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- Thursday night: Saguijo. Purple Chickens, Ciudad, etc
- Friday daytime: Quezon City (apartment, valle verde 5)
- Friday night: Fixed pabitin, town, BF Inner Circle
- Saturday midnight: alcohol, off-balance
- Saturday daytime: ayala alabang, bum at home
- Saturday evening: tropical
- Sunday: hahahaha, and conversations in the evening
In other news: somebody gave me the Octavarium album by Dream Theater. It's nice! I found out that the tracks I Walk Beside You and Never Enough circulating on the P2P networks are not the ones from the album. As in ibang iba talaga. So loser ng pirata na yun, para lang masabi meron siya nun. Bobo. Thanks Camille!
Dino Poblete is one of my closest friends. Although we have spells of absence from each other's lives, I'm beginning to re-realize that nobody can peg me and predict what I'll do quite so well (except maybe for my sister), and nobody can crack me up as much too. Pare you're the best.
Ate Cay talked to me recently, said it was great that you know, I was enjoying life going into a relationship, after all that never really went stable. She guesses it was just a right dose of reality and yes, pain. And she said she was so enjoying life single too, living it up, nothing to hold her back. Just carrying on, and *feeling* everything that is there to feel. I'm happy for her, and she has just turned twenty. About time we switched places. And we also had an embarassing moment last Saturday. Now I know how it feels. Hope classes are going well. Buti pa siya walang binagsak na subject. She's a senior na! ooAAHH.
Lying down at 4am because I can't get enough. Waking up at around 8 or 9am because neither can I wait. I think my body protested last night, so I turned in early last night. There were several people on YM with status: "can't believe i'm missing Chicane!" and similar messages. At around midnight I had finished with business, and lay down to sleep "pake ko kung may Chicane? gusto ko matulog!".
Maybe I was just cranky because I was feeling withdrawn and just wanted to fall asleep with someone beside me.
Happy birthday ate Cay. I hope I'm all you expect me to be.
And that life is treating you the way you deserve. I love you!
Mga pagbabati: kris, the highschool friends, josh and nicco and nicky, rd and dale and choi, carlos, camille, ate cay!
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dail: goth dot net? anu-ano sinusulat nila dun?
adrao: (enthused) ano, mga--
dail: --ano, puro mga "mee, mee"? got ehh, got. ahAHAHAHAHA.
Quezon City memorial circle
kris: ..yosi tayo
medz: okay
**opens windows**
**L300 splashes through nearby puddle, while windows are open**
kris: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Prieto street, 7daan
elderly lady: iho may hinihintay ka ba?
medz: ay wala po, may bibisitahin lang po ako
**small-talk moments**
lady: because you know, it's late and it's much better to be sure
medz: ah ulul? slash-me-does-the-expression
lady: so you're a student? where do you study?
medz: UP po
lady: ah okay, excellent, that's a beautiful school, blah
medz: good evening *alis*
**two minutes later**
guard: ser, pasok nalang ho kayo, magagalit mga homeowners ehh
medz: ah, eh, nagbibihis lang ho. ano baaaaaaaa
Sunrise Hill homes rm. 301
josh: patayin mo muna yung shaman! binubuhay niya yung iba eh
medz: para pala yang jeep
nicco: (the anger) PUTANG-INA ANO PINAGSASABI MO?!
medz: "o pakiusog lang po, syaman yan, syaman!" ahaHAHAHAHA.
**BLAG** "nakikiliti ako!"
yahoo messenger window
miggy: finally... nakita rin kita...
medz: (weirded out pero laban!) ulul??? pano?
**miggy apologizes, explains etc etc**
medz: may camera ka na nakatapat sakin??!
Nooo, fell asleep. Oh well. Stressful morning, hours of waiting, performance-level interview, sub two-hour nap, driving. And, let's not forget washing dishes. Sometimes you just get reminded. And yes. For years. Talaga.
Mga pagbabati: the parents, the ate; the parents, the squid; the stick; the band members; the ones who passed 54 (FORK); the salespeople; the parking aide; the room-mate; the flatmates; the doctor; the elder lady; the ones i miss; and the girl
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I like Dream Theater, and listen to them a lot. Although sometimes I tend to think some of their songs are redundant. I mean, sige, who else has pulled off a 23-minute song chronicling life and the passing of time as told by the change in seasons? Not many, I can say for sure. And the Octavarium album was a solid masterpiece. But I, for one, being an avid fan and long time listener can't help but think (in moments such as this, in the middle of an instrumental exhibition slash sensory beatdown) "what's the point?" I just basically find the style boring at times. I guess they've reached a horizontal asymptote of sorts, and every song is stamped with a signature identifying it as Dream Theater's material. Every band goes through this, and even a rogue group of Berkeley Music School students is no exception. I'm just looking for the 'click' factor of some of their older songs, the feeling that the song is a good one, not just in technical proficiency, but in professionalism as well. I still hold that the Scenes From a Memory album is the greatest ever.
In other news: a teacher passed away, a good friend received a subpoena, the battle of the lawyers (within the same clan), there's a ym virus, 1o8 had good practice, school started for DLSU, the website construction was put on hold, we are rabbits, it's finals day tomorrow and I'm blogging.
So I'm gonna fail Math54. I had plans of dropping the subject, and was really adamant that there was no way I would pass the course, but alas, I was pushed by the parents. Laban daw. Ayan, tignan mo nangyari. My transcript will now have a permanent hole. Dammit. And but hopefully repeating it next term at a slower pace will help me finally get a 1.something in Math.
Valentino Rossi is not gonna be able to defend his title. Ano ba yan. I think there's something wrong with the sponsor (Camel filters took over sponsorship from Gauloises cigarettes this season), at mukhang nagtitipid sila sa quality. Rossi did absolutely everything right at the French GP, but engine failure at 8 laps to go forced him to retire from the race. He was leading by a 4-second margin over rookie Dani Pedrosa (actually, champion in the two lower leagues). He's gonna have a hard time regaining points to stay in the championship run. And I don't want to see him driving a Ferrari anytime soon. Bad bad.
I'm off early to school tomorrow, and will have an adventure too. It's gonna be a day for my redhead;)
Mga pagbabati: dail, deeno, neal, carlaws; ate ko, ryan, carla, nicco, adrao, josh, royce; and the redhead
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Good conversations today. Good times. No sarcasm here, I'm just really feeling very good about myself. I'm breaking barriers! Getting far! I'm flying! No, I'm not actually flying but it feels pretty darn close;)
Well friend, I knew you just needed to be reminded. And don't worry about it, you've not 'fallen from grace', just being human. You know me, I don't pass judgment, maybe I'll have a few snide comments or so (are they snide bitter ones?), but I won't write anyone off as such. People have their secrets, and we won't ever find out everything about a person. So there, someone once told me 'friends stick together', and although that's not entirely 100% true (i mean, what is?), we can assume the limit of the function blah blah..
I've realized, in the mornings, it's easy to get up. It's staying up that poses a problem, especially in a stuffy 15-square meter room with 35 people and a professor with a Doctorate degree (in MATH!) speaking in Calculus-drawl. There, easy to get up, it's staying up that becomes the problem. And I realize, that could also apply to sex. Don't be gross friends;)
I guess, I expected this to happen, and was really prepared for it specially since at the start of things I really saw we could go a very long way. And though the withdrawal from certain circles was as I've said expected, I'm feeling more and more ostracized as the days go by. It's alright though, I just have to work on it more. Sunrise is one (withdrawn from people in the area where you live?), eLeS most specially (I haven't been to any gathering in weeks!), and of course other people who I miss. All in good time.
- There's roast chicken at home. I wonder what that means
- Oh don't mind me I like writing cryptically
- "How traumatizing! And for an 18-year old who's in laaav!" HAHAHAHAHA.
- "Baka you're with child. Ay, you are." HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
- Just some of the things which have been said concerning me. Oh yes, ang saya niyo ah:)
- Ryan Macalino where is my Mayonnaise album leak? Ay, *ssshhh*
- Nice one nyc. I hope all this trying will go somewhere
- "What?" "Oh nothing, I was just checking out what I've got;)"
- Barriers are being broken!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna scream!
You know what's really great? When somebody is different from you, and you go and be yourself around them, and it's alright. Because it is hard to adjust to someone who doesn't live the same way you do. Who has the same philosophy in life. Who mixes differently with people. That is hard. And when somebody is different from you, and that person accepts and nods their head and really *understands*, you've got yourself the beginnings of a good good friendship.
And you know what's really great? Kissing you;)
I have to sleep. And bring a notebook with me everywhere
Mga pagbabati: mikki,
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Message sending failed nanaman ano ka ba, late na late na ang aking reply.
Have you ever felt like you were cheating? Cheating by having things simpler? In life not everybody gets the same slice of cake. Some people have it easy, some people go through hell for the same thing. You can almost say it's unfair, but really now, how can you be really sure? And if you look at the big picture, things are made up for by other things, but you can't really gauge these because it isn't the same. It's never the same. And now I guess it's one very hard time for me and my family. Suffice to say, preparing for this only gave us what we expected.
Valentino Rossi please don't take this season for granted. He's forgetting how good he was on the motorcycle, and getting into the whole Formula1 racing thing, he's only won one race (out of 4 so far) this season, and did not finish twice. This is bad bad, and specially since he's defending champion pa naman. I just hope all of this lack of training on the motorcycle will help him in making a solid entrance into the auto racing sport. Change of lifestyle for him, I guess.
I need gigs. Kahit manood lang ako.
Happy mother's day!
Mga pagbabati: kris, carlos, jello, nicco, ate cay, mom!, all the moms i've met, josh, royce, marrah and co., dr. sex, dale, gaillie, the peoples in the places
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She is smart, very good with words, hardworking, high-society at times (a tolerable and very welcome dose of darksidedness) but koboy all of the time, sweet, passionate, spiritual, and the list goes on. And she's the prettiest. Basta, greatest na nga ehh. She makes me soar, and very differently from past experience. And it goes without saying that she *changed* a lot of things about me.
Friends and family both have expressed support. And it's a very good thing. I don't know, sometimes it just feels like it's too good to be true, but then I do believe good things come your way you should savor them and feel them and *live* in that moment.
I have a friend who is backsliding. Becoming me. And I don't want that, because I've been bad and I'm trying to get back on track and I think if my surroundings influence me to be the luis.lui.medz. of old then I don't think I'll get through this summer semester. I think he'll be okay though, I mean, it's just the summer boredom.
Please support Filipino Youth United. It's an organization with a great vision. The end goal is to save our country, because it is up to our generation to do something about it. Let us change the immediate surroundings. Let's work to give a good life to our children. Look out!
It's nice to catch up with people who've had an impact on your life at one point or another. Examples are past professors, highschool friends, people who've been busy, lovers who left, etc! And sometimes, you just need to sit down with coffee and/or cigarettes, then all the awkward moments and withdrawal disappear. I had a moment today, and though it needs some more work, I can definitely see me keeping that person for a long time.
- Billboard ad: Kenny's INASAL roast. Although the font was weird and at first glance it looked like 'nasal roast'.
- May hype parin ba ang Mazda 3??
- Ryan! Pasensya na! May klase kase ako ehh, shot nalang kayo para sakin. Sorry sorry pare
- Drawer 19 is an exaggeration (I am currently watching CSI)
- "Kamaganak ko ba yan? Pwedeng pwede na turuan yan!" best hirit evar
- Di ako naniniwala sa Petron Xtra Unleaded commercial. Seryoso, exaggeration din yun
- All other members of my family are American Idol adoks
- "they don't love you like i love youuuuu!"
- Dino Poblete mag-ingat ka overseas! Don't do anything I wouldn't
- Oh boy, imagine your parent going out with someone you used to go out with
- I have hot friends!! Hahaha Marrah.
- I'd just look in your direction babe, and all the world can disappear
- I'm enjoying my time, la la la
- ryan: yung alaxan FR, kala ko sabi nung guy "mag-alaxan FCAR!" hahahahahaha. egh pano nangyari yun
Mga pagbabati: kris, ryan and the rest of eLeS, anna go, mark go, david go, lahat na ng GO ang dami dami at wala sa kanilang magkamaganak, the sunrise boys and girls (aa, may girls na!), the diliman people, miss jen leynes, ate inna miss na kita!, joey, 108, marrah the hotness!, al of the studio, mom and dad
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- Getting flak is never great
- Times have changed and still we don't have good rapport
- Kids nowadays, grabe ah, umayos kayo
- I don't want. I don't want eh. Hahahahahaha
- There was this pirated DVD of Star Wars Episode III, laftrip ang subtitles
- When Darth Vader screamed 'NOOOO!', the subtitles said 'Do not want!'
- ^no real significance
- I've decided to go do it naman ehh, nagkataon lang not this week nanaman
- I'm feeling like squat, because if I look back on the years, I did everything that was expected of me
- Thanks for your letters. I was very touched
- Hopefully I wasn't touched in another way. But well, hah
- Carlos should stop that because he has Summer Romance
- Math54!!! DAMN you to hell!
- For the first time in my life, I'm feeling genuinely bobo. Without a clue. It's depressing
- Starting out, again, after a year. The fire keeps burning in the summer heat.
- Time to go
Mga pagbabati: Sandro Happy Birthday!, JC and Tonicci too I don't think I'll write tomorrow, Kris, Nikki and the other kids, (hahaha), Marrah, ate ko, Neil, others
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Although I myself do not believe this. I do believe there's at least one thing you can be sure of in life. Don't believe me? Death is a very real, much evidenced fact. And that's just off the top of my head. There's nothing wrong with being sure.
Have you ever entered into a relationship, already knowing you want quits? Ever felt so strongly about someone, and when whatever you thought you wanted during those months has finally arrived, you find that you don't feel the same way, then run far far away? Ever been very excited about the prospect of something you feel you would love to have, only to find out that what you were actually after was that anticipation and excitement? Ever promised something and then at crunch time you didn't come through?
I haven't. Not a single one from those. I feel something, and it's great, I want to finish it, find fulfillment in the highest, most awesome way. And when I find sooner or later that I've started feeling differently, it's no reason to just drop and walk away. I just don't believe in leaving anyone hanging.
I now have some decent internet access here at Loyola Heights. I feel like a leech, but hey, ganyan talaga kami dito sa 3rd floor. And things have happened. And "before the leaves have fallen, before we lock the doors: there must be this very last dance, this one will last forever". I've also started on this small project, hopefully I can use it for leverage (sayang naman effort!), and I need to find some kind of gift. Hahahaha.
The past two weeks have all been so fast. Even away, seemed like a constant in my everyday life (well actually it was). The title was a winner, and so many things. Oh so many things. There's this girl..
I'm so happy with a lot of the things, and a big part of it due to the things I was able to say to a lot of people. I'm so glad they listened. And I'm so glad they're glad for me. And the world is a nice place to live in, if you know where to look.
Let's begin!!
Mga pagbabati: royce (who has just entered the room bringing brandy and softdrinks), josh (who went ahead and got drunk before getting home), kris (who has just said goodnight;), arlene, icy, jai, dale, dino (ang laaaayyyooo mo kahit nalalakad ko lang bahay mo), others i can't remember, yee!