You. You, all of you, look at you!
It's all true! You hate as much as I.
All I do is try, try to impress you.
Make you proud, rotting in this holy shroud.
I bleed for you, die for you.
How can you say, everything will be okay?
Warnings are all you seem to say.
Save me. Kill me. It's all the same.
You sit there and watch me linger between insanity and sane.
You laugh, you cry. Indugled in all your lies.
Blackmail, lie again.
Pittying your life, corrosed by men.
Take it out on me as you alwlays do.
Press ear to door, cage in zoo.
Cinder Cirucs, Circut by may name.
You tell me you're the mother; Pitty I'm the same.
You kill me!
You make me feel;
Emotions,
I didn't know were real.
I bleed here-
Kneeling down.
Empty jokes play,
Horns upon your crown.
You sit there-
Praying still.
Your fake tears-
To spear the kill.
Your dark face,
Will never fade.
How careless; this rag doll that you've made.
Why must you,
Fear me so?
Spearing love's name-
Enjoying my requiem's show?
You don't understand how I linger close.
Locus-
Upon your lose.
Your daughter-
Your eldest child.
Night Terrors,
Going mild.
Thunder upon you.
You know the truth.
By Decree;
This must be your Sooth.
Damnation-
Is what you've done to me.
A thousand self-errors;
Is what you'll see.
Cowaring Fool-
Is what you've donen to me.
Bitch-Wanking Mother
Is what you'll always be... *
Poem
Never go.
Understand;
Open Arms to me with a soft hand.
Notice my scars and look away.
Do I have a reason to stay?
Can you tell me that love is forever?
With all this hope that now is severed;
Just one to be never understood,
Covering among myself with Jaged cross of hood;
Can I be so dilousional?
All this irrelevance that's institutional.
I adore the look in your eyes;
How you loath our parting goodbyes.
How your ego dies;
How I can never hide.
You're allways there.
You help me bear.
Everyother bullshit that invade cautiously,
You destroy it with your curiosity.
Father if you will;
You are my pill.
You save me without the pain.
You keep my decaying mind sane.
You free me without death and hold me still.
How I adore thee, my beloved, who save me from the kill.
I wish you could comprehend,
How I adore, and wish to send,
all my love, unto you.
Excluding the blots and nails and screws.
Paste my heart upon the mantle;
To tell you now how I handle,
myself and the selfishness;
Is this just all my bitterness?
Loving you with more than one kiss.
Can you feel the poison flee?
My gashes and scars are nothing to see.
Oh, it's wonderful here!
With you, my love, I've nothing to fear.
I was living like a disaster.
Begging and screaming to be killed faster.
Mutilating the voice that scolds me.
Shoving it all aside just to be.
I want life.
No more gaunching strife.
Oh how I wish I were perfect.
But that would require eraser to the neglect.
Smile for me my only love.
Bless me now and share the shove.
We're in this together.
Allways us, now and forever.
This poem, Mother, was dedicated to my mother at a time in my life when everything was backwards. Instead of love, I felt hatred. I felt nothing but. I thought I should post this poem on my site because the poesie in it- according to me- is my window to my being.
I adore my mother, she is my life. And although, the atrocities she has bestowed upon me may seem unforgivable, I worship my mother. She is my life.
