MAITREYA-TAISHI.
WHAT IS THE REAL HAPPINESS?
The main meditationwas Jnana Yoga. It began from repentance
concerning with various attachment which I used to have; lie,
killing, stealing, anger which comes from pride, greed, and so
forth. I mede an repentance according to my experiences of the
past. If it was difficult for me to repent, I recognized my stuch
and analysed them by Jnana Yoga. I did this process over and over.
When there was an attachment, I analysed it from the view point of
the truth why wouldn't it make me happy.
For example, I had a lover. When I thought deeply about my
attachment toward her, it was based on my satisfaction of desires
such as sexual desire.
As long as I am caught to those things, my mind will not be clear,
and I'll never attain enlightenment, or to transcend transmigration
in the end. Even from the worldly point of view, since a man is
sure to die, as long as I am attached to my lover, there will be a
great suffering when I die. or when I go into Bardo.
Or since this idea is based on my desire, her mind, as well as my
mind, will change if another person who can satisfy the desire in
much better way may appear. I may break my heart, or I may go away
from her by myself. As a result, as the Master teaches, huamn
beings reincarnates into the six realms of desires once again
because of this attachment. Once being reincarnated into the six
realms of desires, next world can be the realm of hungry ghosts, or
it can be hell. In fact, the realm of hungry ghosts and hell are
the worlds with the highest possibility for us to go down.
I was thinking such things. And based on my experience of going
to heaven or hell after detaching from my physical body, I acutally
thought what can make me happy in the real sense. This is how
Itried to get rid of my atachment.
ENERGY FALLING DOWN
After passing through the given period of time for repentance, I
went on to the meditation of Tsandali; Raising energyup from coccyx
through Sushumuna Channel, filling this energy in Sahasrara Chakra
at the crown of my head, and letting it fall down through the
Suchumuna Channel. In other words, it was the technique to enter
Samadhi by circulating the energy.
So concerning with the meditation, I took three process: First
was the basic stage in Jnana Yoga. Then the meditation of
repentance and Jnana Yoga. Then the meditation of Tsandali which
means the meditation of Kundalini Yoga to enter Samadhi.
I had been practicing Tsandali on September. All I did was to
practice Tsandali, and do Jnana Yoga when vision appears.
This is the time when I began to recieve Shakti-pat from the
Master a few times. Along with this process, I began to expereince
the ecstacy of Tsandali.
The crown of my head being cold and good feeling. It gets cold
regularly, and I let it fall. When I visualize that the energy is
falling, Chakras become numb little by little, and ecstacy falls
down.
When I concentrate my consciousness at Swadishtana Chakra, the
energy gathers to the crown of my head immediately. And it
flashes. Little after that, the crown of my head becomes colder
once again. This coldness made me fond of meditation. I don't
feel so much suffering while meditating. Leave it, cool, fall,
cool, fall... I just repeated this over and over.
Little by little, I had the feeling of my breath stopping, which
is the previous stage for Samadhi. It suddenly stops after strong
and quick breath. I get surprised by the stop of the breath. And
when I think in such manner, it suffers me and I exhale.
Little by littel it became more dinamic. Not only the stop of
breath but also the fixing of my body began while I was meditating.
While doing Tsandali, scene gets darker, body being fixed, breath
getting faster at the same time. And I find my heart beating fast.
This is really surprising experience. That is why I had
difficulty in entering the process of Samadhi after the stop of
breath and the stop of the heartbeat.
Sep. 16th (Wed)
The Master come and gives me Shakti-pat. I see all the color of
the five elements at once: yellow (earth element), sky blue (water
element), red (fire element), green (wind element), and blue (space
element). I see them one after another. Then comes white of Ajna
Chakra, and orange in the end. (The Master said that this orange
light is something which can be seen at the last stage.)
Energy is still not enough. I'm sad that the world is dark and I
can't clearly feelthem. The Master told me, "All my energy went
into you. You shall attain enlightenment in approximately three
days.". He seemed extremely tired.
ENLIGHTENMENT - THE ORANGE LIGHT SHINES
Sep. 20th (Sun)
At night, while I was sleeping, there was a phone call from the
Master. He suddenly said, "Aren't you finished?"
"Your breath must have been stopped. Since you are bad at sitting
posture, you go into Samadhi while sleeping."
And he went on, "You should do nothing but meditation and Samadhi.
And you should enter Samadhi.".
As the Master told us, one sees the orange light at the attainment
of Kundalini Yoga in the end.
After finishing up the technical practice as usual, I took meal
and entered Samadhi without recognition. My breath stops and my
heart beats very fast. My mind was not clear at that time, but I
was in this state for approximately one hour. When I came out,
there was a phone call from the Master in good timing. He said,
"Haven't the process of Kundalini Yoga finished?". I myself was
completely unconscious. Later, I meditated and and saw the orange
flash light. After that, I began to see this light often.
It seems that there are people who have dramatic experience at the
time of attainment, and people who do not have the dramatic
experience. The master told me that I didn't have the dramatic
experience because I used to finish Kundalini Yoga in my past
lives.