Unchaining My Heart
Author: Cellie
Pairing: AJ/Brian
Rating: NC-17
Unchaining my Heart
Chapter 1
-AJ-
I walked down the brightly-lit halls, soft Chinese music playing through the speakers from the ceiling. I finally reached my hotel room as I took my key card out. I placed it inside the slot before the light turned green, indicating that I can enter.
Before I could enter, I heard yelling coming from next door and a shattering sound was made. He'd been getting into arguments with his girlfriend recently, which has been hard on him. It broke my heart to see the man I love in such pain and sorrow.
I took my key card out from the slot before placing it in my pocket. I walked next door to his room, letting a soft sigh escape my lips. I knocked on the door then waited for an answer. No response. I tried again. "Brian's it's me," I called out. I pressed my ear to the cold door, trying to hear any sign of movement. Nothing, just his soft sobbing and whimpers. "Brian please open the door. I want to help you." I still didn't a response.
Another sigh fell from my lips. I figured that he's not going to open the door. I moved away from the door and started to walk back to my room. I hear a door open, but I ignored it. "AJ..." Brian's voice rang in my ears. Turning around, our eyes met; his teary-blue eyes with my brown ones. He walked toward me until he was right in front of me. "Please stay." Tears rolled down his cheeks.
I embraced him in a supporting hug. "I'm not going," I said, soothingly. He sobbed on my shoulder, the tears going through my shirt. But I didn't care; Brian needs me and I'm going to be there for him. "It's okay, Brian."
I can feel him sinking down to the floor, taking me down with him. I rubbed his back soothingly and kissed his forehead. When his crying subsided, we just held each
other like there was no tomorrow.
When I tried to stand up, he pulled me back into his arms. I tried again, only to have him holding me tighter. "Please don't leave me," he whispered and looked up at me, our eyes locking.
"I'm not going anywhere," I replied softly. "But we can't stay on the floor." I stood up, pulling him up with me. The both of us walked back to Brian's room, with him clinging onto me as if I was his life source.
I closed the door with my foot as soon as we entered before leading him to the bed and sat down on the comfortable bed. Brian's head was still on my shoulder. "You want to talk about it?" I asked.
"I don't understand. I thought I was going to be happy with her, but now...I don' know. I'm such a failure. No one understands me." A stray tear rolled down his cheek.
I took a hold of his chin, making him face me, "Listen, you're not a failure and I understand you more than you think."
"You do?"
"Yes." Without thinking, I leaned in and kissed him. I kissed him slowly, passionately. I was going to pull away and apologize to him until he responded to the kiss. His tongue was eager to enter my mouth and I invited him in. Both of our tongues were dancing together, getting a tour in each other's mouth. He tasted so sweet, so lovely.
I can feel Brian sit up straighter on the bed as he ran his fingers through my hair. He moaned lightly against the kiss. How can something so wrong feel right?
Finally, we pulled apart, our faces only inches away. "Brian, I've always loved you, with all my heart. There isn't a day I don't think of you."
There was a silence for a while before he began. "I have to admit, I feel the same about you. I tried to not think about it and convince myself that I love Leighanne. But...the feelings I have for you are stronger than what I had with her. I wanted to tell you how I feel, but I was afraid that you would reject me."
I cupped his cheek. "Brian, I would never reject you. No matter what." I kissed him again and he quickly responded to it. As we continued to kiss I slowly removed my shoes, falling to the floor with a light thud.
He pulled me down so that I was on top of him, never breaking the kiss. I reached up, caressing his face, feeling his smooth skin underneath my fingers. My hands went down to his shirt, trying to unbutton it.
After some unsuccessful attempts, I finally managed to unbutton his shirt and place the piece of clothing over his shoulders. He grabbed my shirt, breaking our kiss for a moment, and pulled it over my shoulder.
I looked down at him, feeling his soft skin underneath my fingertips. My eyes then came to the scar on his chest.
Looking back, I remembered the day when Brian went in for his heart surgery. I'd never been so terrified in my life. It seemed like forever before getting out of surgery. I wonder if he heard me say, "I love you" as he slept in his hospital room.
I was brought back to reality, and my eyes locked with Brian's. He looked down at me, concerned written over his face. "What's wrong?" he asked. Brian caught on after a few seconds.
I can feel him sit up on the bed before he lifted my chin, making me face him. "Alex It's okay," Brian reassured to me. He looked down at his scar, with me following his gaze. "I know how you feel, Alex." He cupped my face in his hand, smiling softly. "I love you so much, AJ." His lips met with mines in a sweet, tender kiss.
As the kiss deepened, my hands rubbed his bare back soothingly before coming to the front, my fingers rubbing against his chest. "I want you to make love to me," he moaned in between the kiss.
"You don't have to tell me twice, babe." He lay back down on the bed, never breaking the kiss. As we pulled apart, I went down to his nipple, flicking it with my tongue and licking it. Then, I went over to his other nipple, giving it the same treatment like the previous one. I went down to his jeans, unzipping them before pulling them down with his boxers, showing his erection. I leaned down, placing my mouth around his hardening cock, sucking on the head.
I closed my eyes before hearing him moan in pleasure as I was going in and out of him. I slowed down, teasing him. "Alex!" He whined. "Stop teasing me. I want you."
I did as I was told and quickened the pace, sucking on his cock. I can feel Brian's hands running through my hair roughly. I wondered to myself if this was all a dream, waking up in my bed alone. But when he raked his fingers through my hair, moaning my name, which was when I knew it was real.
"Alex, baby I'm going to cum," Brian whimpered, his voice above a whisper. In a moment, he came, his cum going down my throat, swallowing it to every last drop. Opening my eyes, our eyes met again. Slowly, I crawled back up next to Brian, my lips finding his again.
-Brian-
He crawled up beside me, looking like a panther ready to pounce on its prey. Our lips met again, exploring. It was unusual to taste myself, but I didn't care. I cupped his face in my hand as I moaned into the kiss. I took in his bottom lip, sucking on it. Our tongues danced and explored, trying to taste every contour.
We broke the kiss, leaving me to be breathless. "I love you, Brian," he said to me, smiling. I smiled brightly back at him.
"I love you, too, Alex," I replied, pulling him down for another kiss. When we pulled apart, I just noticed that he hadn't cum yet. "Alex, baby, you haven't cum yet. I'll take care of that. Lie down. It's my turn."
"Brian, what are you doing?" AJ asked, lying back on the mattress.
"Do you trust me, Alex?" I asked him with a smile. He nodded in response. I went down to his pants, unzipping them and pulling them down, along with his boxers, exposing his throbbing cock.
I leaned down and licked his pre-cum. I wrapped my mouth around the head, sucking on it. AJ's moans rang in my ears. "Brian" he moaned. I licked his cock and tugged on it a little. "Brian...oh..." I heard him say again. I smiled when he said my name. I've always dreamed of doing this in a long time. "Baby...baby, I'm going to cum." He arched his back and I held onto his hips.
Suddenly, warm, sticky cum came rushing into my mouth. I swallowed his orgasm, letting it flow down my throat. Once I was through, I went back to where AJ lay, sweat running down his face. I rested my head on his bare chest, listening to his steady heartbeat, and wrapping my arms around him. "That was..."
"Amazing." AJ finished for me. I looked up at him, our eyes locking. He had the most beautiful eyes that I've ever seen. He cupped my face in his hand before kissing my forehead. He went down to my eyelids, kissing both of them. He kissed my nose before our lips met in a soft, passionate kiss.
"I love you, Alex."
"I love you, too, Brian."