Blair got up the following morning and had a hard time getting out of bed. Geeze, that damn Jim rode me hard and put me away wet. Smiling, he walked down the stairs to get into the shower. Once he climbed in and started the hot water over his abused body, he felt better. Not that Jim would ever hurt him, but damn, he was warm for his form last night.

“Chief.” Jim said quietly.

Blair about jumped and fell in the shower. “Geeze, why not scare your lover to death, man?”

“Sorry, I didn’t want to scare you but I’d like to be fucked and thought I’d come in there if that’s okay with you.” Jim said almost nervously.

Get your butt in here, Ellison. Since when do you have to ask? You know I love fucking you. All you gotta do is hint around and I’m there.”

“Thanks, Chief.” Jim said as he started kissing Blair.

Blair started getting Jim ready with some lotion that was in the shower for who knew what? Blair asked him, “Jim, what’s going on? Why were you so hot for me last night and why do you want this so badly this morning?”

“Chief, can’t I just want you? Can't I want you to want me?”

“Yeah, but you seem like there's something bothering you.” Blair said.

“Would you fuck me first and then we’ll talk?” Jim asked.

Blair pulled his fingers back and washed off, washed all the shampoo out of his hair and got out of the shower.

“Chief, where you going?”

“Guess.” Blair called out as he stormed out of the bathroom.

While getting dressed upstairs Jim walked up and sat naked on the bed and asked, “So what’s wrong, Blair? Sick of me already?”

“Shut your fucking mouth, Ellison. I hate you sometimes.” Blair said with tears in his eyes.

“Why didn’t you want to fuck me then? Why did you leave me in the bathroom by myself?” Jim asked, seriously seeming to not see the problem there.

“Because you’re acting differently and I’m terrified, that’s why.” Blair said shaking.

“Blair, I’m not different. I just wanted you badly last night. What’s wrong with that?”

“Nothing, Jim. I need to talk to you. There's something going on here. You’re going to talk to me or we won’t be fucking for a long time.” Blair said adamantly.

Blair went over, shoved Jim back on the bed and said, “Talk... now.”

Blair went into Jim’s arms and felt Jim shaking. Blair knew it wasn’t because he was cold, either. He pulled in closer to Jim and Jim was holding on to him for dear life.

“Blair, are you sure you want to be with me? Think about it for a day or two. I got the feeling that you were having second thoughts last night while we were in bed together. That’s why I went nuts and fucked you so hard. I’m really sorry about that.”

“Jim, where the hell's this coming from? Are you upset about becoming a dad? Is that where this started? Oh shit, I made that remark the other day about why don’t we do it the old fashioned way, is that it?”

“Part of it. You still want to fuck women when all I can think about is you.” Jim said sadly.

“Good, that’s all I want you to think about. I didn’t want to fuck a woman, Jim. I just thought it might make things a little easier that way. But as soon as I saw how freaked out you got I realized that wouldn’t be a good idea.”

“See, I’m so fucked up everything upsets me. Why would you want to be with me?” Jim asked pitifully.

The main reason would be the fact that I’m so in love with you that I can’t see straight. Pardon the pun.”

“You don’t want to be with any women?” Jim asked, scared to death of the answer.

“No, I don’t want to be with any woman. Ever. Now get up here and let me just hold on to you.” Blair said.

Jim crawled as close to Blair as he could get and was practically on top of him before Blair said, “Now can I fuck you?”

“Oh yeah.” Jim said spreading his legs.

“Jim, I don’t want to make you feel bad, but man, you’re a slut.” Blair said getting the lube out.

There were no more words spoken by Jim or Blair during their lovemaking. Blair wanted to keep focused on nothing but Jim. It worked; he fucked him well and good. Jim was even walking a little bit funny when they left the loft later that morning.

When they got to work late, Simon asked to talk to Blair in his office. Blair walked in and said, “Hey, Simon, how goes it?”

“Shut the door please, Sandburg.” Simon said.

Shutting the door, Blair looked at Simon and said, “Nothing happened to my mom, did it?”

Jim knocked at the door, opened it, stuck his head in and said, “Chief, what’s wrong?”

“Jim, just get in here.” Simon said, losing his patience. “Sandburg, nothing's wrong with your mom. Nothing's wrong with anyone.”

“Oh good. Why’d you want to see me then, Simon?” Blair asked.

“I wanted to talk to you about a few things but I wanted to do it alone. When we’re all together it makes me nervous.” Simon said, trying not to let his voice sound as shaky as it felt.

“Hey, I can take a hint. I’ll be out doing our paperwork.” Jim said smiling as he walked out of Simon’s office.

Blair said down in front of Simon’s desk and said, “So? What’s up?”

“I watched the first video, the one you marked as the one to watch and I was up half the night from watching it. Then I watched it four more times. Sandburg, I’m pretty certain that I want to be with a guy.”

“Well, good, then you at least know that much. You’re one step ahead of most folks.” Blair said crossing his legs at the knee and sitting back in the chair. “Anything else?”

“Well, I need to know where to go to meet men. Jesus, this is so embarrassing.” Simon said with his head down.

“Don’t be embarrassed. I have someone that wants to meet you. He’s tall and good-looking, Simon. He’d be really a good first time lover. Hell, he’d be a good anytime lover.”

“Really? Where do you know him from?” Simon asked.

“He’s the one that sells the specialty tapes and books for gay men. He’s one of the nicest people I know.”

“Maybe I could call him?” Simon asked.

“Yeah, let me get his number really fast. You tell him who you are and where you know of him from and then he’ll know who you are. We talked about you the other day when I picked up the tapes and books.”

“Sandburg, thanks again for being so understanding about me wanting to be with Jim. I think it was more being scared than wanting him.” Simon said.

“I’m glad to help, Simon. His name's Jeremy, by the way. He’s great.”

“Okay, I’ll give him a call this afternoon. If I can’t get the nerve up to go alone could we double the first time?”

Laughing, Blair said, “Simon, stop it right now. Jeremy's a cool guy. You’ll be very comfortable with him.”

“So the doubling up is out of the question?” Simon asked seriously.

“Well, first ask him out for lunch. Nothing else, just lunch. Then you decide what you want to do from there.” Blair said as he went to get the number.

“Are you getting the number, Sandburg?”

Blair turned to Simon and said, “Yeah, give me about two minutes to find it. Cool your heels, Simon. You don’t want to appear too eager.”

“Right, right.” Simon said.

“Simon, I was joking. You’re doing fine. I’ll be right back.” Blair went out to his desk, found Jeremy’s number and then wrote it on a paper and took it into Simon’s office and gave it to him.

“Thanks, again, Sandburg.” Simon called out as Blair was leaving.

“No problem, Simon. My pleasure.”

When Blair got to his desk, Jim said, “Oh, you’re going to pay for this big time, Chief.”

Laughing, Blair said, “Hey, he’s nervous. What could I do?”

“Giving out someone’s number?” Jim asked.

“Yeah, Jeremy, from the shop. You know him. That nice guy that sells the books and tapes.”

“Oh, he would be a good match for Simon.” Jim whispered into Blair’s space.

“Let’s get some of this paperwork done.” Blair said

They got busy doing all of the paperwork for that case that was now closed for the rapist. Once they got it all typed up and done they took it into Simon’s office and gave it to him.

As they were walking back out into the bullpen, Megan walked up and said, “Could you guys come over tonight for dinner?”

“Sure. Right, Chief?” Jim asked.

“Yeah, that would be good. We’ve got a lot of things to ask you before any decisions are made.” Blair said walking over to his desk.

“Good because we have a lot of things to ask you guys, too.” Megan said. “Why don’t you get to the apartment at 6:00 or as soon as you get out of here. Whichever comes first?”

“Okay, I’ll call about the loft that’s for sale, too. I wrote down the number this morning.” Jim said sitting down and starting more paperwork.

“Thanks, Jim. This is the amount we can spend so you have an idea of what we can afford.” Megan said.

He picked up the phone and dialed the man that owned the building and said, “Hi, Harry, this is Jim Ellison in 307. Do you still have the loft for sale there? Okay, well I just thought I’d ask. Thanks.” Jim hung up the phone and said, “He sold both units last week. He forgot to take the sign down. Sorry, Megan.”

We looked at a duplex. Ever considered moving, Jim and Blair?” Megan asked. “This place is great. It has a huge yard for the children to play in. Plus, it’s in a really nice area of town.”

Jim just frowned but Blair said, “Well, maybe you could tell us more about it tonight. We’ll discuss it then.”

“Okay, see you both tonight.” Megan called out as she walked back to her desk.

“Chief, I’m not moving. I’m not fucking moving.”

“Jim, you’re the one that said you wanted the babies close to you, not me.” Blair said, trying to defend his position.

“Fuck…” Jim said as he got up and walked down to the break room.

Blair’s phone rang and he picked it up saying, “Sandburg.”

“Blair? This is William Ellison.”

“Hi, Mr. Ellison. What’s going on?” Blair asked, trying to think of why he was calling.

“I was wondering if you and Jim wanted to come over and have dinner tomorrow night.”

“Well, Mr. Ellison, let me have him call you back as soon as he gets to his desk.” Blair said panicking.

“Okay, tell him to call me soon.” Mr. Ellison said.

When Jim came back to his desk, Blair said, “Your dad called and wants you to call him right away. He didn’t seem really happy.”

“Tough. I don’t give a shit if he’s happy or not.” Jim said smiling at Blair.

He picked up the phone and called his dad. “Hi, Dad, it’s me.”

“Jimmy, thanks for calling back. Did Blair tell you I want you to come for dinner tomorrow night?”

“Yeah, he told me, but I’ve got plans all week long. We'll have to plan something next week, maybe. Why? What’s up?”

“Jimmy, I’ve been getting phone calls about you and Blair. I need to know that they’re not true.” William said.

“Well, they are true. Deal with it, Dad. I gotta go. Bye.” Jim said hanging up the phone.

“He doesn’t approve?” Blair asked.

“I could tell he was embarrassed. He’ll get over it.” Jim said working on the next case. They both started working until it was time to go home for the day.

“So partner, you ready to go to Mel’s for dinner?” Blair asked.

“Yeah, I guess.” Jim said heading for the elevator.

Pulling Jim back to the desk he said, “What do you mean by that?”

“Mean by what?” Jim asked.

“Yeah, I guess? What in the hell does that mean? You either want to go or you don’t.” Blair said, losing his temper.

“I’m sorry. My dad upset me today.”

“I know he did, Jim. We’ll talk about that tonight. Okay?” Blair asked.

When they got in the truck, Jim reached over and buckled Blair’s seatbelt and that little sweet gesture made Blair forgive Jim for the snotty attitude upstairs. “I love you, Jim.”

Jim looked at Blair and smiled and said, “I love you, too, Chief.”

They drove over to Megan and Mel’s place and got out of the truck. Walking up to the front door Jim said, “Chief, we don’t have to move, do we?”

“No, Jim, we don’t have to do anything.”

Knocking on the front door, Megan opened it and asked them in. Jim could appreciate Mel’s cleaning habits. She was one clean woman. Everything had it’s place. He smiled when he looked around. “Sit down guys and I’ll get you a beer.” Megan said.

Mel finally came out of the kitchen and said, “Hey, guys. Good to see you.” Walking over to them she kissed them both on their cheeks.

Mel sat down and said, “Okay, first of all, I went to see a lawyer today. I want this all to be legal. Now, this lawyer said that he thinks we should get married for insurance purposes but I told him that I didn’t think that was a good idea. Anyhow, he drew up these papers of custody and so on. You and Blair can look them over while I set the table and get things done up for dinner.”

Jim started reading the papers and he said, “Chief, we can have them any time we want to. We don’t have to pay child support, and they don’t have to, either. They can’t leave the city or state without warning and our approval. They can’t leave the country for any reason unless we all went together.”

“So is that all you needed to get in writing?” Blair asked.

Jim answered, “I think it’s more than I was needing. This is really a good deal.”

When Mel and Megan came back into the room, Jim said, “Well, we could go ahead and have this notarized tomorrow if you have time.”

“We’re glad to hear you say that, but our neighbor is a notary. Do you mind doing it now?” Mel asked.

“No, it says we have rights. That’s all I was worried about.” Jim said. “Blair, do you have any more questions?”

“There's nothing about holidays on there. Who gets them on holidays?” Blair asked.

“I can type up another page and add that right now. What do you think is fair?” Mel asked.

“Well, I think that we should trade off the holidays. I guess we could work that out later.” Blair said looking at his feet.

Megan went and got the neighbor woman who had her notary stamp and they showed their ID’s to her and got all of the paperwork done. Once the woman went back home Mel made copies in her fax machine and gave them to Jim and Blair.

“Dinner’s ready if you want to eat now.” Megan said.

They all made their way into the kitchen and sat down at the table. They talked about work, home and where they should all live during dinner. Jim said, “I really don’t want to move from the loft.”

“Jim, if I got a really good deal on something that would have a place for our children to play in the back you wouldn’t even consider it?”

“Yeah, maybe. We’d have to see the place and make a decision from there.” Jim said.

Once dinner was done, they were all sitting in the living room and Megan said, “Jim, I don’t want to rush you but I’m ovulating right now. I was wondering if you’d like to start tonight.”

“I guess we could do that.” Jim said nervously.

Mel got up and grabbed a sterile cup for Jim to put it in. She said, “All you do is put it in here and we take it from there.”

Blair said, “Come on, tough guy, I’ll help you.” Jim saw the big smile on his face and slugged his arm.

Mel asked Blair if she could talk with him for a second. “We need a really sterile sample. So could you please wear the rubber gloves that are in there?”

“Sure, I guess.” Blair said, wishing they could do this the old fashioned way. Once they got into the bathroom Blair shut the door and Jim looked like he was going to puke or something.

“Jim, let's take things really slow and easy. Acceptable?” Blair walked up to him and started to undress him.

Jim said, “I don’t think I can get into this, Blair.”

Blair said, “Give me some time here, Jim.” He slid his hand into Jim’s shirt and started rubbing his nipples until they were hard then kissed him at the same time. Jim started getting hard. Blair slid Jim’s clothes off. Jim was standing there naked; Blair got on his knees and took Jim into his mouth. Jim pushed Blair away and said, “We’re supposed to give them a sterile sample.”

“Fuck sterile.” Blair said. He got the lid off the container and started working Jim until Jim was almost there. He pulled away and said, “Jim, warn me when you’re going to come. Understood?”

“Understood.” Jim said as he got closer and closer. “Blair, baby, I’m coming.”

Blair moved his mouth, put the cup there and milked Jim for all he had in him. When Jim was done Blair put the lid on and said, “I’ll be right back.” Blair walked out and gave it to Mel and said, "here you go.”

“Thanks, Blair. Tell Jim thanks from Megan.” Mel said as she walked into their bedroom.

When Blair walked back into the bathroom, Jim was still standing there naked. Blair started rubbing up against him and said, “Do you mind if I fuck you, big man?”

“No, I’d like that.” Jim got down on all fours and waited for Blair to do his thing.

Mel, in the mean time, was taking care of business in the bedroom with Megan. Megan said, “Let's keep our fingers crossed.”

As they lay in bed together they could hear Jim and Blair fucking each other. “Yeah, I think we did a good job choosing those two. They truly love each other. It’ll be a good environment for the children to grow up in.”

“Mel, I want this to work so bad.” Megan said, going further into her arms.

“If it doesn’t we’ll try again. Don’t worry now. I love you, Megan.” Mel said softly.

When the guys came out of the bathroom Megan said, “Blair, Mel should be ovulating in about a week so can we call when that happens?”

“Sure, that will be fine.” Blair got up and hugged Megan and said, “I hope it takes.”

“Thanks, I do, too.” Megan said and then she looked at Jim and said, “Thanks so much, Jim. I can’t begin to tell you how much this means to me.”

At about 10:00 they left and had a quiet drive home. Blair was busy in thought about being a dad. Jim was in a panic and didn’t even know why.

The next three weeks flew by. Blair asked Mel once about her ovulation and she got a sad look on her face and said, “I missed my period this month. Maybe next month.”

“Oh okay.” Blair said, hugging her trying to make her feel better.

Jim was walking down the hallway when he heard someone throwing up in the women’s restroom. He opened the door and said, “Megan? Is that you?”

He heard a moan come from a stall and he walked in and sure enough, it was Megan. Well, Jim knew someone who was pregnant. Jim smiled at her with happiness. He realized he wasn’t scared at all. He was happy and excited.

“Congratulations, Megan. When do you see the doctor?” Jim asked.

“Tomorrow. I can’t wait. I’m hoping he can tell me what to do for the nausea. I can’t work like this.”

“Can I tell Blair?” Jim asked.

“No, let's wait till I see the doctor and then we’ll tell both of them at the same time. Do you want to go with me for this first one?”

“Sure, what time?”

“It’s at 8:00 tomorrow morning. I’d really appreciate it.”

“Megan, I think you should take Mel with you, too. She’ll be hurt if you take only me.” Jim said.

“You’re right. Okay, then bring Blair and tell him I think I am but I'm not sure yet.” Megan said.

Jim walked out of the restroom once Megan was doing better. He went up to Blair and said, “Chief, do you have any breathing exercises for Megan for helping with nausea?”

“Hot damn, she’s pregnant? That’s wonderful. Congratulations, Jim.” Blair said, smiling.

“She’s pretty sick in the restroom. I was hoping that you had some ideas for her.” Jim said.

“Oh yeah, I have a lot of ideas. I’ll write them all down. She’ll feel better in no time.” Blair said as he headed into the restroom to see Megan. Hey, Megan. Congratulations. Jim’s excited. I’m excited, too. You’ll be excited once you stop puking.” He handed her the paper and said, “Follow all of these instructions and you’ll feel a lot better each and every day. Try it, what could you lose?”

“Thank you, Sandy.” Megan said started to stand up. Glancing at the note, she saw all of the things she’d have to get. “Sandy, do you suppose you could pick the stuff up for me. I can’t even be around many smells these days or I throw up. Stores suck.”

“Sure, I’ll pick up all of the things you’ll need tonight and bring them over then.” Blair said as he walked out of the restroom. He was almost bouncing. Well, they were going to have a baby. If Megan was the only one to have one then so be it.

The day seemed to go by really fast. Jim and Blair were working a new case, a string of robberies. They’d have their hands full with that one. On the way home that night, they stopped by the health food store for all of the things that Blair had written down for Megan. Once they got it all, they went over to Megan and Mel’s apartment.

Jim knocked on the door and Mel said, “We were just getting ready to call you. Guess who’s ovulating?”

“Well, since Megan isn’t, that would be you?” Jim said, laughing.

Megan handed the little cup to Jim and said, “Wanna help Blair this time, Jim?”

“Sure. I always like helping.” Jim said, laughing, as he pushed his partner into the bathroom.

Jim got Blair hot and hard and started giving him a kick ass blow job. He pulled away and said, “Tell me when you’re ready to come.” Then he went back to sucking like a madman. Blair pushed Jim’s head in closer and closer to his cock. Blair really didn’t want him to move, and decided that he’d not tell Jim this time. It felt too fucking good. But Jim could not only feel, he could taste when Blair was coming, so he pulled away and put the cup there and he milked everything Blair had to give. “What was that about, Blair?”

“I didn’t want you to stop. Could you do that again and this time not move?” Blair asked.

“Yeah, I can do that. I’ll be right back.” Jim said as he took the cup into Megan to use for Mel.

“Thanks, Jim. Tell Blair thank you from Mel.” Megan said.

Jim went into the bathroom and gave Blair a proper blowjob this time. Blair almost screamed when he came it felt so good. Blair pulled Jim up and said, “Want me to take care of you, Jim?”

“Too late, hot stuff. You make me so hot just doing you, I come from the smell alone.” Jim said, smiling.

They went home and made arrangements with Megan and Mel to meet them at the doctor's office. They both crawled into bed and slept like logs. Both men were exhausted.

Jim and Blair were about ten minutes late the next morning at the doctor's office, but Megan was still waiting there. She said, “Sandy, that stuff worked wonders, I haven’t thrown up since last night. I feel a lot better.”

The nurse called her in and Mel went in with her. Then the doctor called them into her office and said, “Well, gentlemen, it seems we have a winner here. She’s four weeks pregnant. She’s doing very well. I don’t really have much more to tell you. You’re all welcome to come when we do the ultrasounds. We do two of them during the pregnancy.

Once they got out to the parking lot, Megan hugged both Jim and Blair and told them congratulations. “Where's Mel?” Jim asked.

“She’s having a test done where they can tell if she’s pregnant or not. They can tell after one night sometimes.” Megan said.

Mel came walking out and said, “Guess who else is pregnant?” And she hugged Megan, Blair and Jim. They were a very happy foursome.

Now they just had to tell everyone at the station. Family members would have to be told, too. Well, everything couldn’t be perfect.

When Jim and Blair got to the station, Simon asked, “You both want to have lunch on me today?”

“Hell yes, I never pass up free lunch.” Blair said laughing.

“Everything all right, sir?” Jim asked.

“Everything’s great. I just wanted to tell you both some things and wanted to show my appreciation for helping me through all of this.”

Blair bumped into Jim and said, “Told ya.” Both men smiled and Jim said, “We’ll go to lunch with you, sir. We have some things to tell you, too.”

Jim was sitting at his desk talking to a victim of one of the robberies when his phone rang. He said, “Excuse me a moment, please. Ellison, can I help you?”

“Jim, this is Harry. I wanted to let you know that we still have one of the lofts open. One person’s loan didn’t go through. Still interested?”

“Oh yeah, Harry, can I talk to you about it later. I’m right in the middle of a case.”

“Okay, we’ll talk to you about it tonight. Goodbye.”

Hanging up the phone, a huge smile went on Ellison’s face. Hot damn, we don’t have to move now.

Jim went back to filling out the paperwork for the robbery victim and had him sign everything. Before he knew it, lunchtime was there. Blair walked up to his desk and said, “Hey, you ready for lunch yet? I was out with Brown all morning and I’m starving.”

“Hey, Chief, glad to see you made it back. I’ll go and tell Simon we’re ready.” Jim said as he got up and walked into Simon’s office after knocking. He laid the paperwork on Simon’s desk and said, “Here's that robbery form that needed to be filled out. It’s finished. Ready for lunch or what?”

Smiling, Simon stood up and said, “Okay, I can take a hint. Let’s meet down at my car in about ten minutes. I have to finish a few things before we leave.”

“See you in ten, Simon.” Jim said as he walked out of the office.

Megan walked up to Jim and said, “Ellison, could I talk to you for a moment? It’s really important.”

“Sure, where? But I only have ten minutes till lunch and I’m going with Simon and Blair.”

“How about the women’s restroom, no one will be in there. It’s important.” Megan said as she moved off down the hallway.

By this time, Jim was getting nervous wondering if something happened to their child. Megan was scaring the shit out of him. Once they got there, he listened to see if anyone else was in there, but Megan was right, it was empty.

“Okay, Conner, what’s going on?”

“My folks are coming in two months, Jim. Will you marry me?”

“What? Will I marry you? Is that what you just said?”

“Yeah, Ellison, that’s what I said. My folks are very old fashioned and I was hoping that I could come up with something soon about how this baby came about, but now they’ll see me while I’m carrying it.”

“And you think marrying me will make them happy? We live in two separate places, Megan. What the hell are you thinking?”

Then he looked over and saw the trembling lower lip and the tears starting down her cheeks. “Conner, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to yell at you.”

“Ellison, I need a name on the birth certificate and a way to stay in the states. Please, I would never bug you for anything else, you know that.”

“Let me talk to Blair about it first, all right, Conner?”

“Okay, I can live with that.” Megan said, trying to calm down a little.

Jim put his hand over her belly and told her, “Hold still, I want to see if I can sense this baby yet.” In a few moments, he had a big smile on his face. The baby’s heart is beating nice and strong. It’s wonderful. If you ever wonder if he or she is moving around enough, just ask me. Wait until I tell Blair that I can feel her.”

“Her? Jim, you can tell what it is?” Conner asked with a huge smile on her face, too.

“No, I just said her. Sorry. I’ll call the baby an it from now on.”

“I like the idea of calling her a name. I was thinking of names last night and came up with a nice one. What do you think of Shannon?”

“I love the name Shannon. I had a Great-Uncle with that name. Then I had a girl cousin with this name, when I was young. I like it very much.”

“Don’t you think Shannon Ellison sounds nice?” Megan asked smiling.

“You don’t think that it’s a bad thing having both names ending in on?” Jim asked.

“Nope, I think it sounds perfect. Besides, I like the nickname of Shae for Shannon. If you wouldn’t mind.”

“What happens if it’s a boy?” Jim said laughing.

Then I’d like you to have a Jr. if you don’t mind.” Megan said shyly.

“We’ll talk about this later. Let’s get out there, my partner's probably going nuts trying to figure out what happened to me.” Jim said walking out the door.

Blair spotted him letting Jim see the instant relief spread on his face and this made Jim smile.

“Sorry, Chief, Conner was having a crisis.” Jim said as he picked up his jacket and pushed Blair towards the elevator.

Blair got a worried look on his face and said, “Is everything okay, Jim?”

“Yeah, she just needed to ask me a few things. We’ll talk about it at lunch. Not to worry, Chief. Everything’s fine.”

When they got down to the garage, Simon was puffing on a cigar but put it out as soon as they walked close to the car.

“Simon, you really should stop smoking those.” Blair nagged.

“Sandburg, I won’t smoke it when I’m around you, but I needed it today, okay?” Simon answered.

“Geeze, what a fucking grouch.” Blair whispered and Jim started laughing.

“Very funny, Sandburg. What are you whispering to Ellison?”

“Nothing, sir. Why would I want to do that?” Blair said as he got into the back seat.

Jim got into the front seat with Simon and said, “We’re dying to know what’s going on, Simon. So fill us in, will ya?”

“Well, I called him and asked him out for dinner last night. We met at a nice restaurant, ate a nice dinner, had nice conversation and then made a date for tonight. All in all, it was very nice.”

“Wait a minute, you’ve used nice way too many times, Simon. What’s going on?” Blair asked.

“He’s gorgeous to start with. Why didn’t you tell me how nice looking he was? Then there is the fact that he’s sexier than I could even hope to find a man.” Simon said, smiling.

“Well, glad that we could help.” Jim said.

“We? We?” Blair asked incredulously.

Both men ignored Blair and Simon said, “You know him, right, Jim? Is he gorgeous or what?”

“Well, he’s not really my type, but yeah he’s nice looking.” Jim said.

“Excuse me, are you both forgetting that it was ‘I’ that set this date up?” Blair asked.

Again, both men ignored him as Simon asked, “Did you ever notice his eyes, Jim? Shit, he has sex appeal written all over him.”

Blair just sat there with his mouth hanging open when Jim said, “Now I do have to agree with you there. He’s got plenty of sex appeal dripping from his body.” Both men started laughing.

Blair got up from the table and left. He was pissed off. What the fuck was going on? His man was drooling over another man. This wasn’t going to happen. He walked back to the table and said, “Fuck you, Ellison. Get your ass outside where I can talk to you.”

“Chief, hold your voice down. Everyone's looking.” As soon as he got his sense back, he knew he had said the wrong thing. Jim wasn’t at all prepared for the punch in the mouth from Blair. Therefore, it not only hurt, but also knocked him on his ass. Then Blair walked out of the place, leaving a very distressed Simon and Jim.

Jim caught up to Blair and said, “Chief, slow down, I want to talk to you. What’s going on? You’re the one that set the date up for him. You said to encourage him. That’s what I was doing.”

“Jim, you were not encouraging him at all. You loved the idea of talking about another man with Simon. I hate you sometimes.” Blair blurted out.

“Blair, stop, I need to talk to you.” Jim said as Blair finally stopped his non-stop moving. Jim turned him towards him and said, “Chief, I love you more than anyone I’ve ever loved in my life. I don’t have a thing for Jeremy. I think he’s very handsome, but he’s no Blair Sandburg. I only want you, you’re all I ever want in my life.”

“Okay, let's say I’m buying this. Why did you and Simon exclude me from the conversation? Huh?” Blair asked, waiting to see what Jim could come up with.

“Because we’re insensitive clods? Why else. We’re jerks, Blair. We were jerks yesterday and we’ll be jerks tomorrow. You have to put up with me because you love me.” Jim said.

Smiling over at Jim, Blair said, “All right, we’re going back but you’ll pretend like I’m actually in the same room from now on. I want some of that attention, do you understand?”

“Understood, Blair. I love you.” Jim said as he leaned down and kissed Blair right out in the open in front of people. Blair was taken aback with that, but loved it none-the-less.

When they got back to the restaurant, Simon was waiting patiently. “I’m so sorry, Sandburg. I keep forgetting that you’re not used to the way Jim and I talk sometimes.”

“Simon, I want to hear about this date. Then I want to hear about what else is happening. If you and Jim ever exclude me from the conversation again, Jim will be minus his equipment.”

Simon laughed as he said, “Fair enough, Sandburg. Well, the dinner went really well. He’s such a great guy. We talked about anything and everything. He happens to be a Big Brother once a week, so was glad to hear that I had Daryl. Now, that would mean I would have to tell Daryl and I don’t know if I want to.”

“What are you talking about? You’re not going to tell your son that you’re gay?” Jim asked.

“I get this from the man that would just as soon have no one know about anything in his life.” Simon said smiling.

“I don’t know, Simon. You missed the great kiss he just gave me out on the street.” Blair said quietly and smiling up at Jim. Jim leaned over and kissed him there in the restaurant. Simon noticed that no one seemed to notice. No one seemed to care one way or the other.

“Well, it’s going to take me awhile to get used to this. Anyhow, Jeremy said we’re going to take things slow to start. We’re going out for dinner, then dessert and coffee at his place and then we’re just going to make out. His words, not mine.” Simon said, starting to feel just a little bit uncomfortable telling this to Jim and Blair.

“Sounds like a good plan to me.” Blair said. “Are you going to take any supplies...just in case?”

“Jesus, Sandburg, I don’t want him to think I’m easy.” Simon said, not looking Jim or Blair in the eyes.

“Simon,” Jim asked, “do you mind if I ask how long it’s been since you’ve been with anyone?”

“It’s been awhile but I don’t want him to think I’m easy.” Simon said again.

“Simon, I think you’re being smart. That way you can just take this slow and maybe not get to the fucking part for another two or three weeks.” Blair whispered.

“Shit, you’re trying to kill me, aren’t you? I wanted to do it last night.” Simon said, trying to look everywhere but at his friends.

“Simon, calm down and just take things as they come. If he wants to and you want to, do it.” Jim said. “You’ll be so fucking glad you did.”

“Well, before I forget, Blair, let me thank you again for introducing me to Jeremy. He’s everything I could want in a man.” Simon said, finally looking at Blair.

Blair beamed, as he said, “No problem, Simon. I knew you’d be perfect for him.”

“Well, we’ll see how things go when I talk to Daryl this weekend. I figured that I had to tell him. I just don’t know how.” Simon said nervously.

“Hey, he knows about me and Jim. Why would this be any different?” Blair asked.

“Duh. Chief, this is his dad.” Jim said.

They finished their lunch and Simon paid the check and they headed back to the station. Jim turned to Simon and said, “Simon, what would you do if I told you that Blair and I were going to be fathers?”

“What?” Simon asked staring at his detective as if he’d grown another head.

“Well, Conner and Murdock wanted to have children, so I’m fathering Conner’s and Sandburg's fathering Murdock’s.” Jim said all in one big breath.

“Jesus, what the hell were you guys thinking of when you came to this arrangement?”

“Simon, it’s going to be all right. It’s a good idea. We both love kids, so it’ll work out.” Blair said trying to calm things down before Jim got pissed.

“Hell! I know you both love kids. You love Daryl but you don’t have to keep him.” Simon said.

“Sir, with all due respect, we don’t have to keep these babies, either. We’ll only have them on weekends and stuff like that.” Jim said, trying not to get pissed off.

“And, Ellison, you think that will be enough for you? You won’t want to keep those babies any longer than on weekends?”

“I don’t know, sir. We’ve never given it much thought, but it’s too late now. Both women are pregnant.” Jim said turning away from his boss and looking out the window.

Blair sat in the back seat and could see the Ellison walls coming up. He was going to shut himself off to Simon and maybe Blair for a few days. God, Blair hated that. Finally, Blair said, “Simon, we’re really excited about it. We’re hoping that you’ll be there for us.”

“You know what? You’re right. I’m not being a very good friend at all. Just because my son’s life was a mess doesn’t mean that yours will have to be.” Simon said. “I’m sure you four will work things out a lot better than Joan and I did. I’m sorry, Jim. I really didn’t mean to hurt your feelings. Yours, either, Sandburg.”

“You didn’t hurt my feelings, sir.” Jim said, but the damage might have been done as far as Blair could tell. Then Jim turned and looked at Blair. Blair gave him his best smile and whispered, “He’s trying, big man. Give him the benefit of the doubt.”

“I’m sorry for jumping down your throat, Simon.” Jim said, trying to smile.

When they drove into the garage, they all got out and Simon said, “Jim and Blair, congratulations to both of you. I wish you the best of luck.”

“Thank you, Simon.” Blair said quickly and grabbed Jim and moved him towards the elevator.

Once they were all in the elevator, Blair’s cell phone went off. He answered, “Sandburg.”

“Hey, Blair, it’s Jeremy. Wondered if you’d seen Simon today.”

“Hey, yeah, I have, why?”

“I think I might have found the one, Blair, and I’m not joking. He’s everything I’m looking for in a man.”

“Good, glad to hear it. Can I call you right back?” Blair asked.

“Sure, call me, I’m here at the store. You know the number. Thanks again, Blair.”

As Blair put his cell in his pocket Jim said, “Who was that, Chief?”

“Just a friend, man.” Then the door opened and Blair took off to his desk and Jim was following very closely behind him.

“Okay, Chief, you wanna tell me who that was or do I have to get ugly?” Jim asked while getting seriously pissed off.

“It was Jeremy and hush.” Blair said.

“Oh.” Jim said having the decency to blush. “Sorry, Chief. I get very jealous sometimes.”

“Jim, what did you want to ask me at lunch today anyhow?” Blair asked, remembering suddenly about Megan.

“Conner wants to get married.” Jim said with not much enthusiasm.

“To you?” Blair asked. “What the fuck's happening here? I must have missed a step. Want to fill me in here, Jim?”

“Her folks are coming from Australia in two months and she can’t be pregnant without a husband. She asked if I would do it for that reason. What do you think?”

“I don’t care, Jim. As long as you don’t have to live with her, why should I care.” He said, smiling at his love.

“Well, that’s just it, Chief, when her folks are here, we’d have to have her at our place or I’d have to be at hers. So her folks believe it.”

“That makes sense. Well, it won’t bother me; it’s not like you’re going to get the hots for Megan, is it?”

“Ha ha, Sandburg. You’re really funny today.” Jim said sarcastically.

“For insurance reasons alone I think it might not be a bad idea.” Blair said.

“Then she said she has a name picked out for a girl and wanted to know what we thought of it. It’s Shannon.”

“Oh, I like that. Great name.” Blair said. “What if you have a boy?”

“She likes Jim Jr. However, I’m not sure how I feel about that. I’ll have to give it some thought.”

“Jim, are you going to tell your family about any of our life?” Blair asked quietly.

Trying to appear to be busy with the paperwork on his desk, he ignored Blair. “Jim, I know you heard me. Are you going to tell them or not?”

“We’ll think about it, Chief. When it’s get’s closer to the time of actually having them, I think my dad will come around easier. He’s not going to be happy finding out his son's gay. I already know that. Steven won’t mind but he won’t care about having babies around, either.”

“Jim, you make your family sound like they don’t care about you.”

“We’ll talk about it later on, okay, Chief?” Jim said standing up to go and make copies of his work. Blair knew that Jim didn’t want to discuss this at the station and he understood that. Blair got back to work and finished his reports.

Jim sat at his desk pretending to do work while he thought about all that was going on right now. First, he had to tell his dad and Steven about he and Blair. He wasn’t looking forward to that but he’d do it because he knew that keeping it from them hurt Blair. Second, they had to tell Naomi about them. That wasn’t going to be a good thing, either. It was bad enough that Blair was now a cop. Now he was a cop’s lover. Not good. Wait till she found out about being a Gramma. This might be good. Jim found himself smiling a little. Next up would be telling Conner that he’d marry her. He wasn’t crazy about that idea at all. If she was married to him, it might make it easier to keep her in Cascade as the years went by. He realized he really wanted a child. Isn’t it funny how a person doesn’t even think about this all their life and then suddenly it hits them right between the eyes and makes you want one big time. He’d have to buy part of the Loft next door for the girls so that they’d be closer to him. He wanted to start work right away on homemade cribs for the babies. The office would now become a spare room for the babies. Oh yeah, the sound of that was better and better every time he thought about it.

Jim stopped thinking and picked up the phone and called Conner’s number. She picked up four desks over and said, “Conner, may I help you?”

“Hey, lady, wanna get married?” Jim asked laughing softly.

“Jim? You mean it?” Conner asked. “You’re not just having one over on me, are you?”

“Would I do that to the mother of my child?” Jim asked in all seriousness.

“Thank you so much, Jim. When can we do this?”

“Well, I think we should have a small wedding with all of our friends and we can take pictures for your mom and dad. What do you think?”

Conner slammed the phone down and ran over to Jim’s desk and said, “Stand up, Ellison.”

Blair watched smiling, having heard what Jim had just said. Jim got up looking embarrassed and Conner wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him hard on the lips and said, “We have to make it look good, okay, Jim?”

“Sure.” Jim kissed her back and everyone in the bullpen started clapping.

Simon walked out and said, “What’s going on here? Did everyone lose their work and need to be assigned to new work?”

“Sir, I just asked Conner to marry me and she said yes.” Jim said.

Simon’s mouth dropped open, as well as Joel’s, Browns and Rafe’s. They all knew about Jim and Blair and wondered what in the hell was going on.

Megan walked over to Blair’s desk and she said, “Sandy, do you want to help with the wedding arrangements? I don’t know the first thing about them.”

“And you looked at me and said, Oh I bet he knows all about weddings.” Blair said, laughing very hard.

“Well, you know more than I do. At least you’re from the states.” Conner said.

“Okay, I’ll help. Don’t worry. You better call Mel and let her know what’s going on, Conner.” Blair said quietly to Megan, who said, “Thank you for reminding me. She’d be pissed if she heard from someone else.”

Conner kissed Blair on the cheek and then kissed Jim on the cheek, too, before leaving the room. She walked down to the break room and made the call to Mel. Mel was very pleased to hear that her love wouldn’t be leaving because of problems with her Australian papers. They talked awhile and then Megan went back out to the bullpen.

Joel walked over to Megan and said, “Megan, this is nothing against you but why would Jim be marrying you when he’s with Blair?”

“Joel, don’t worry, he’s still with Blair. We’ll tell you all about this at poker night on Saturday.” Megan said smiling as she walked off.

“Thank God, I was hoping that nothing happened. They’re the best thing for each other. Don’t you agree?” Joel asked hesitantly.

“You bet. I love both of them. Jim’s just doing this as a favor, Joel. Not to worry, mate.”

Jim’s phone rang and it was William Ellison. “Hi, Dad. I was getting ready to call you.”

“Why? Is something wrong?”

“No, there's nothing wrong but I wanted to tell you that I’m getting married in two weeks. Thought you might want to know.” Jim said casually.

“What in the hell's going on, Jimmy?”

“I’ll tell you all about it later, Dad. I’m right in the middle of the squad room right now. Not the time or place.” Jim said quietly as he looked over to see what Blair was doing. Seeing Blair smile was his undoing. “Dad, could you come over tonight for dinner? I have to some things to tell you.”

“Yes, I can come. Do you want me to bring Steven, too?” William asked.

“Yeah, Dad. That would be great. We’ll see you at 7:00 for dinner.” Jim said hanging up and asking Blair, “How do you feel about making dinner tonight?”

Laughing, Blair said, “Moot point now, isn’t it?”

They got their things ready and made their way to the truck for the drive home. Once inside the cab of the truck, Jim pulled over to the side of the street and parked and said, “Blair, I love you more than you’ll ever know.”

“Man, I love when you sweet talk me, baby.” Blair said, moving closer to Jim. Jim then took Blair into his arms and kissed him passionately.

Blair finally pulled away and said, “Okay, let's take this home. We can talk about it when we get there and make dinner second.”

Jim put his flashing light on the dash and flipped his siren on and took off making great time to the loft.

Both men practically ran upstairs. As soon as they were inside the door they were undressing each other and running up the stairs to their bed.

Jim kissed him hard and said, “I really do love you, baby.”

“I know you do, Jim. I love you back.” Blair said going in for more of that kissing.

Jim pulled back from Blair and said, “Fuck…”

“Well, that's what we’re up here to do, Jim.”

“No, my dad's here. I hear him talking to a neighbor in the elevator.” Jim said angrily.

“It’s okay, tough stuff, we’ll get dressed as fast we undressed. Hurry it up. Come on.” Blair said.

They quickly dressed and went downstairs. Blair took some food out of the fridge to start for dinner. He guessed he’d be making dinner a lot sooner than they expected.

Blair washed up and started making dinner while Jim paced in front of the balcony doors. He was pissed off. His dad wasn’t supposed to be there yet. Why was he there already? This stank of trouble. He knew that his dad wasn’t known for doing anything nice unannounced so it had to be something not so nice. Shit…

When he heard his dad walk up to the front door, Jim waited until the older man knocked before he opened it. As he stood aside for his father, Jim said, “Hi, Dad. What’s up?”

“Jimmy, let’s not start lying first thing. I know what’s going on and I wanted to talk some sense into you before you destroy your reputation.”

“Dad, let me tell you right now, if you upset Blair while you’re here I will never have you in our home again.” Jim said very quietly. Blair looked at them from the kitchen wondering what Jim was whispering about. Blair just knew that William was up to no good and it pissed him off. He knew that Jim would defend him to his death and he didn’t want that to happen. He wanted everyone to get along. Why couldn’t this happen? Why did everyone always have to make trouble?

Still whispering, Jim leaned into his dad and said, “My reputation isn’t what you’re worried about. You couldn't care less about mine. It’s your precious reputation that you’re so fucking worried about.”

“Jimmy, do not talk to me like that. I’m your father.” William said sternly, almost like he was in control of Jim.

“Don’t talk to me like I’m a child, Dad. I mean it! If you upset Blair, you’ll never come back.” Jim said as he went into the kitchen.

William wasn’t one bit scared off by Jim and followed him in and said, “What do you have to say for yourself, Mr. Sandburg?”

“Dad, I said to shut your mouth.” Jim said and walked out of the kitchen.

Blair just stood there with his mouth opening and closing like a large fish. Finally, composing himself he said, “Mr. Ellison, please sit down and we’ll try and discuss this like adults.”

“I want to know what you did to my son that turned him into a fag.” William hollered across the room.

Blair saw Jim coming towards his dad, knew Jim was going to punch him and stood in front of William. Blair shoved Jim out of the kitchen and then turned towards William and said, “Get out of our home. Right now. Your son was about to punch your lights out. What a nice thought for family gatherings.”

“This is my son’s home. Not yours, you fag.” William yelled into Blair’s face. Jim came around, grabbed his dad’s shirt and said, “Fuck you, Dad. Do you understand that? Now get the hell out of our home.” Jim shoved his dad out the front door and slammed the door shut.

Blair looked at Jim breathing hard and said, “Well, that went really well.”

Jim glared at Blair and walked up the stairs. Blair heard Jim hit the bed with all of his weight. Man, he’s hurt. Why didn’t I think before I said that last remark? Sandburg, you're such a fucking moron sometimes.

Blair walked up the stairs and sat on the edge of the bed. Jim’s back was to him. “Jim, I’m sorry for that last remark I said. It was cold, cruel and stupid. I love you and I don’t mean to hurt you.”

Jim turned towards Blair and Blair could see the unshed tears waiting in Jim’s eyes. Blair got onto the bed, pulled Jim into his arms and held on tight. He felt Jim start to tremble and started to rub Jim’s back. He didn’t say a word. Neither did Jim. This is how it went sometimes with Jim. Quiet was sometimes better.

After about an hour, Blair started falling asleep with Jim still in his arms. Jim said, “Blair, let's get up and have some dinner. What do you say?”

“Yeah, that’ll be good. I have everything made. Just have to heat it up.”

“Thank you for keeping me from punching my dad. I can’t imagine anything worse than that happening to me.”

“Glad to do it, hot stuff. Now let’s go and eat.” Blair said as he leaned in and kissed Jim. Jim kissed him back even harder. Jim began moving over Blair and pressing into him. Blair was starting to moan with need and all of a sudden, Jim said, “Fuck…”

“Yeah, I want to, do it.” Blair said.

“No, I mean, fuck, there's someone at the door.” Jim said.

“Are we ever going to be allowed to fuck?” Blair asked as he got up and straightened his clothing. “I’m going to walk around all fucking night with a hard on.” Blair walked down the stairs saying this just loud enough for his sentinel to hear. Jim started smiling when he realized that Blair was as horny as he was, damn it anyhow.

Jim got downstairs and opened up the door before Steven had a chance to knock. “Wow, what the hell did you do to Dad? He said he’s never coming up here again. He told me to tell you to go to hell and he never wanted to see you again. Whatever you did, maybe, I could do it, too.” Steven said smiling.

“Come on in, Steven. Are you going to stay for dinner or not?” Jim asked.

“Well, yeah, I’m starving and I knew that Blair would be cooking, so I came that way.”

“Very funny, little brother.” Jim said as he hugged Steven. Steven, sensing that Jim seemed to need this, just let him hold him tight.

Once Jim let go, Steven walked into the kitchen, hugged Blair and said, “So, did I interrupt something just now?”

Blair backed away from Steven with his face burning. Jim said, “What did you do?”

“Nothing, big bro, I was kidding with Blair, why?”

“Because I think Blair has taken as much as he can in one night from my family. Just to get this out in the open, Blair and I are seeing each other.” Jim said without taking a breath.

“And?” Steven said. “What else?”

“No, that’s it. I just wanted you to know upfront that we’re sleeping together.” Jim said, not looking at his brother but instead looking at Blair to see how he was. Blair’s heart rate had doubled since this conversation had started.

“Like this is news, Jim. I thought you'd been sleeping together for a while now. I feel kind of dumb at this moment.” Steven said.

Blair started laughing and said, “Thank you, Steven. You don’t know how much that means to us.”

“Hey, are we going to eat or what?” Steven asked.

Jim walked up and hugged him tight and said, “I love you, Steven. Thank you.”

“Hey, Jimmy, you’re my big brother, I’m going to love you no matter what. In addition, I really like Blair. And I love his cooking.”

“Well, in that case, sit down. We have more to tell you during dinner.” Jim said.

They all sat down to dinner and Jim and Blair went into the story of how they came to the point that they were going to be daddies. Steven said, “Holy shit. I’m going to be an Uncle twice in one year? That’s so great. Congratulations, Jimmy. You, too, Blair.” He got up, gave each of them a hug and then sat back down to finish dinner.

The dinner went very well. Blair and Steven cleaned up the kitchen while Jim just sat in the living room feeling sorry for himself. Steven looked over at Blair and said, “It’ll be all right, Blair. He’ll get over it in a few days. He’s always hurt from things Dad says or does. Then it goes away.”

“Excuse me... did you both forget that I can hear everything you can say?” Jim grumbled.

Both Blair and Steven started laughing. Steven walked into the living room and said, “Jimmy, I have to go. I have an early meeting. So, I just wanted to say thank you again for having me. Keep me posted on everything." Jim stood up and Steven hugged him very hard and held on for a long time. Jim let him. Jim needed it, too.

“Thanks for coming, Stevie. I love you little brother and you come by now and then and see us.” Jim said.

Blair walked up to Steven and hugged him and said, “Thanks for coming, Steven. Call me for lunch in the next couple of weeks. Jim and I would love to see you more often.”

“Thanks, Blair. I’ll see you both in a couple of weeks. Take care.” Steven said as he walked out of the loft.

Jim walked to the balcony and saw his dad down in the parking lot. Jim put his forehead against the window and just stood there. Blair walked over and said, “What’s going on, hot stuff?”

My dad's still sitting in his car. Steven just walked past him. He didn’t even notice that he was still there. What does he want, Blair?”

“He wants his son to come back to him the way he thought he was but he can’t have that, so now he doesn’t know what to do.”

“What do you suggest? Should I just leave him in the parking lot all night long?”

“Hell, no, I want sex sometime tonight. With our luck we’d just get started and he’d come to the door.” Blair said, laughing. “Go down, get him and ask him to come upstairs for a nice calm talk.”

“I love you, baby.” Jim said kissing Blair quickly as he made his way downstairs to get his dad.

Before long, Jim came walking through the doorway with a very miserable William Ellison. Blair had to bite the inside of his cheek to keep from smiling. It was almost cute the way he was following Jim around the loft.

Jim said, “Blair, come and sit down. We’re going to talk to Dad now.”

Blair went in and sat down across the room and Jim said, “Blair, what the fuck are you doing over there?”

Blair smiled, put his hair behind his ear, and blushed. He got up and moved next to Jim and sat down. Jim took his hand in his larger one and held on for dear life. Blair realized right then that Jim was scared. He was scared of what his dad thought. Shit, will wonders never cease?

Jim and Blair talked to William, telling them all about them, well, not everything, but pretty close. Then Jim told him that he was going to be a grandfather. William beamed and said, “You’re adopting?”

“No, we have two women friends that both wanted children so we’re going to do it together.” Jim answered.

“Things sure have changed since I was young. Whatever makes you happy, Jimmy? I’m truly sorry for what I said before. I was just shocked.” William said apologetically.

“Blair makes me happy, Dad. You’ll get used to it as time goes on.” Jim said.

“William, would you like some dinner? I have plenty and it was pretty good.” Blair asked.

“I wouldn’t mind at all. I’m quite hungry. Thank you, Blair.”

“You’re very welcome, sir. Now come on into the kitchen and we’ll get you something.” Blair said walking into the kitchen and pulling things out of the refrigerator.

William sat down at the kitchen table and Jim sat next to him and said, “Dad, it’s okay if you don’t understand. I can see where you’re coming from. Just don’t call Blair names, ever again.” William pulled Jim into his arms and held on tight. He had never held Jim this hard before and for a moment, it scared Jim. He thought something else was wrong. Then he realized that his dad was just trying to be a dad.

“Jimmy, I hope you’ll let me come and see you and Blair now and then. I would also love to see the babies when they’re born.”

“Dad, I’d love you to come by now and then. And we’d love the babies to have all of their grandparents around.” Jim said.

Blair brought over a plate of food and set it down in front of William. The older man looked up at Blair and smiled and said, “Steven's right. You are a good cook.”

“Well, William, you better taste it first.” Blair said, laughing.

The three men talked for the next hour and then William left to go home. Jim walked his dad down to his car, since it was so late. Then he locked up the loft and got ready for bed. When he got upstairs, Blair was waiting on the bed, naked. Jim licked his lips and started tearing his clothing off as fast as he could.

He was on the bed and Blair said, “Lay back, big man, I’m going to take care of you tonight.” And take care of him he did. He started at Jim’s neck and moved down slowly, very slowly, licking and sucking his way down to one of Jim’s favorite parts. The navel seemed to be ultra sensitive to Jim. Blair licked around it until Jim was pushing his stomach up to meet Blair’s tongue. He then spread Jim’s legs as far as he could and started kissing the insides of his thighs. This always made Jim nuts. Blair made it to Jim’s wonderful cock. Jim had one of the most fantastic cocks that had ever been put on a man. Not that Blair would know from experience but he’d seen quite a few in showers in school, college and at the PD. Jim’s was the most gorgeous cock he’d even seen.

Taking it into his mouth, Jim said, “Blair, I’m not going to be able to hold on long.” Blair started sucking hard on the cock until Jim was moaning so loudly that it was almost funny. Jim wasn’t normally quite this loud, making Blair all the harder while he was doing this. Jim said, “Blair, please, fuck me. Now.”

Blair got the lube and the condoms out and Jim said, “Fuck me now.”

“Jim, you know better than that. We have to get you ready. And that's just what Blair did, smiling the entire time. When Jim was ready, he pushed into him and Jim howled and said, “Hit the spot, Chief, I’m ready to come. Please?”

Blair readjusted himself and hit Jim’s prostate four times in a row, very hard and Jim screamed out, “Blair” as he came intensely. Blair couldn’t hold on long, either. He followed Jim right over the edge and said, “I love you, Jim.”

The two men lay there just getting their breathing back to normal and Jim said, “Chief, I love you so much. I can’t begin to tell you.”

Blair got the wipes and cleaned them both up and they crawled into each other’s arms and started falling asleep, when the phone rang. Jim growled, “There is no god,” as he picked up the telephone and said, “Ellison.”

“Hey, Jim.” Simon said.

“Simon, what're you calling me in the middle of the night for? I thought I was off for a few more hours?”

“Jim, I needed someone to talk to.”

Jim heard the catch in Simon’s voice and said, “Simon, what’s wrong?”

“Jim, I don’t think I can do this. He’s here, he’s being nothing but patient but I don’t think I can do it.”

“Well, then don’t, Simon. If he’s patient, he’ll wait until you’re ready.” Jim said seriously.

Blair grabbed the phone from Jim and said, “Simon, this is Blair. What’s the problem?”

“I’m having second thoughts about this.” Simon said sounding scared.

“Simon, do you love blowjobs?”

“Of course I love them, who wouldn’t. Mind you, I’ve not had many in my life. I never got them from Joan. Why?”

“Because Jeremy just looks like the type to give one hell of a blow job. I’d let him suck on me in a minute.” Jim smacked Blair on the ass when he said that. Blair smiled at Jim and whispered, “hang on.”

“Sandburg, I’ve never been with a man before.”

“Simon, that’s why you should let him take the lead. He won’t hurt you. He’s a good man.”

“Okay, I guess I better get back in there, he’s probably wondering where I am.”

“Simon, he knows you’re freaking I’m sure. Go in there and tell him just to hold you tonight. He will.”

“God, I hate this. This morning I wanted it bad and now I’m being a chicken shit.” Simon said.

The phone was grabbed from Simon and Jeremy said, “Blair? This is Jeremy. Simon doesn’t need to talk to you anymore, I’ll take good care of him. I know he’s afraid and we’ll go slowly tonight. Talk to you soon. Bye.”

Hanging up the phone, the lovely man walked up to Simon and said, “Simon, you never have to call Blair because you’re scared. I’m here. I’ll listen.” Simon looked at this gorgeous man and wondered how in the hell he’d gotten that fucking lucky. Jeremy was a Native American, in perfect shape, a lot like Jim, high cheekbones that anyone would kill for and the most gorgeous long black hair. So thick and straight, that Simon couldn’t help it. He reached up and touched his hair and Jeremy went into Simon’s arms. They began to kiss and Simon was a goner. Before long they were in the bedroom and Simon wasn’t even thinking about calling Jim or Blair for anything. Blair was right, Jeremy could suck cock like a maniac. Blair would be getting some candy or something.

Jim and Blair fell asleep later on and slept until when the alarm went off. Jim pulled Blair closer to him and said, “Morning, Chief.”

“Morning, Jim. I love you.”

“I love you back, baby. Race you to the shower?”

Both men lunged out of bed and made a dash for the stairs running like kids. Jim took Blair into his arms and cuddled with him for a few moments. “God, I love this Chief. What did I do before you came along?”

“Fuck yourself?” Blair said as he made a dash down the stairs and flew into the bathroom for first dibs on the shower. Blair could hear Jim laughing from down in the bathroom. He loved when Jim laughed loud and hard. God, he loved that man so much.

After the morning shower and breakfast, they got into the truck and Jim said, “I think we should stop by and see if Simon survived. What do you think?”

“Man, that is like so evil. Let's do it.” Blair said laughing.

Jim started the truck and took off for Simon’s house. Once there, they got out and walked up to the door and Jim rang the doorbell repeatedly.

Blair said, “Jim, you’re a butthead you know that, right?”

“Yeah, but I’m your butthead.” Jim said smiling. A half naked Jeremy opened the door. Both men stood with their mouths open when they saw Jeremy.

"Gentlemen, didn’t anyone ever tell you that it’s not polite to stare?” Jeremy asked, smiling.

“Where’s Simon?” Jim said as he walked right in.

“He’s in bed where I’d like him to stay. He’s out cold.” Jeremy answered, getting a little pissed off.

“Jim, what are you doing?” Blair asked.

“We don’t know if Simon's even all right.” Jim said angrily.

Then they all turned when Simon said, “Jim, as you can see, I’m fine.”

The man not only looked fine but he looked fucking fine. Blair smiled and said, “Hey, Simon. We just came by to check on you. The phone call last night scared us. We had to make sure you were all right.”

Simon laughed and said, “I’m fine and Jeremy was very good about being patient last night.” He walked over and kissed Jeremy soundly and said, “Come on back to bed. They’ll leave if we leave the room.”

Jeremy started laughing his head off and said, “Bye, gentlemen. We’ll see ya later.” As they walked into the bedroom, Simon had his hand on Jeremy’s ass.

“Wow, did you see that Jim?” Blair asked bouncing.

“Yeah, Chief, I think if anyone could see it, it would be me, don’t you?” Jim growled as he started out to the truck.

“All right, stop right now. What the fuck happened to my partner. You had better not tell me that you’re jealous or I’ll kick your ass. Do you get my drift?”

“I’m not jealous. I just think maybe he rushed into it. He should have waited a little longer.”

“Jim, are you sorry we rushed into it?” Blair asked, almost scared to hear the answer.

“Nah. I love being with you, Blair. You know that. I’m just scared for Simon. I don’t know Jeremy like you do. Once I know him better, it’ll be easier.”

“Okay, that’s more like it. Now get that sweet ass in the truck and drive me to work.” Blair bossed.

“You like being the big man, don’t you? Top dog more or less?” Jim asked, laughing.

“Oh yeah, Jim, I do.” Blair said laughing along with Jim.

“Chief, we’re going to have poker night at our place on Saturday. Is that fine with you?”

“Yeah, I was telling Conner that we’d tell all of our friends that night about our big news.” Blair said happily.

“Do you mind helping me cook and shop for the night. I figured we’d celebrate while we were at it.”

“Oh yeah, we’ll be telling everyone about you and Megan getting married. Blair started laughing.

Jim said, “You know, Chief, I’m having second thoughts about that.”

“What do you mean, you already told her you would.” Blair said, looking at Jim like he’d lost his mind.

“I know, but you know how I told you I have this thing about being faithful? Well, that goes against it. I can’t be faithful to you if I get married to Conner. I’ll talk to her today.”

“Okay, but I don’t want to be there in case she starts crying.” Blair said seriously.

“Shit, you think she’ll cry?”

“I don’t know, man. I don’t know what she does when someone takes back their proposal for marriage.”

“Thanks, Chief. You’re so good about standing behind me.” Jim said, glaring at his mate.

When they walked into the bullpen, Conner grabbed a hold of Blair and Jim and said, “Mates, I need to talk to you right now.”

They all walked into the interrogation room and Jim asked, “What’s up, Conner?”

“Jim, I can’t marry you. I told my folks last night about Mel and me. I also told them about the babies and they weren’t that happy but they’ll be all right with it.”

“Well, as a matter of fact,” Jim started, but Blair kicked him in the shin. “Shit, Sandburg, what did you do that for?”

“Sorry, babe. I didn’t mean to." He leaned in and said, "don’t say a word.” Blair whispered.

“Are you disappointed, Jim?” Conner asked. “Mel got crazy jealous at the thought of someone else being married to me.”

“I can understand that, Conner. Now we have to tell everyone that we aren’t getting married.” Jim said.

“Everyone knows already. I told them before you got here. Hey, you were late, don’t be giving me nasty looks.”

“Conner, poker night's at our place. We’re going to tell everyone about the babies. Is that all right?” Jim asked.

“Yeah, that’s great. You’re really excited, aren’t you, Jim?”

“Yeah, I am. I can’t wait. I never knew it but I wanted to have a child. Then I met Sandburg.”

“Oh very fucking funny, Jim. You’ll pay for that tonight, hot stuff.” Blair said as he walked off to start his busy day.

When Simon walked in three hours later, he was smiling like he was on cloud nine. Brown said, “Man, the Captain must have gotten lucky last night.”

“Shit, how come he got lucky. He’s always saying he can’t get a date for anything.” Rafe asked.

“Man, Simon must have met someone nice. He looks happy.” Joel said, laughing at his friend. “I better go and see if there's anything he can tell his friend of many years.”

Blair and Jim just went over and sat down and didn’t say a word. “Hey, did you notice how quiet Jim and Blair are? They know. Damn it, they know who it is.” Rafe said starting over to Jim.

“Get lost, Rafe.” Jim said, “I don’t know a thing.”

“Do you swear?” Brown asked.

“I never fucking swear.” Sandburg said.

“I never fucking swear, either.” Jim said, laughing along with Blair. “Hey, guys, poker at our house on Saturday, we have some news to tell you.”

“Sandburg, you going to make any good food or is Jim in charge? Because if Jim is in charge we’re not coming.” Brown said.

“Fine, stay home then. You won’t hear the news and I’ll make everyone swear that they don’t know.” Jim said pointing a finger at Brown’s chest.

“I’ll be there, Ellison. Calm down.” Brown said laughing as he walked back to his desk.

Blair’s phone rang and he answered, “Sandburg.”

“Blair, honey?”

“Hi, Mom. What are you doing in Cascade?” Blair asked.

“Can’t a mother just want to see her son?” Naomi asked.

“Yeah, I guess so. You need to stay with us, right?” Blair said, looking with sad eyes at Jim. Jim leaned over and said, “You know she’s always welcome there, baby.”

“Of course, I want to stay with my son. Can I have your room?”

“Sure, Mom. We’ll see you tonight, okay?”

While Blair was still talking to his mother, Jim called Simon’s house and when Jeremy answered, he said, “Hi, this is Jim.”

“Hey, Jim. What’s up?”

“I wanted to apologize for being a jerk earlier. I’m usually a jerk but not that big of one. Just wanted to say I was sorry and invite you to poker on Saturday night with Simon.”

“Man, that’s really nice, but you should probably ask him. He might not like the idea of coming out to anyone, Jim. He’s pretty uptight about this whole thing.”

“Okay, I’ll ask him later. Talk to you soon, Jeremy.” Jim said hanging up the phone.

Joel came up to Jim’s desk and asked him to go out on a case with him. He told Blair where he was going and Blair said he’d work with Brown on the robberies and they’d meet up for lunch.

The day flew by and on the way out of the bullpen that night, Jim asked Simon, “Sir, can I talk to you alone, please?”

“Come in and shut the door, Jim.” Simon said.

“We’re having poker night and I invited Jeremy because I figured he’d have a good time. No one has to know that he’s with you, if that bothers you, but he said I had better ask you. He doesn’t want to upset you in any way.”

“He's the sweetest person I’ve ever met.” Simon said smiling. “Jim, I’ll bring him. I think I’m in love.”

“Hey, that’s great, Simon.” Jim said clapping his friend on his back.

“If it’s all right, I’m going to introduce him as my date on Saturday.” Simon said.

“Hey, I think it’s great. We’ll count on you both on Saturday then.” Jim said getting up to leave.

“Jim, could you stay for a second and tell me a couple of things about anal sex?”

“Simon, you have the wrong one in here, let me get Blair.”

“Jim, I’d rather talk to you. Am I going to be okay with it? I don’t want to ask too much from you but I need to know if you’ve ever been taken.”

“Simon, Blair fucks me every chance he gets, so yes, I’ve been taken a lot.” Jim said smiling.

“That doesn’t bother you then?” Simon asked nervously.

“Nope, not in the least. He let's me take him too, Simon.” Jim said, starting to laugh.

“Get out of here, Ellison. Go home and enjoy each other.” Simon said smacking Jim on the back this time.

When Jim and Blair returned to the loft, Naomi was inside, courtesy of the neighbor who had a spare key for emergencies. They hadn’t seen Naomi yet, but Jim could hear her in there and told Blair about it. They both knew the only way to get in would be the spare key. Jim knew he was going to have to talk to Mrs. Walker about that. She was an old woman that Jim trusted but didn’t want giving his key out to just anyone. Actually, he was a little pissed off. But not near as much as Blair was. Jim found that a little bit odd.

“Chief, why are you so mad?” Jim asked.

“She hasn’t any right coming into our home, Jim. She’ll be looking around and finding out things that I wanted to tell her on my own terms. I’m just pissed off.”

“I see that, Chief, settle down. We’ll get this all worked out.” Jim said, trying to calm his partner before they walked into the loft.

When they walked through the front door Naomi was standing there in the middle of the living room. She was one pissed off mother. Blair looked at Jim for help and Jim shrugged his shoulders as if to say, What?

“All right, Blair Jacob Sandburg, you have exactly five seconds to tell me why in the world you would not only become a cop, but start sleeping with one, too!”

“Naomi, I’m not a child, so stop yelling at me. I can do anything I want. I can sleep with anyone I want. I chose to sleep with Jim.”

“Blair, honey, you’re very confused with all this mess about the thesis. We’ll get it all figured out. Believe me, you don’t want to be with Jim. You want to be with a gorgeous woman and have a family.”

“Mom, would you stop talking about Jim like he’s not here. He’s my life partner.”

“Blair, sweetie, stop saying that. I hate that term. It’s so silly sounding.”

“Mom, you’re pissing me off, so you best stop right now.”

Jim decided he had better interfere or there would be major problems. “Naomi, what's the problem you have with he and I being together?” Jim asked.

“Jim, you know I adore you but I don’t want you doing things to my son. I won’t have it.”

“Mom, you don’t seem to understand. You don’t have a fucking thing to say about this.” Blair shouted.

“Oh you think not? How about if I spread the word that you are both gay, in a relationship and see how fast they separate you at work?”

“Naomi, don’t do this to Blair. Let's sit down and talk this out.” Jim said calmly.

“Shut up, Jim. Mind your own fucking business.” Naomi yelled at him.

“Don’t you ever yell at Jim again, Naomi. Get the fuck out of our home. Now.” Blair ordered.

“I’m not leaving you with this perverted man, Blair honey.”

“Get the fuck out of our home, right now.” Blair yelled as he looked over and saw the tears in Jim’s eyes. “I’ll have you know that I’m the one that brought him over, Naomi, so don’t ever say that again.”

Jim stepped between them and said, “Please don’t do this, okay? Please sit down, Naomi, and we’ll talk about this.”

“Jim, how could you do this to your friend? My son?”

“I love him more than life itself, Naomi. He’s everything to me. That isn’t enough for you?” Jim asked.

“No, it’s not nearly enough. And I won’t have this happening to my son. Blair, you might be angry now but I’ll see to it that everyone knows and you’ll be separated.”

“Naomi, we’re going to have a baby. Don’t you want to see your grandchild?” Jim asked.

“Oh, that's just fucking perfect. Two men are going to have a baby. This just keeps getting better and better.”

“Hey, Naomi,” Blair said, “what happened to all of that openess and love everyone crap that you’ve always poured from your mouth?”

“I was wrong. I was so fucking wrong. I don’t believe this.”

“Get out, Naomi. Right now. I swear, I’ll call the police on you.” Blair said as he got angrier by the moment.

“Oh that would be great, wouldn’t it, Jim? Then everyone would know. I mean, I’m sure the men in the bullpen know but what about the Police Commissioner? You know he won’t be one bit happy about his two officers fucking each other.”

“Naomi, you do whatever you need to do but never come back to our place again. Get out.” Blair screamed.

Jim pleaded with Naomi, “Please, don’t do this. Don’t destroy your son because you don’t like the idea of him with a man.”

“Tell me, Jim, how much back up do you suppose Blair will get when this gets out? He’s not quite as tough as you are. Someone might hurt him terribly, don’t you agree?”

“Jesus Christ, Naomi, please don’t do this.” Jim begged.

“Jim, let her go. Don’t beg her to not do something. I don’t give a shit. Get out of our house.”

“Blair, Jim knows what happens to cops that are gay on the force, ask him. Ask him what happened a few years ago with two men that were partners in all ways.”

“I don’t care, Mom. I don’t care. Now get out.”

“You will care, Blair, when they kill you. They won’t be there for you, and if Jim loved you, he’d let you go.”

“If Jim loves me, he’ll kick your ass out of here right now. Jim, please make her leave.” Blair was crying now. Jim was crying, too.

Jim grabbed Naomi and shoved her and her suitcase out the front door. “Fine, Jim. I’ll start by going door to door in the building asking if they all know about the two of you.”

“Naomi, please. I love him so much.” Jim begged again.

“Jim, if you love him at all, you’ll let him go or do I start now?” Naomi asked with a vicious sound to her voice.

Blair walked up to the door and said, “I never want to see your face again. I’ll be an orphan. Get away from us.” Blair said and slammed the door.

Jim walked up the stairs and Blair could hear him crying up there. Blair wondered why Jim was crying that hard about this since it wasn’t his mom that was saying and doing this.

When he got upstairs, he said, “Jim, what’s up? Why are you crying? Do you not want to be with me? Do you not want the neighbors to know? What?”

This only made Jim cry harder. He pulled Blair into his arms on the bed when Blair got close enough. “Blair, everyone in the building knows about us already. I hear them talking about us. They think we’re an okay couple for being fags. But they’re okay about it. I’m just heartbroken that you’re mom doesn’t love me as much as she said. I was okay to be your friend but not your lover.”

“Jim, things will be okay. The commissioner knows about us already. All of the station knows, too. So stop worrying, all right?”

They held each other all night long and let the answering machine pick up all of their messages. Neither man ate dinner. They had no appetite. Blair was so depressed but he was more worried about Jim than anything. Jim seemed like he was going to pull away. Blair wouldn't stand for it. He’d make certain that Jim knew where he stood in his life and he’d make sure that Jim never left him because of Naomi.

The next morning both men got up with red eyes and looking like shit. They got in the shower and, for the first time in months, didn’t touch each other. Blair couldn’t stand it anymore. While Jim was shaving, he pulled Jim close to him and kissed him passionately.

“What’s that for, Chief?” Jim said, smiling at his love.

“I want you to know whom you belong to, man. You’re mine. No one else’s. Understood?”

“Yes, it’s understood.” Jim said as he kissed him back. Before long they ended up on the sofa and Jim fucked Blair like he’d never fucked him before. It was unrestrained. Blair knew right away that Jim thought this would be his last time to fuck him. Blair knew he was going to have his hands full.

When they walked out to the truck, one man who lived on the second floor said, “Hey, who’d you piss off, Ellison?”

“What do you mean?” Jim asked.

“Well, this woman came by last night and told each and every one of us that you and Sandburg here were an item. Hell, we all knew that. So what’s going on?”

“It was my mom. She’s pissed that I’m in a relationship with a man.” Blair said trying to stay calm.

“Well, it makes no difference to any of us. You two have saved all of us more than once so consider this your safe haven.” He said as he patted both Jim and Blair on the back and walked back into the building.

“See, man. We have a haven.” Blair said smiling.

“Yeah, a haven.” Jim said.

When they got to the station, Simon called them into his office and said, “Hurricane Naomi was at the Commissioner’s office this morning and he wants you two separated for a week or two until she calms down. Otherwise, she’ll go to the papers. That wouldn’t be good, right?”

“Fine, sir.” Jim said and walked out of his office.

“Did I miss something? Why did he just agree with me?” Simon asked.

“He’s heartbroken about this and he’s pulling away from me, Simon. I just want you to know that we might have to kick his ass.” Blair said as he started out of the office.

“I’d gladly help with the ass kicking part. I might have some idea’s though.”

“Share.” Blair said.

“Nope, that would ruin it. Now go and do your work and get out of here.” Simon ordered.

Blair’s cell phone rang and it was Naomi. “Hi, Honey. The Commissioner said that you’d be separated and that might help you think straight. Excuse the pun.”

Blair got up and walked into the break room and said very softly, “Naomi, if he leaves me I’m going to shoot myself. Do you understand me? So either way, you’ll have no son.”

Naomi hung up the phone on him and called Jim’s cell phone. “Ellison, I want to know what type of hold you have over him. He just told me he’s going to shoot himself. I’m calling Simon Banks and telling him he’s unstable.”

“Naomi, please stop this. You’re hurting him so badly. You can’t keep doing this to him. He cried all night long. You’re his mom.”

“And you’re supposed to be his friend. What the hell difference did that make?” She screamed.

Blair pulled the phone away from Jim and said, “Don’t call us again. We’re getting a court order for harassment right now. I’m getting a lawyer and you’ll be sorry you ever fucking messed with us.” Blair closed Jim’s phone and Jim just sat there and looked at Blair.

“She said you were going to shoot yourself. Tell me you didn’t say that.” Jim said.

“Jim, I was trying to prove a point that if you left me I’d die and then either way she’d have no son. She didn’t get the point. She’s an idiot on top of many other things.” Blair said storming into the break room.

Jim followed him in and said, “Blair, I can’t do this. I really can’t.”

“Oh, this is fucking great. We’re having babies together and you can’t do this? What a chicken shit you are.”

“Yeah, I am. I have work to do, I’ll talk to you later.”

Jim was sitting at his desk later that day after ignoring Blair most of the day and heard Jeremy’s voice in the break room. “Blair, Simon won’t know about it. I hear from Simon that you broke up with Jim. You know I’ve always wanted you.”

Jim got up from his desk and stormed into the break room and went into his jealous mode as he flew into the doorway, and there stood, Simon, Jeremy and Blair. All standing in different parts of the room.

“Chief, what are you doing?” Jim asked confused.

“Seeing if you’d still get jealous. It worked, guys, thanks. I just had to see if you still wanted me or not.”

Jim moved up to him and said, “Baby, I’ll always want you. I don’t know what the fuck I was doing this morning.”

“Just don’t let it happen again, buddy.” Blair said smiling.

Simon walked back in and said, “Jim, you’re going to be with Megan for the next month. That will slow Naomi down. Blair, you’re going to be with Joel.”

“This fucking sucks.” Blair said storming out of the room.

“He’s right.” Simon agreed.

They all walked on eggshells hoping that Naomi wouldn’t notice anything but Blair refused to see her or talk to her, no matter how many times she tried. She was getting very angry. Naomi wasn’t a stupid woman. She knew that she had lost this one. Somehow she’d have to do something. She didn’t know that Blair had filed a restraining order against her. She kept coming too close and finally Blair called it in and they picked her up. By the time she got out the lawyer said, “You had better think about what you're doing here. The next time the judge won’t be so kind. We’re talking cops.”

“They aren’t really cops anymore, do you think? I mean, look at them. They make cute little faces at each other and kiss. For god’s sake, what's wrong with you? Don’t you see this sickness has spread?” Naomi asked him.

The lawyer went to Simon and said, “Sir, I think someone should have her committed. She sounds dangerous to me. I can’t say why. I’m just worried about her son.”

“We’ll keep any eye on her. Thanks for telling me.”

Before the guys knew it, it was Saturday and everyone showed up for poker at Jim and Blair’s. As soon as everyone sat down with their plates of good food. The game started and Megan said, “Guess what guys?”

“What?” Joel asked.

“I’m pregnant.” Conner said. They all looked at her oddly because they all knew that Megan and Mel were an item. “Mel is, too.” Conner continued. Can you guess who the fathers are?”

“Shit, Sandburg and Ellison are going to be daddies.” Brown said, jumping up and yanking Blair out of his chair and hugging him. He tried to do the same to Jim, but Jim was too fast. Jim stood up and let everyone hug him and wish him well. Then they all hugged Blair, Conner and Mel. Everyone was talking at once asking about due dates, where they were going to live and so on.

“They have a place close by.” Jim said smiling. “In fact, so close you can all see it now.”

Conner and Mel looked at him surprised and said, “There was one open?” Jim shook his head yes and they all went to the loft next door. It was larger than Jim and Blair’s. They figured they would need it with the little ones. Mel and Megan kept hugging Jim and Blair. The night was going really well.

Once they got back to Jim and Blair’s place, Joel said, “Megan, would you allow me to make the cradles for the babies? I know how to make very nice ones.”

“Joel, that would be so sweet.” Megan said smiling and kissing him on the cheek.

“Conner, I told my Dad and my brother last night and they’re very excited about it, too.” Jim said.

“Oh thank god, we sure wouldn’t want anymore ugliness.” Conner said before she could catch herself. Blair got up and walked upstairs.

Jim started to get up and Mel said, “I’ll go. You stay here. Keep the game going. I’ll talk to him.”

Mel walked up the stairs and said, “Blair, can we talk?”

“Sure, if you want to talk about anything but my mom. I hate the fact that she’s even my mom.”

“Well, we can’t change that, Blair. We take what we get.”

“I’m not happy with her. I want to forgive her but she’s going out of her way to hurt Jim. I won’t let her hurt him. He’s been hurt so many times already in his life, he doesn’t need this crap.”

“I totally agree, Blair. Let’s go downstairs and have fun with our friends.”

As they were walking down the stairs, someone knocked on the door and before Jim had a chance to say anything to Blair, he opened it to Naomi. She started hitting him. Rafe got out his cuffs and cuffed her and called the PD. She wouldn’t get an insignificant punishment this time.

“Mom, what are you doing? You had to know that there were cops here.”

“Sweetie, you have to have me around, you know that.”

“Mom, what happened to you? You used to be a lot different. Maybe it’s menopause.”

“Oh fuck menopause. I hate when men try to make up excuses for tough women. I’m just a tough woman, Blair, face it.”

“The cops are here, Naomi. We’ll see how tough you are if they send you to jail.”

“They can’t keep me away from you, Sweetie, and Jim can’t have you anymore.” Naomi screamed as the cop’s dragged her from the loft.

“Well, that was exciting,” Blair said trying to ease the tension.

“Blair, I think something's wrong with your mother. It’s almost like she’s someone else.” Joel said.

“Tell me about it. Well, maybe they’ll have a doctor look at her. I wonder if she had a breakdown.” Blair asked.

“That would make sense. Does anyone want to continue the game?” Megan asked. “I’m winning.”

Laughing, Blair said, “I’d love to get my mind on something else. Let’s play.”

Everyone sat back down and while playing suddenly Rafe said, “Simon, this friend of yours, is he more than a friend?”

“Why would you say that, Rafe?” Simon asked.

“Because he’s been playing with my foot for the last half hour. At first it was nice and relaxing but now it’s annoying.” Rafe said laughing.

Everyone at the table started laughing. “I guess the cat’s out of the bag.” Simon said.

Brown looked at Rafe and Joel and said, “Okay, if either one of you guys turns gay, I’m going to be pissed off.”

Again, the laughter rang out through the loft. Once everyone left, Blair called the PD to see what was happening. They’d taken her to the mental facility. A shrink would look at Naomi the next day. This made Blair feel better.

He went upstairs and crawled into bed and realized that his mom was having problems, but that didn’t mean he and Jim would. He loved Jim more than he had ever loved anyone and now they had a family to think about.

When he curled up into Jim’s arms, Jim said, “We’ll take care of her, Blair. Don’t worry. They’ll help her get better.”

“I know, man. I’m not too worried now. I knew something was wrong. It might be something simple or it might be something bad. Who knows?”

“Just know that you’re never alone for any of this, Chief.”

“I know that, tough guy. Thanks. I love you.”

“I love you, baby.” Jim answered and fell asleep thinking about helping the girls move in next door. Thoughts of baby shopping, doctor visits, pregnant bellies and this kind of thing kept his dreams from anything bad.

Blair also dreamed of his new family. He had always wanted a family and tonight they were all here. But most of all, he had Jim, whom he would remain faithful to forever. He loved him so much.

Jim and Blair were woken first thing in the morning by Simon. “Ellison.”

“Jim, it’s Simon. I have news about Naomi.”

“What?” Jim asked sitting up quickly.

“Let me talk to Blair. It’s something he should tell you.”

Jim handed the phone over to Blair and said, “It’s Simon and he wants to talk to you about your mom.”

“Hi, Simon. What’s going on?” Blair asked with a hint of fear in his voice that only Jim could hear.

“Blair, while they had Naomi at the hospital she had some seizures. The doctor set up a CAT Scan and they did some other tests. Come to find out she has a brain tumor.”

“Fuck… I knew that something was wrong. Why didn’t I make her go to a hospital?” Blair asked.

“Well, it’s something that no one thinks about, Sandburg. Don’t worry about that part of it. None of us would have thought of it. Now the doctor would like you to come up and spend the day with her. He wants to talk to you, also.” Simon said.

“Thank you for telling me, Simon. I’ll go up as soon as I shower and dress.”

“I’ll call tonight and see how she’s doing, Sandburg. Keep good thoughts going.” Simon said trying to sound hopeful.

When Blair hung the phone up, he went into Jim’s arms and started to cry softly. “Blair, I’m so sorry. I’m so fucking sorry.” After a few moments, Blair got up off the bed and said, “Want to go to the hospital with me?”

“I don’t think that would be a good idea, Blair. Tell her that we aren’t a couple any longer. That way it’ll keep her calm. Okay?”

“Sure, Jim. Whatever you say.” Blair said grabbing his things and going downstairs to shower. Leave it to his mom to mess things up even when she has a brain tumor. Blair knew that he’d be fucking lucky to get a kiss from Jim through this, let alone get fucked nightly. Sandburg, I can’t believe you’re worried about being fucked when your mom has a brain tumor.

Blair took his shower, was dressed and left as soon as he could. He found himself getting angry with Jim and didn’t want to act like his mom. It was easier to just leave and not have to talk about it.

When Blair walked into the room with his mother lying in a hospital bed he was shocked. She looked terrible. He hadn’t noticed that before. Why hadn’t he noticed that? What was wrong with him that his mom could be walking around with a tumor and he didn’t know about it?

Naomi’s doctor walked in the door and said, “Mr. Sandburg? I’m Doctor Davis.”

“Hello, Doctor. It’s good to meet you. Please tell me how my mom's doing.” Blair requested first thing.

“Well, if you’ve noticed a few things different in your mother, it’s because she’s got a large brain tumor. We’re going to do a biopsy to see if it’s malignant and then plan the treatment.”

“So this would cause her to become violent and mean?”

“Oh yes. In fact, I’m surprised that it took as long as it did. The tumor is very large, Mr. Sandburg.” Dr. Davis said.

Blair just stood there shaking his head in the affirmative. Dr. Davis said, “Try not to worry yet. We’re taking her now to do the biopsy and we’ll get together after that. Then we’ll plan our next move.”

“Thank you, so much, Doctor.” Blair said. “Where can I wait while this is being done?”

“How about right here, Mr. Sandburg?” the doctor asked.

“Please call me Blair. Everyone does.” Blair asked.

“Blair, just stay here and wait. We’ll be back in a short time.” Dr. Davis said as the got the orderlies to wheel Naomi up to surgery. Blair leaned over and kissed her cheek and said, “I love you, Mom.”

While she was in surgery, Blair kept thinking over the last few days and would start to cry. He couldn’t believe he hadn’t thought of a medical problem. Instead, he’d believed his mom to be a violent bitch. Blair kept wiping tears from his face as he stood and walked to the window to look outside. Little did he know that Jim was down in the parking lot. He couldn’t hear anything coming from the room, but when he saw Blair, he saw him crying and knew there was only one thing to do. He had to be by Blair’s side. No matter what.

Jim got out of the truck and took the elevator upstairs to Naomi’s room. Once he got to the floor, a nurse pointed him in the right direction. He could hear Blair crying, or more to the point, trying not to cry. He walked in soundlessly and went behind Blair and took him into his arms. Blair went right into them and was shaking so hard that Jim felt like Blair would fall apart. For the next hour they just held on to each other.

Four hours later, the doctor came in and said, “We’ll be bringing Ms. Sandburg back down in a short while. I wanted to tell you the news. First of all, it’s too large to operate on. It’s malignant. Therefore, we might try chemo, but I’m not quite sure she’s healthy enough for it right now. She has a short time to live, Blair. A very short time.”

“Thank you for telling me the truth. I’ll do some checking up on it. I study everything on the web. I’ll see what they have to offer for Chemo patients now. Then I’ll look up all of the things I need to find out about her type of tumor.”

“Blair, don’t let me force you to give up hope. I don’t mean to do that. I just know how bad it is. I brought her x-rays so you could see.”

“He put four x-rays on the box on the wall and lit up the first one. It showed a brain that looked fairly normal to both Jim and Blair. “This woman’s brain is what a brain should look like. This is someone that has stage one of this type of tumor.” He flipped on the next little light and Blair and Jim saw a small tumor. “This next one is stage three of the same type of tumor.” Flipping that one on, Blair and Jim couldn’t believe how large it had gotten from one stage to the other. “What stage is she in then?” The doctor didn’t answer him, instead he flipped the switch on and Jim and Blair both made a sound that sounded like a quiet sob as they looked at what was once a normal brain, now overtaken with a brain tumor.

“Blair, I’ve never had anyone still conscious at this stage so I don’t think that she’s going to be awake for much longer. You need to think about what you want to do. It’ll be up to you. She’s not capable of making any decisions right now.”

When they brought Naomi back to the room, she was awake. “Blair, sweetie, I hope they didn’t scare you.”

Blair saw it was his mom that he was used to having around. He was going to miss that Naomi. As the day wore on, when Naomi would wake up there would be people there to visit with her. Simon sat and chatted with her for about ten minutes before she fell asleep.

Blair was going to the restroom when he saw Mel come up. She said, “Blair, I really know I don’t belong here but I’d like to tell your mom that we got married and I’m pregnant. It would make her feel better.”

“That would be great, Mel. Thank you so much. It’ll mean a lot to her.” Blair said hugging Mel. Then Megan came around the corner and said, “Sandy, do you mind if I see your mother?”

“No, not at all. The doctor said that she has very few days left before she goes into the coma so I’m glad you’re here to see her.”

Both women walked into the room and seeing Naomi asleep stood there and waited for her to wake up. Then Blair walked up to the bed and said, “Mom, this is my wife, Mel. She’s carrying my baby. I wanted you to know that.”

“Oh sweetie, that’s so great.” Mel walked up to her and said, “Naomi, it’s wonderful to meet you. Your son has told me all about you. I wanted to meet you tonight. But I’ll let you get to sleep now.”

Jim stood over at the window the whole time everyone was visiting and said nothing. He was so quiet. Blair was more worried about him than Naomi. At least Naomi knew what was going on with her. Not Jim. Blair knew he’d be very confused.

Naomi woke up and said, “Sweetie, where's Jim? He should be here with you. When you love someone you’re with them through bad things and good.”

“He’s here, Mom. He’s been here. He’s looking out the window. He didn’t want to wake you up.”

Naomi turned and said weakly, “Jim? Come here, please.”

Jim walked over to the bed, with his adams apple working overtime, trying to keep from crying. Jim hated this. He hated it more than anything.

“Hi, Naomi, how are you doing?” Duh, Ellison, she’s doing great. You moron, why not ask her something even more stupid?

“Not bad, Jim. I need you to promise me that you’ll take care of my boy for the rest of your days. Will you do that for me?”

With tears running down his face, Jim said, “Naomi, you don’t have to ask. I’ll always be here for him.”

“I know how much you love him, Jim. I love you for that among other things.” Naomi said before falling asleep.

She woke up about two hours later and asked for Blair. Blair said, “Mom, I’m right here. I love you.”

“Blair, honey. I love you so much. Remember that always, all right?” Then she feel back to sleep again.

Jim and Blair stood by the bed holding each other. Naomi never woke up again. Six hours later, Naomi died in her sleep. The doctor said that it was a miracle that she was able to talk to them at all. It was a medical miracle that she functioned at all.

Somehow, Blair didn’t feel like it was any kind of fucking miracle. After they took Naomi out of the room Jim and Blair just stayed in the room and held on to each other.

“Jim, promise me that you’ll never leave me.” Blair begged.

“Blair, you know I can’t promise that. I can say that as long as I’m alive I won’t leave you.” Jim said hugging him tighter.

They finally drove back to the loft and Jim made all of the arrangements. Naomi believed in cremation, so that was taken care of first thing. Naomi had also been an organ donor, so she’d helped many people at the time of her demise.

Blair took some time off from work but was very moved with all of the Major Crime friends and family that showed up for Naomi’s service. Even Jim’s father and brother came. Blair was so sad, but yet, being surrounded by his large family made things easier to take.

Two weeks after the funeral, Blair went back to work. People in the bullpen asked Jim if Blair was all right. They were used to the old Sandburg that rattled off anything and everything. This was the new, serious and quiet Blair. Even Jim had to admit he missed the old one badly.

That night when Blair walked through the door, Jim was cooking a great dinner and Blair said, “What do you want?” as he smiled and walked up to Jim.

“I wanted a smile. I got one. If my cooking does it so be it. I love you, Chief.” Jim said pulling the man into his arms.

Blair stiffened up and said, “Jim, I’m not quite ready yet.”

“Okay, I’m willing to wait forever, Chief. Dinner’s in fifteen; why not go and take a shower?”

When Blair was done with his shower, he sat down at the table and watched Jim while he was eating. Jim was so patient and loving. How could he be having second thoughts about them. Sandburg, you’re grieving. You’re not having second thoughts, you idiot.

Blair got done and said, “I’m really tired, Jim. I’m going to bed now, if you don’t mind.”

“Sure, Chief. I’ll just sit down here and watch television.” Jim said sadly. Blair could tell he wanted to grab him and hold on to him so bad.

“Well, Jim, I was hoping that you’d come with me and hold me tonight.” Blair said quietly.

“You got it, Chief. I love you.” Jim said as he followed Blair up the stairs.

Once they were undressed, Jim pulled Blair into his arms in the bed. Blair was asleep before he could even talk to Jim. Jim felt that this was probably the best thing in the world for Blair.

In the morning, Jim woke up to a wide awake partner. Blair’s cock poking into Jim. “Jim, could I fuck you, please?”

“You know you can, baby.” Jim said as he took his boxers off.

Blair got Jim ready. Nothing was said. It was a sad day for both of them. Jim knew that Blair needed this. Jim was there for Blair. He didn’t care if Blair wanted to do it now or not. If Blair thought he did, that’s all that mattered.

Jim was loose and Blair couldn’t wait any longer. It had been way too long since they had sex. He pushed Jim’s legs up and got Jim into a position that Blair liked and started to push in. Jim was sore because it had been so long since the last time. Blair finally got all the way in and took a deep breath. While tears were running down his face, he said, “Jim, I love you so much. I adore you. Thank you for loving me.” The entire time he was saying this he was also pounding into Jim’s ass. Jim was breathing hard saying, “Chief…”

Blair moved his cock so that each time he hit Jim’s prostate. Jim was moaning loudly now even though he tried not to. He didn’t know if he should have such a good time this soon. But Blair started saying, “Jim… Jim…”

Jim knew he was close. Jim reached down and stroked his own cock three times and came with a loud bellow. Blair came right after him, screaming Jim’s name. Then he fell onto Jim and sobbed his heart out. Jim just held on to him for dear life.

After about an hour, they both got out of bed and had a shower before getting ready for work.

When they walked into the bullpen Blair actually smiled at Conner. Jim saw this and knew that things would be all right. It would just take time.

When they were working at their desk, Jim’s phone rang and he picked it up and said, “Detective Ellison.”

“I love you, baby.” Blair said and hung up the phone. Jim got teary eyed as he thought about how much they loved each other. They’d been through a lot, but they could do it. They were both strong.

If nothing else, he knew that no one would ever come in between he and Blair. No one would ever cause either man to be unfaithful. They would be faithful until the end.

The End

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