Here I will express some of my
thoughts:
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Purpose for this fruity thought section:
Just something for me to keep to
remind myself of how I used to think
I suggest reading 1 part at a time
- Just 1 part & come back Later
– When I’m taking a break from work,
No im not just typing this to pass
time or to keep you busy, and no its not a diary, i find it amusing to read my
past thoughts
No im not wierd, its kinda like the
feeling u get when finding old hw from college/hi skewl
(1/27/03)
Part 1: My Old
Job
I am true
middle management - Heres how it works:
My sales
manager needs something done - he hands it to me I then in turn pass it on to
the right person
to do the
job. If the person i hand it off to
messes up, Andrew lectures me Then i turn go to the person
i used for the
job and ask them what happened. And i
have to figure out how not to make the same mistake
next time. I am no one's boss but i need people to do
things for me, and i have to make sure it gets down
ie
supervise. When the people i use at work
do something right, i try to say Thank You.
And i end up
asking them for
more things later on.
My Favorite
Quote from my Dad
"Supervising
is the hardest job"
(1/27/03)
Part 2: Work and Education
No one really understands what my major is or what inside sales/service really does - so i'll try to explain it here.
Industrial Distribution was my major with a minor in Business It is a mix of engineering technology and alot of business stuff
I took stuff like accounting and finance, while taking classes on 3 phase motors and logic controllers. In other words i was
taking classes on two far ends of the spectrum
This leads me to where i am right now - inside sales/service for compressors and blowers. You have to have some kind of technical
background for understanding the specifications and workings of compressed air. Then on the other side I have to watch over how
the inside of our sales/service works. I do all the numbers/paperwork so i have to watch where we make $ and where we dont. And i have
to oversee the ongoing jobs or stuff just starts going wrong. Some days are pretty hectic, but i do still do it anyways.
(1/27/03)
Part 3: Time and Robotics
When i was in college, time moved slowly - I enjoyed just about
everyday and the ooooonnnnnly time i had to
worry was when a project or test was coming up. Life was great.
Now i work and besides becoming a zombie, i've programmed myself to
a robot like pattern of getting up,
working, going home, eating, watching tv and finnally
sleeping. And i had no clue i've already
worked like 6-7 months. Everytime i blink, its already been another
week and i start to grow older.
My ability to care about anything has diminished to a form known as
zombie-like. When someone asks me
about somethign, i just mumble and keep walking. For example "Hey i blew up something,
and the
customer is mad, what do you wanna do" - I in turn mumble and
keep walking. Most days i'm quite happy
and I usualy smile (i think our water here has Zoloft in it or
something) but i've obviously changed and a lot
of days it shows. Either way, unless i change something like move
out or change jobs - I'm stuck like this for awhile.
(1/31/03)
Part
4: Speed
I've
driven fast cars and ridden fast bikes - some ppl think its cause I like
speed. I've become numb to speed and so
its not really
speed
that keeps me addicted to bikes/cars.
One thing i've noticed is when you ride a bike daily, u seriously forget
how fast the bike
is - i
would always give it full throttle and still want more from the bike. When you stop riding, then hop on again - u
barely touch
the
throttle and its like whoa.. I've only driven a few cars that make me feel the
actual speed while im in the drivers seat.
My
current
car has that ability every now and then where im actually leaning up trying to
fight the pull (very rare and valuable)
What
seriously draws me to fast cars/bikes is 1 - i like to know that at any time i
can lay waste to car near me on the road
and 2 -
spinning the tires in 2nd gear is always fun 3 - with bikes it was kewl to pull
yer front tire up - no i couldnt really ride
wheelies
all dat well, but didnt mean i couldnt get it up With bikes, u could pass up
any one at any time, and if it was only
1 lane,
or if cars are in the way Just go around them - which i liked to do alot
(2/1/03)
Part 5: Money
& Living at Home
I've always been lucky with money - especially cuz my parents
funded
me through college.
Don't be decieved though - i always was and
always will be a cheap bastard - only now i have started to
spend
money without thinking five times (see wut i spent on the
camaro
section) The old Marky would have never made those purchases.
Even
stupid little impulse buys like that 'idiotic human' license
plate
bracket i spent days trying to find a kewl/stupid one - and i
finnaly
found dat one. So
don't doubt my cheapness :p
Anyways I'm 24 and i happily live at home - normal people
would frown
on that kind of behavior - those people have never tried to
find a real
job in this kind of economy.
Until i truly feel comfortable at a job
which i can consider my career i'll prolly sit here where i
have no
bills and i already have 5+ grand in the bank after spending
17+ grand
on things like a car/tv/video games on a 38k/yr income. Go ahead and
tell me when u had a chance to have that luxury then u'll
know why i
do it. So ne of u
haters out there - which nowadays everyone can
understand why its easier to stay at home - dont try to mess.
(2/1/03)
Part
6: Being a twin vs. being married
Let me say it this way, being a twin is like being married –
most people don't understand that
cuz they aint a twin.
When you see the same person everyday for most of your life, and their
actions affect your actions u get the point. Neways the same story i usually give is when
mike
decided to goto u of h after that first year of college at
a&m. That seriously was a divorce,
we
had to spilt everything 50/50 and decided who gets what and find
a way to replace the things
we didnt have nemore. I'm
a serious cpu junky and i went w/o having a cpu for like a few
months, i would just use a lab cpu. (another tangent - when i was in virginia for
a week, i had
such a withdrawal from not sitting on a cpu - i found the
cpus - it is a serious part of my daily ritual which we all know
is very important :p) Neways,
an effect of being a twin is that u naturally cling to one
person, so i dont know if thats wierd or not.
"We
all must die sometime"
(2/5/03)
Part 7 : Work again
Sitting here at work, i run dat
one soundgarden song thru my head "fell on black days". If you listen to that song u'll
like it, its got a good message
:p - sooner or later we all end up at a day to day job, where we sit and work
and yap and
complain thinking wow this is
wut i do everyday... for those of you stuck at yer desk, be a man get up and
walk outside
tell em u need a smoke break
(cuz all dem fags take a break every 5mins neways) I got my new ice dryer in the other day
its quite large, and i was
trying to pull the box off of it and it looked like i was hugging it - well
some work ppl
walked by and noticed -
"awww mark is hugging his new dryer" it was funny if u were there -
neways if you've actually
read all this crap i type u
either have serious issues or you prolly look like me (ya im talkin to u)
"Maturity is the ability to
carry money without spending it"
(2/21/03)
Part 8 : Yet again Work
I think it hit me about a week ago, that i finnaly decided I just
plain dont care about work nemore.. and im not talking about the
whole work process, i mean everything about it. I've pretty much become numb to everything
that goes on, whether im behind on work
or if someone complains, or we dont make a good margin. It all means nothing to me, my main question
is if it doesnt affect you
directly why take the effort to change it. All it ever did was create alot of stress and
headaches to watch every number and make
sure it was all going smoothly.
Once again, Office Space is the greatest reality movie ever - the man
truly understood what it is
like to work in an office.
"I get paid either way"
Quoted from Elden Cambel when he was questioned about his $35 million
contract and not showing up for
practice (work). {Brilliant}
(4/16/03)
Part 9: Life & Death
Well it’s been alil more dan a month and 2wks since I left work, and I’ve come to realize the internet is a sick and twisted place. There’s a site
that takes real live kittens and shoves them into a small glass box to live their whole life in. The kitten can barely even fit into it, and is only given
a small air/food tube to live on. And this is used as furniture/art – its
called bonsai kitten – it’s prolly the
most sickening and cruel thing I’ve ever
seen in my life. I’ve seen pictures of decapitated dead people and I am not affected. But this is the worst thing ever, I was actually speechless and
lost - I won’t go into detail what kinda of bullshit is on that site – lets just say I hope dat guy burns in hell. I hope he spends eternity in a small glass
box with a small air hole, and he lives in his own filth. (This of course while he is acting as furniture in hell’s kitchen) They have customer commentary
talking about how nice it looks on their dinner table and how their guests love it, but sometimes the cat mews too much. As I’m writing this, my stomach
is turning imagining that. May their souls be tortured for eternity. As a cat person, to me there is nothing cuter than a small kitten roaming around.
And I’m not some kinda PETA fanatic, I’ll eat cows and stuff, but I don’t think that is ethical treatment of an animal. I hope you share the same feeling I do.
“If it was up to me I’d sell u the car, but our credit department sez no” “Don’t worry kids me and yer dad are gonna go fill out some paperwork
and then yall are going to go home in this”
(6/4/03)
Part 10:
Yarrrr
Well i've
eclipsed the 3 month mark of not working - I've heard just bout everything you
could imagine from the typical
yer not a
good fit to the point of being told im too energetic for a noninteractive job -
either way its all bullshit to me
lousy
faggots in their corporate offices just dont like dem colored folk - diz brings
up an old concept to me about white ppl
and racial
issues
its funny
how most redblooded honkey crackers here who drive trucks love their country so
much and hate the others - to the piont
that their
soo simple minded in their blind allegiance to the us of a, they just ignore
the fact we send trillions to other countries
just for
fun, ie. in columbia we were paying for a plan to deal with the drugs and cut
them back bout 250million a year or
so in this
plan, well after we started it up the govt of columbia is supposed to take it
over and pay for it, not so sez the columbians
who are just
puppets for the drug lords - so good ole usa is pickup up the tab - in a
country that is so racist we are run by a
governement
that prides itself on sending all the tax money during a depression to other
countries
"Two
faced white ppl, cant go a day without runnin into em" sez the potato
)8{
WHERE IS
BILL CLINTON WHEN WE NEED HIM!!!!!
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