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~Violet and Scott~ I was so lonely without Nicholas those first two months. It was only my friend Scott who helped me to get through. Now Nicholas is back, and I'm so happy he's alright. But then there's Scott�oh, what should I do? I know it shouldn't be this way, Nicholas doesn't deserve this. But he's so different, he seems farther away with every letter he sends. Now he's sent this letter, I don't want to hurt him� But my feelings have changed, can't we just be friends? The sun shines on Scott and me, we smile and walk. Nick is solemn where Scott is fun, it's so easy when we talk. As I look back I damn myself for getting involved. I took Nicholas because I thought he needed someone. But he's so dark and gloomy, bringing me down� Scott says that's not fair, I deserve to dance in the sun. I'm trying to tell Nicholas all this, trying to let him down gently. He won't listen, he just can't understand. It's so obvious in my letters, that I have moved on� And taken another's hand. ~False Dream~ I don't care anymore about the storm, I'm just glad to be here, here in your arms. When I'm well, I'll leave all this behind, I will be the sun's shine only for you. No more cynicism, no more of my hurtful pride, I'll grin and forgive all life's harms. Save me, marry me, I'm so lost here, we're meant for each other, just us two. You are mine, my goddess, my only salvation from sorrow. It's you, you and the light, I want to see in a golden tomorrow. My strength is gone and my power has finally run dry. Won't you wait for me, and restore me to the man I was with a kiss? Your letters are growing cold, I don't want this to die. I feel you slipping away, don't you know it's only you that I miss? Please don't treat me this way, take me into the day. Let's sit in the sunlight together, I miss you Darling� All I had was your memory, and I don't know how, but I will keep my old vow. I love you, I need you, can't you hear my heart crying? ~The Triumphant Return~ That wasn't my last letter, that one I sent, full of childish, deluded hope. I sent more, each more paranoid and disturbing and desperate than the last. Her letters had ceased altogether. For every letter I sent to her there was another I didn't send, one full of accusations. I limp down the street, the sun beating down upon my neck. I reach my old house, and I sit down on the deck. My head is in my hands, and I wonder how it all went so wrong. If only I could go back in time, to a time when I was loved and strong. And I'm so faithful to Violet, though I know. She's a thousand miles away, having torrid flings. Still I cling to something, something we had� I pass time spending what the army paid on silly things� Trinkets that bring me no joy, they're just for passing the time of a pathetic figure, limping his way down the street. I remember the old Violet and me� That green time tasted so sweet� I concentrate for a few months on my own dream. Just practicing my piano playing, practicing my singing. Until one day I lose my patience, and pick up the phone. And I hear the knell of a death bell in it's ringing� |
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