held their
breath. Every time seemed like the first time. It was so wonderful.
Jim was so fucking gentle. Blair didn’t want gentle.
“Jim, I want you to fuck me hard, not gentle. I want to think
of you a week from now. Now, fuck me hard.”
Jim couldn’t stand it. Something about Blair’s voice drove him
out of his mind. Before he knew what happened he was pounding into
Blair. Every time he hit Blair’s prostate, Blair made a little sound
that was drawing Jim closer and closer to the edge. Blair’s sounds
were quite sexy. “Jesus, Chief, you feel so fucking great. Your
voice alone almost makes me come.”
“Jim, keep taking me hard, pound into me, come for me, Jim. I
want you to come in me and make me sore for a week.”
Jim let out a growl and started pushing his cock into Blair deeper and
harder than he ever had. It was enough to almost astound Blair.
Blair let out little screams begging Jim to come and make him come, too.
Jim reached around and started stroking Blair as he continued pounding as
hard as he could into him. Jim was so close but he wanted Blair to come
with him. Blair started screaming, “Come for me, Jim. Come for
me.”
Jim couldn’t hold back any longer. He came hard and with each
spurt, he pushed in deeper and harder and Blair came with him. As
they both came back to themselves, Jim said, “Blair, you are the best fuckee
I could ever hope for. I never dreamed that it could be this good.”
“Well, good, I’m glad you liked it. You’re the best fucker I’ve
ever met. Therefore, we work out perfectly. God, I love you, man.”
“I love you, Blair.”
Jim cleaned both of them off and they fell asleep for about two hours
and when they woke up, Blair said, “Okay, hot stuff, I want to know what’s
going on with Simon.”
“No, first we discuss the baby business. What do you think of that?”
“Jim, I really think that one baby would be more than enough for us.
What do you think?”
“Well, what if they can’t decide which one would be the dad? What
if they think we would both be good? What if I think I’d love a baby
that looked just like his perfect daddy?”
“Man, you are such a sweet talker. I love that about you, Jim.
So do you think it would be all right if both of them got pregnant at the
same time?”
“Yeah, I think so. I have a feeling that Conner wants to carry
mine. I could tell the way she was looking at me. I think that
Mel has a thing for your eyes, Sandburg. That had better be all she
has a thing for.”
What do you think of the way they want to inject the sperm? That
bothered me a little bit. I think that we should do things the old
fashioned way. We’re going to be parents together, we should be able
to pull off fucking each other.”
“Chief, I don’t want to fuck Conner and then go to work the next day.
That would bother me. No, I think the other way's better. Okay?”
“All right, you win.” Blair said laughing as he kissed his main man.
“You going to tell them soon or make them sweat it out?”
“First, I need to talk to you about a few things. I’m serious here,
no kidding around.”
Blair looked at Jim with the suddenly serious tone Jim had taken on.
“I’m listening, tough guy. Shoot.”
“Chief, I need you to swear to me that you’re going to stay with me.
You won’t be leaving me for someone else a year from now or two years from
now. I want you to be with me always.”
“Jim, I’m really sorry for what I put you through but I truly believe
that things will work out just fine. We’ll be together forever.
We’ll be daddies. We’ll be happy. Jesus, this is like a fucking
fairy tale.”
“Is there something wrong with a fucking fairy tale, Chief?
“Nope, not a thing. I love fairy tales and love the idea of playing
the lead character in one. I love you, Jim. I love you more than
you’ll ever know.”
“Have you ever thought about having a child before now, Chief?”
“No, because I never loved anyone enough to have one with. This is the
closest thing we’re going to get.”
“We’ll have to tell them that we get partial custody. I don’t
mean, they spend four days there and three here and screw up their lives.
I mean they’ll be spending weekends whenever they can. Sometimes during
the week when Megan and Mel have to go to work on something. I’m getting excited,
Chief. Really excited.”
“Good, I’m glad. I’m excited, too. Should we call them right
now?”
“Yeah, we should. You know how nervous they were. This will
calm them down and we can make some plans from there.”
Blair picked up the phone and called Megan. “Megan?”
“Hi, Sandy, what're you doing? You’re supposed to be sleeping
and taking the day off. Simon told us that this morning.”
“Well, do you want our answer or not? I could wait until next week or
something.” Blair said, laughing softly.
“No, sorry, mate. What’s the answer?”
“We decided that the two of you would make wonderful parents and we’d
love to be the fathers.”
“Oh god, Sandy, you have no idea what this means to us.”
Blair could tell that Conner was on the verge of tears and decided he’d
make a joke. Jim said he wants to fuck you up close and personal.
Conner was taking a drink of her coffee and spit it out all over her
monitor. Jim grabbed the phone from Blair and said, “Conner, I never
said that. I said what we discussed sounded like the best way to us.”
“Jim, I’d like to carry yours if that’s all right with you?”
“Yeah, that’s fine with me. We’ll have some things to discuss
first. Did you want me to still look into the loft next door for the two
of you?”
“Yeah, that would be great, Jim. My god, I have to go and hunt
down Mel now and tell her the good news. We figured last night that
the look on both of your faces wasn’t a good look. I have to go.
I need to find Mel. Thanks, Jim.”
As Jim hung up the phone he was laughing. “She’s really excited,
Chief. She’s going to hunt down Mel and tell her face-to-face.
She said that they thought we’d say no.”
“Okay, Jim, I’ve been really patient. I want to know about Simon
now. Are you going to keep putting it off or what?”
“No, I’m going to tell you now but I want to eat something first.
I’m starving.” Jim said as he got out of bed and led Blair down the stairs
to find some food. As Jim was making scrambled eggs, Blair had his
hands around his naked lover and kissed and fondled him to his heart's content.
“Chief, if you want breakfast on you, keep it up. I can’t cook and
get turned on at the same time. I’m not that talented.”
Blair laughed as he pulled away and set the table for their breakfast.
Once all the food was on the table, Jim looked at Blair and said, “Now this
is going to be hard, Chief. I don’t know where to start.”
“Start at the beginning. That’s always a good place to start.
“All right, I’ll start at the beginning. You know how Simon said
he didn’t understand us and how we feel about each other? Well, he lied.”
“Really? Why?” Blair asked.
“He's had feelings for me for awhile and didn’t know what to do with
them. He’s at that age where he just figured it was a mid-life crisis
or something. He never thought the feelings and thoughts would stay
with him but they did. After about six months he knew that he’d have
to do something. He didn’t have enough nerve to talk to me about it.
He actually had nowhere to go to.”
“Then he noticed that you and I seemed closer and suddenly he figured
out that he was too fucking late. He’s never been with a guy and is
scared to death. He had really hoped that his first time would be with
his friend. Then he finds out that said friend's in a relationship
with his partner.”
“Man, this is like out of the twilight zone.”
“I like to think of it as the Sandburg-Ellison zone, Chief.” Jim said
laughing.
“Actually, it’s not that funny, is it? I bet Simon's really confused.”
“No, not that funny. Especially to Simon, Chief. He’s very serious.
He doesn’t know where to go from here.”
“Okay, so get back to this... why was he looking at me so strangely?
Now that I think about it, why were you looking at me that oddly?”
Jim cleared the table off, started filling the sink with water, and
said, “Because he asked me for a favor. I didn’t know what to say
about it.”
“Man, you are so not going to sleep with him, Jim. God damn it.
I hate you sometimes. Remember? We don’t share each other?”
Blair rushed up the stairs and was pacing in the bedroom. Jim
followed him up and he said, “Okay, this is what he asked. First, he would
like to have me fuck him because he’s afraid for it to be someone that isn’t
a friend the first time. Next, he said if I couldn’t do that he’d like
to watch you and I when we make love to see if it turns him on. But I had
a few other idea’s.”
Jim looked over at his love and saw that he'd stopped pacing but still
was not talking. This wasn’t a good sign.
“What did you tell him, Jim?”
“What do you think I told him? I told him I had to talk to you
first. I also told him that I have this thing about being faithful.
This goes against being faithful. The fucking part. I truly believe
that Simon's just confused. We could find some great first time video’s
and books for him to read. What do you think, Chief?”
“I think that there has to be a pod somewhere. I want my Jim back
and now.”
“Hey, I can be sensitive.” Jim said, laughing.
“Okay, I know where to get the books and the video’s. They would
be a great help to him. Do you want me to talk to him, too?” Blair asked.
“Yeah, Chief, I’d love it if you’d talk to him. He feels very foolish
and thinks he’s going insane, too.”
“I’ll talk to him tonight. In fact, do you want me to ask him
over?”
“Yeah, that would be a good idea.” Jim said pulling Blair into his arms.
Picking the phone up, Blair called Simon and heard him answer, “Banks.”
“Hey, Simon. We were wondering if you wanted to come to dinner
tonight.”
“Sandburg, I have a date tonight. Can’t make it, sorry.” Simon
said.
“Simon, we both know that you don’t have a date. Yes, Jim told
me but I wanted to talk to you about
it, face to face.”
“Sandburg, why aren’t you and Jim sleeping? He said you hadn’t
slept. That’s why I gave you all the day off.”
“Simon, calm down. First things first, we’d like to see you for
dinner. What do you say about that? Next, we’d like to discuss some
of the things with you that you’re worried about. There's no reason to worry.”
“Fine, Sandburg, what time?” Simon growled.
“We’ll see you at 7:00 tonight. We’ll sleep a little this afternoon
and make dinner when we get up. See you tonight, Simon. Bye.”
As Blair hung up the phone he said, “Jim, I’m going to go shopping for
those things for Simon. I think he’ll need them as soon as possible.
You go ahead and nap and when I get home I’ll crawl in bed with you.”
“Okay, Chief. Are you sure you don’t want company?”
“Yeah, man. You get some rest. I’ll see you later on.
Go to bed.” Blair said, kissing him goodbye as he left the loft.
Blair went to the store that he knew of that sold the best things in
the world for someone that's confused. No one would know better about
this than Blair Sandburg. As he was shopping the owner came over and
said, “Blair, is there something I missed here?”
Laughing, Blair said, “Very funny, Jeremy. We have a friend that's older
and is having thoughts of being with a man. Well, hell, he needs some
help and I know that I can get the best visual aids here. So I’m back.”
“That’s a very kind thing to say, Blair. Thank you.”
“I know you saved my sanity more than once. I’m hoping that it’ll be
just what he needs, too.”
Blair handed the purchases to Jeremy, looked up at him, and saw the
nice man who never seemed to be with anyone. “Hey, Jeremy, why haven’t
I ever met your S.O.?”
Ringing the things up, Jeremy said, “Well, I can’t seem to find anyone
that appreciates me as much as you do.”
“Man, how would you like to meet a friend of ours after he reads and
watches all of this?” Blair asked, smiling big time.
“I would love to. Any friend of you and Jim is an automatic friend
of mine. I only ask one thing. I like my men over six feet.
When you’re 6’8” it makes for a problem to date shorter men.”
“Well, he’s 6’4”. Not that he’d be happy about me setting up dates
for him but I know you’d like him a lot. I’ll let you know how it goes.”
Blair said.
“I’m sure I’ll love him as much as you do, Blair. You’re a good
friend to be doing all this for him.” Jeremy said.
“Actually, Jeremy, he has a thing for Jim so I wasn’t that nice.
I want to kick his ass but I figure as he sees us together more he’ll get
over that. It’s still new to all of us.”
“My but you're cute when you're jealous, my love. Now here are
your things. Go home to your big Jim Ellison and fuck him senseless.”
Jeremy said.
“It’s too late, Jeremy.” Blair said laughing as he walked to the front
door of the store.
Jeremy laughed hard hearing this and said, “See you soon, Blair.
Take care.”
“Thanks, Jeremy. We’ll see you soon.”
Blair walked to his car and felt good about life in general. He
couldn’t wait to have Simon watch these things. Gay men that were truly in
love did them very tastefully. They had been lifesavers for Jim and
Blair. The drive home to the loft was quick and Blair couldn’t wait
to get in bed with Jim. Not for sex, but just to lay with him.
He loved being in Jim’s arms. That man could make anyone feel good.
Not that he’d better be making anyone else feel good. Blair was very
jealous and Jim knew that much.
As Blair climbed the stairs, his smile was getting wider and wider.
God, how he loved Jim and wanted to be in his arms soon. Once inside the
loft, he tossed his things and climbed the stairs. Once he got to the
top Jim said, “I’m awake. Get your lovely ass over here, Chief.”
Smiling, Blair stripped quickly and climbed into the bed with his lover.
Jim was waiting with a big smile on his face and a hard on that was enough
to make Blair instantly hard, too. Cuddling with Jim was also one of
his favorite things to do. Ellison body heaters were fantastic. Blair started
kissing him on his lips and worked his way slowly down Jim’s body. Jim
was moaning with pleasure letting Blair know how much he really loved everything
he did to and for him. Blair had wanted to tongue fuck him all day
long so decided that he’d try that and see if that calmed this tense man
down.
Once he got to Jim’s cock, he was licking and sucking until Jim said,
“Chief, I’m right there. I have to stop or it'll all be over.”
Blair pushed Jim’s legs apart more and slid between them as he started
kissing the insides of his thighs. Jim was moaning but now he was actually
calmer without Blair’s mouth on his cock. Blair didn’t want Jim coming
that soon. That wouldn’t be nice. He started licking Jim’s balls
and Jim about jumped off the bed. Blair slid a pillow under Jim’s ass
and pushed his thighs open further. Once he saw what he wanted he
started licking his way down to the Promised Land.
When Blair got to Jim’s sweet pucker, Jim said, “Blair, no, I’ll come
right now.” Blair didn’t listen to him for a moment. He kept running
his tongue over the opening, never going in, just teasing him repeatedly.
Once Jim started to move his ass in time with the licks, Blair started
pushing his tongue into Jim’s opening. “Chief…”
Blair pulled back and said, “Want me to stop?” Jim looked at him with
hooded eyelids and said, “No.” Blair realized that was the sexiest
thing Jim could ever say or do.
Getting back to business, Blair slid his tongue in and started pushing
it in further and further. Each time he would thrust Jim met his thrusts
with his own. Jim’s ass was being pushed up to meet Blair’s tongue
every time. Blair pulled his tongue out and said, “Talk to me, Jim.”
Then he went back to what he was doing and Jim said, “Talk?”
Blair didn’t answer but didn’t push his tongue any harder waiting for
Jim to do something for him. “Chief, I love what you’re doing right
now. I’m right on the edge. I’m so close that you can probably
tell by how my balls feel. I don’t want to come yet. This is too great
to stop. I want to go on awhile.”
Blair pushed his tongue in for three strokes and Jim said, “Oh shit,
Chief. God, this is good. Baby, I need you to do it harder.
Do it faster. Please?”
Blair loved the begging man lying in front of him. Therefore,
Blair did what Jim wanted. He started tongue fucking him harder and
faster. Jim reached down and grabbed his cock to stroke it but Blair
pushed his hand away. “Chief, I need some help here. I’m right there.
I need to come. Baby, please let me come.”
Blair finally pulled his tongue out and grabbed the lube for his fingers.
Jim was still thrashing around and moaning. Blair knew that Jim was
close. Oh, how Blair loved having him this near the edge.
He started fucking Jim with his fingers, one at a time. Again,
Jim was meeting Blair’s every move with his ass pushing against the fingers
being pressed into him. When Blair rubbed against Jim’s prostate, Jim
howled and said, “Chief, please let me come.”
Blair took Jim’s cock into his mouth and started sucking slowly at first
and then built up momentum until Jim could hardly breathe anymore.
By this time, Blair had three fingers in and Jim was fucking himself on
those same fingers. “Chief, touch the nub again, I’m right there,
please?”
Blair started rubbing across his prostate and Jim was getting wilder
and wilder and said, “Blair, suck me now. Don’t stop now. I’m
right there. Please, Blair.”
This was just about enough to do Blair in. A begging Jim was very
hot to see, feel and hear. Blair was close, too. Flipping around,
he said, “Suck me, too, baby.”
Jim greedily took Blair into his mouth and Blair was close, Jim could
tell. Jim grabbed the lube to do some finger fucking for Blair when
Blair started sucking harder and harder on Jim’s cock. “Blair, I can’t
hold on much longer, baby. Oh god, Chief, I’m right there.” Blair pushed
Jim on his back and got on top of him so that his cock was in Jim’s mouth
and Jim’s was in his. They were both sucking like madmen and Jim knew
he wasn’t going to make it, so he tried to suck Blair as hard and as good
as he could to make him come closer with Jim. Then Jim felt the tensing
up in Blair’s balls and knew that he was very close. Jim continued
to suck that hard and Blair did the same. Jim couldn’t hold on any
longer, he came with such force he thought he was going to lose something
inside of him. Then he just lay back, relaxed, and opened his throat
up for Blair to fuck it. Blair did just that. He fucked Jim’s
mouth for about four thrusts and came into Jim’s hot, waiting mouth and throat.
Blair finally moved off Jim and pulled him close to him as he flipped
back around and held him for a while. They just lay there quietly taking
in each other’s scents, sounds and love. Finally, Blair said, “No
way is Simon not going to love this. How could you not fucking love
this?”
“Are you saying we do all right in the bedroom?” Jim asked smiling.
“Oh yeah, hot stuff. We do great in the bedroom. I love
doing this. Jesus, do you suppose it’ll always be this fan-fucking-tastic?”
“I think that anything with you would be this fan-fucking-tastic.” Jim
said pulling Blair in for a nap.
“You sweet talker, you.” Blair said smiling and yawning as he started
to drift off. Blair heard a soft, “I love you, Blair.”
Blair was already asleep but he’d make it up to Jim when he woke up.
They slept peacefully and uninterrupted for about five hours until the alarm
woke them both up.
“Shit, I have food to make. Let’s get up and get this show on
the road.” Blair said as he got his things to get his shower taken.
Then he looked over at Jim and went back to the bed and said, “I love you,
Jim.”
“All right. Now I can get up and be happy. You didn’t tell
me earlier.” Jim said pouting.
“I’m sorry. You wore me out. What can I say?” Blair said
laughing.
They both got up this time and walked down the stairs for a shower.
While in there, they talked about who would be making the dinner and who
would be making the dessert. Blair got stuck with dinner but the dessert
was a tough one, so Jim would probably trade him.
They each took their turns shaving and got dressed. Once in the
kitchen, Jim kept pulling Blair into his arms and telling him, “I love you,
baby.”
“Jim, if you keep that up, I’m not going to get any cooking done, you
hear that?”
“Yeah, yeah, yeah.” Jim said laughing.
Before long, Blair could smell the wonderful odor of Spaghetti Sauce.
Jim made good sauce. Just as planned as soon as Jim had found out how
hard the dessert was to make, he’d given it to Blair and said, he’d make
dinner. Blair loved when he knew what Jim would do. Jim always
thought he had control. He had little, really.
Jim had the recipe out that Sally had given him ages ago that Blair
loved so much.
Ingredients:
· 1 can tomato juice (56 oz.) · 1 can whole peeled
tomatoes (28 oz.) · 1 can tomato paste (5 1/2 oz.) ·
2 tbsp. oregano (dried) · 3 cloves garlic, minced ·
2 bay leaves · 3 basil leaves · salt & pepper
to taste · chili pepper to taste · cooked meat
Preparation:
- Blend whole tomatoes until pureed. - Place in large sauce pan with tomato
juice and tomato paste. - Add all spices including garlic.
- Add cooked meat (see details below). - Bring to a boil. -
Cover and simmer for about 1 hour. Stir occasionally. - Remove
cover and cook between medium & simmer for another hour or until tomato
is at the thick. Stir occasionally. - Remove meat from sauce
(except for meat sauce) and place on a serving plate. - Pour sauce
over your favorite cooked pasta. - Serve with grated parmesan or romano
cheese and some will like it more spicy with chili pepper.
Meat Variations:
1. Meat Sauce: Fry about 1 1/2 - 2 lbs. of ground beef or pork or combination
of beef and pork. While cooking break meat up into small pieces with a
wooden spoon. Add salt & pepper to taste. Add meat to sauce.
2. Meat Balls: Cook meat balls - either fry, broil, microwave them. (recipe
available on this site). Add salt & pepper to taste. Add meat to sauce.
3. Meat Loaf: Same ingredients as meat balls, except form 2 large loaves
rather than balls. Cook meat loaf in the oven (recipe available on
this site). Add salt & pepper to taste. Add meat to sauce.
4. Italian Sausages: Cook sausages - either fry, broil, microwave them.
Cut sausages into 2 1/2 inch lengths. Add salt & pepper to taste. Add
meat to sauce.
5. Beef: Cook blade roast - broil it until two-thirds cooked. Add salt
& pepper to taste. Add meat to sauce.
6. Pork: Cook pork roast - broil it until two-thirds cooked. Add salt &
pepper to taste. Add meat to sauce.
7. Beef or Pork Bones: Cook bones - broil them. Add salt & pepper
to taste. Add meat to sauce. You may also combine meats together.
Example, add meat sauce and meat balls to sauce, or sausages and beef bones...
Leftover sauce can be frozen in containers.
Blair was making stuffed Cannoli, he had his recipe out and was following
it to a T. He wanted these to be perfect. It was an important
night for all three of the men.
Cannoli alla Siciliana
Yield: 12 Servings
Shells:
2 c All-purpose flour
2 tb Shortening
1 ts Sugar
1/4 ts Salt
3/4 c Wine, Marsala, Burgundy or Chablis
Vegetable Oil
Filling:
3 c Ricotta
1/2 c Confectioners sugar
1/4 tsp Cinnamon or more to taste
1/2 Square unsweetened Chocolate grated OR 1/2 tb Cocoa (both optional)
1/2 ts Vanilla
3 tb Citron peel, chopped
3 tb Orange peel, candied,chopped
6 glaced cherries, cut up
To make Cannoli shells it is necessary to have 3 or 4 metal tubes, preferably
made from very light tin, about 7-inches long and 1 1/8 inches in diameter.
The edges should not be soldered. (Old aluminum chairs cut up work great)
SHELLS:
Combine flour, shortening, sugar and salt, and wetting gradually with
wine, knead together with fingers until rather hard dough or paste is formed.
Form into ball, cover with cloth and let stand about 1 hour. Cut dough in
half and roll half of dough into a thin sheet about 1/4 inch thick. Cut into
4 inch squares. Place a metal tube diagonally across each square from one
point to another, wrapping dough around tube by overlapping the two points
and sealing overlapping points with a little egg white. Meanwhile heat vegetable
oil in large deep pan for deep frying. Drop one or two tubes at a time into
hot oil. Fry gently until dough is a golden brown color. Remove from pan,
let cool and gently remove shell from metal tube. Set shells aside to cool.
Repeat procedure until all shells are made.
FILLING:
Mix ricotta thoroughly with sifted dry ingredients. Add vanilla and
fruit peel. Mix and blend well. (A little grated pistachio may be added
if desired). Chill in refrigerator before filling shells. Fill cold Cannoli
shells; smooth filling evenly at each end of shell. Decorate each end with
a piece of glaced cherry and sprinkle shells with confectioners sugar. Refrigerate
until ready to serve.
These are best if they are filled just before you company arrives.
As Blair finished up the Cannoli, Jim got the garlic bread ready to
go. And together they made a nice Italian salad. Everything
looked and smelled wonderful. Simon would, no doubt, be impressed.
At 7:00, Jim got the garlic bread and put it in the oven to broil.
Blair looked at him and said, “Don’t you think we should wait for Simon,
first?”
“He’s here. I heard him get on the elevator. Chief, can I try
one of the cannoli?”
Smacking his hand away, Blair said, “No, they’re for dessert.”
“Geeze, you’re a selfish prick when it comes to Cannoli.” Jim said laughing.
He walked to the front door and opened it before Simon had a chance to even
think about knocking.
“Hey, Jim, how are you tonight?” Simon said trying not to be nervous.
“Come on in, Simon. I’m doing great. We’re almost ready
for dinner. Hungry?”
“Oh yeah, I’m starving. As soon as Blair said he was cooking I
got hungry.” Simon said, laughing at the face Jim was making.
“I’ll have you know that I did the sauce and the garlic bread.” Jim
growled.
“I was teasing, Jim.” Simon said smiling. Turning towards Blair, he
said, “Hey, Sandburg, how're you doing tonight?”
“I gotta tell ya, Simon, things could be better.” Blair said with head
hanging down. Simon walked over to him and said, “I’m really sorry,
Sandburg, I’ll never say or do anything towards Jim again. I just want
you to know that.”
“Calm down man. I was joking and it wasn’t about that. I was talking
about Jim making me make the Cannoli.” Blair said laughing.
“Oh.” Simon managed to get out before he blushed. “The loft looks
great and smells even better.”
“Thanks, Simon.” Blair said as he finished setting the table.
Simon watched the two men working side by side like they’d been doing forever
and wondered if he’d ever have anyone like this in his life.
Jim pulled the garlic bread out long before it had a chance to burn.
Simon smiled at him and said, “I’ve never had it not burn. That must
be nice to be able to smell it before anyone else does.”
“Yeah, it’s pretty handy.” Jim said as he put the bread in the basket
and put it on the table.
Blair asked, “Anyone besides me going to eat?”
Jim smiled and said, “I don’t think you’ll be alone.” They all sat down
at the table and started with their salad’s and went from there to their spaghetti,
the Italian Green Beans with sauce, and the garlic bread.
As they all ate, Simon asked teasingly, “All right, I want to
know how you two stay so fucking thin.”
“Exercise, Simon. Exercise is the key to almost anything.” Jim said
smiling back.
Jim could tell Simon was blushing and realized he might not be ready
for those type of jokes, so he said, “Is everything okay for everyone?”
“Yeah, Jim, it’s great.” Blair said as well as he could with a mouth
full of food.
“Thanks, Chief.” Jim said, I’m glad you like it.”
“Jim, everything's wonderful. You did a wonderful job.” Simon
said.
“Can we tell Simon our news, Jim?” Blair asked hoping that Jim would
tell Simon now.
“Sure, you can tell him. Go ahead.” Jim said sitting back and
relaxing while watching his love.
“Well, I meant, you tell him. Not me.” Blair said with a look
of panic on his face.
“Okay, I’ll tell him, Chief. Don’t freak out. Well, Simon, we’re
going to be dad’s for Megan and Mel’s babies.”
Both men sat very quietly and waited for some type of reaction from
their boss but none was forthcoming.
Finally, Simon cleared his throat and said, “I’m happy for you.
I’m sure you’ll both make excellent dad’s.”
“All right, Simon. What do you really think?” Jim asked.
“Well, if you want the truth, Jim, I’ll give it to you. What if they
decide to move to Australia or something?”
“Shit! Jim, we didn’t think of that, did we?” Blair said with
a look of panic on his face.
“Chief, settle down. First of all,
we’re going to have a lot of things to discuss with both women before we do
this.”
“Good, I’m glad to hear it because I don’t want to see the two of you
hurt in any way, Jim.” Simon said.
“Thanks. We’ll be careful, Simon.” Jim said smiling at Blair.
Jim got up and started clearing the table and said, “Simon, take your
coffee and sit in the living room. We’ll be right out.”
Simon took his coffee, sat down on the sofa and watched the two men
clean up the kitchen. It was like watching something that was practiced
for years. Well, actually, it is, Banks. What are you thinking
about? Then a big smile was on Simon’s face and Jim said, “What?”
“You just look so domesticated, both of you.” Simon said smiling.
Once the kitchen was done, they walked into the living room and Blair
sat by Simon and said, “Okay, Simon, are you up to this talk?”
“Yeah, I think so.” Simon said nervously.
“Okay, first of all, let me tell you that I think you have wonderful
taste in men if you were attracted to Jim.” Blair said and Jim blushed.
“Blair, I promise, I’ll never say or do anything…”
Blair cut Simon off before he could finish. “Simon, I know that.
So stop saying it. I know we can trust you. Now sit back and listen
to us.”
“Blair picked up some things for you today, Simon. They’re really
good. There are three tapes by gay men that are in love. They’re
not porn tapes, they’re done to help a man decide if he’s having feelings
for a man or not. You’ll watch those and see if that does anything for
you or to you. Then you can start studying the books he bought.”
“Simon, the books are wonderful. They answer any and all questions.
They also include pictures and ideas of things to do for first timers. Jim
and I used these same books.”
Simon looked over at Jim and then at Blair and said, “Thank you.
That was really nice. I’m not sure I’ll ever watch the tapes though.
I don’t have the nerve. I seem to have lost it.”
“Simon, you’ll take them home and watch them at your leisure; knowing
that Jim and I will be here if you need to ask any questions. Understood?”
“Thanks, guys.” Simon said, not looking at them.
“If it makes you feel any better, we think you might like the tapes.
So check them out and call us or come over. We’re you’re friends, we'll
always listen.” Jim said, getting up and sitting on the arm of the sofa
next to Simon. He lay his arm across the back of Simon’s shoulders
and said, “It’ll be all right, Simon. Don’t worry so much.”
Then Blair gave him a hug, too, and Simon started to get up and said,
“I need to go.”
“Man, you can’t go now. You didn’t have your cannoli. You
have to have it with coffee. I’m making a fresh pot now. Sit down.
We’ll talk about work, how's that?” Blair said laughing.
“Very funny, Sandburg. I did want to tell you both what a good
job you did on that rapist collar.” Simon said.
“Thanks, sir. We were a little surprised when it happened so quickly.
The victim seems to be doing well, too.” Jim said.
“Well, I’ll stay and have dessert and coffee since it’s already made.”
Simon said, sitting back down.
The three men discussed the case and the evening flew by. At about
midnight, Simon was leaving and turned to them both and said, “You’re the
best friends a man could ever have. Thank you for being here for me.”
“You’re very welcome, Simon.” Jim said as he watched his boss walk to
the elevator.
Blair called out, “See you tomorrow, Simon.”
“Night, guys.” Simon said as he got on the elevator to go home.
Jim turned to Blair and said, “All right, five seconds to get your ass
upstairs, I’ve wanted you all night long. You belong to me.”
Blair didn’t wait one second. He was up those stairs before Jim
was able to say, “hot damn.”
Jim was right behind him, smiling the entire way up. Yes, life
was good. Tomorrow they’d have the meeting with the girls about babies.
But right now, all he wanted was to be buried inside of Blair.
Soon he was.
Part 3
