A personal take on how I relate my relationship with Lilith to my journey on the Satanic Path
Satanism is a path of self-discovery, and of becoming attuned with the greater energies and insights of the universe, whether they are expressed in the form of deities, life forces, elevated consciousness, what have you.
For me, becoming a serious student of Satanism, by which I mean exploring within Satanic ideas a philosophy and a way of exploring the universe, rather than just a form of rage rebellion, allowed me to grow on what I call the open path, which I see as part of the left handed path, but also an inner spiritual awakening. Some Satanists dismiss the idea of the spirit and the spiritual; I personally have come into closer contact with my own and have become more spiritual on my exploration of the open path.
Lilth is a Dark Goddess with whom I have had a strong affintiy for many years. At one time I saw her as the feminine Satan, but in working spells in her name and meditating upon her power and lessons, I came to see her as a power centre in her own right. Over time I came to view her as part of a pantheon of spiritual power centres, whose collective consciousness embodies the Satanic spirit. (Heresy to some Satanic purists I know: I think it is possible to experience this interaction in as many ways as there are people, and I don't think it precludes a literal being who is Satan). Lilith has touched many aspects of my life, as a teacher, guide and natural force. In studying philosophical and mystic ideas through my invovation of and experience with Her, I came to "see" a wider dimension to the dark path, and through it a way of personal, spiritual evolution on the open path.
I would never make the claim that Satan or Lilith saved my life; they did assist me to opening my eyes, my mind and my spirit in a way that has allowed me to save my own life, and mould it into what I want it to be, as opposed to being trapped either in servitude to false ideas or caught-up in the futility of endless rage rebellion.
Perhaps She has attached to you Damian for the same reason, or to guide you to the path that leads to the way to your fulfillment. You are blessed to have her presence as part of your life. But just as She loves, so She demands the best from you, in study, thought and being. Never lose sight that important part of it. Just as She helped me, so it was up to me to make my life.
Human relationships are often more problematic because we tend to grope around each other in a kind of emotional/mental blindness, which a romantic and sexual relationship only seems to increase. Even so, while Lilith favours you, at the same time She wouldn't want you to close off that dimension of your life either.
A Question: Any idea as to why I have felt Lilith come and go in my personal experiences? lca
Perhaps you experience Lilith coming and going because the character of your
relationship is such that she comes to you when you need her insight, but at
other times you are left on your own, or with some other spiritual power,
because that is the freedom you require or the other influence that you
need. Like our relationships with other people, I think our relationship
with spiritual powers is largely fashioned by our personality, our needs,
interests and the level of importance we assign them. I have friends that I
do not see all the time, yet we still remain good friends and help one
another when needed. The fact that we are not constants in every day life,
or even in every week or month of our lives, does not harm the relationship;
in fact it may even enhance it since too much contact could be negative; one
can grow tired of the same people being around all of the time, depending
upon the personalities involved, personal issues etc. I think it is the
same in our relationships with spiritual powers such as Lilith, and I see
nothing incompatible about that.
Monotheistic, dogmatic religion promotes an imminence of the divine in such
a way that the follower and deity are always together, in every aspect of
the follower's life. This, of course, gives dogma a strong control over the
follower; and the making of such a conjoined, unrelenting relationship,
allows the follower no room for "personal space" or reflection outside of
the smothering confine of the "almighty"; rather like a hovering mother who
will not let go, for instance.
Left hand path powers operate on a different concept: they do not reveal, we
must seek them out; they give no laws but inspire thought, feeling and
insight which allows us to discover the principles which shape our life
along with developing our intellectual and spiritual evolution. So it is
with the relationship; it moves in rhythms or pulses, according to the
needs, desires and interests of the parties, without becoming a smothering
constant.
